Holidays

Thankful to be off work, that I logged on & took care of what I needed to & it didn't take long.

That we reconsidered the crystal cupboard & getting it in white means I can get it delivered so we went with that, plus husband found a boot solution. & it was easy to use the pre-paid card online.

Remembered to check the meter and get more credit put on the gas.  That husband came shopping & I still got back in time for Pilates.  & got to speak to friend at the end & organise the next workshop, plus she's happy to have another one in the summer when I'm over.

That I didn't walk round to the dry cleaners with the curtains - they were shut.

That the plans have been sorted out now, with stuff being collected, & our trip to IKEA (which is way more appealing now we're not having to bring a flatpacked wardrobe home).

That I managed to stick out half an hour in the beer garden on my own - extending my comfort zone, & I remembered to post the letters.  & I missed the worst of the rain.

That we had a pleasant walk & chat, & it stayed dry for it.  Have found a new home for the crystal glasses - very happy it's saved me a trip to the charity shop with one box.  That new friend is mostly free so we can have Wednesday afternoon plans.

Have managed to meet my goals for the day, walk at the woods & unpacked a box - can see progress in the unpacking.

Organised

Thankful I put the bins out "just in case" even though I was first in both streets.

That we got the chairs collected and all the pieces were there for the single one.

That I found more sleeves and they fit new game. That I risked saying I'd like to go anyway and got added to the WhatsApp group & gaming is still on.  Very pleased with myself - was disappointed when I thought it wasn't on.

For getting myself to the woods & I was back in the car before it rained.  Found the games and brought them round, & found the dice. Proud of myself for the recording the box contents as I did.

That I found the proof of address letters so we can call into the bank and change address.  

That it occurred to me to call in to the shop and i got what I was after. 

Thankful to have the week off - plenty of time to unpack and do chores.  That the house is really nice & cosy - am loving it.  Better than if we've'd stayed put.

Happy

Thankful for the gaming session, same people from before so I'm getting to know them.  Enjoyed the games, & another player commented on how good it is to be paying that with people who know how to play.  Board game arena is a good host & I'm enjoying the stats.

Enjoyed chatting with friends and heard from a few I wasn't expecting to.

Remembered to phone my parents.  Dad has given us money which is a relief, & they enjoyed the photos and videos I sent.  They seemed cheerful.

That dinner was nice, and there was a nice amount.  

That the dishwasher works and  I've made a start on cleaning the kitchen stuff.  And I've packed up a set of glasses we don't need - ready to give away. 

That husband discovered the freezer defrost / refreeze before we ate anything that affected us.  That the beef seems to be ok (the expensive stuff in the freezer).

That the Christmas stuff fits above the wardrobe so is out of the way.

Husband came round to the other house & we remembered to bring back the chocolate.

Spent some time doing things I enjoy (colouring and playing instruments - am happy to have my music books so I have something to play).  

That the scrap is being collected tomorrow which frees up wed to go out of town shopping.  

Social

Glad I went to the woods and got my walk in & my time in nature, that it didn't start raining til after I was back in the car.

Also for husband snuggling me in before I got up, I'm loving the brushed cotton bedding, bed is so cosy now.

That he put up the final bookcase and I'm nearly done unpacking books.  The library is really starting to come together.

Husband doing all the cooking, and tomorrow's dinner smelling lovely.

That I like gaming and have found an online meetup group I'm enjoying being part of, & when I dialled back into the session I got into some fun games.  That they can't hear him down the 

Caught up with a couple of husband's friends too,  sociable evening! That husband is happy for me to be playing with other people & doing my own thing.

Protectors

Thankful for husband being in same dept & for the pizza lunch.  That team mates were in & so we had friends to sit with.  That I enjoyed the pizza I had and so ate lunch.  

That the team meeting was a laugh and that I like the team I'm in.  That I had another easy day and QA okayed my work.  That I had approvals by the time the boss got back to me so i didn't need to make his suggested corrections. 

For my boss being accommodating and supportive; that I'm able to hold down this job.  That I recognise that work is a protective factor and a positive contribution in my life.

That it was dry for my walk at the woods and Ipstly had the loop to myself.  That I remembered how much I love being there and how good it is for me.  That there are woods close to home so I can get there in a lunchtime.

That people were kind and let me pull out on my journeys today.  That I got to the docs in time, & to gaming on time. That I found a space in the carpark and that traffic had cleared enough for me to get out.

That I love my life and things are going well.  Husband is amazing and I am starting to settle and make friends.

I got a game I liked at today's session and was near the top in terms of attendance. For tracker and journalling apps and so I can record the sessions.  That it's easy to set up habits and trackers.

Better

Thankful to be feeling better, to have got up earlier and cracked on with work.

Enjoyed editing the documents and being able to get on.  Newbie came to team meeting & is a good laugh. 

Got the curtains.  They look good and am relieved husband carried them for me.  

That he got the freezer round & we now have some kitchen supplies.  Like the onion chutney from the hamper.

That we managed to get all the cardboard into the recycling point, & that noth our recycling bins got emptied.  

For callback from the energy supplier and the electric meter is converted and I'm booked in for the gas.

That I got to speak to the guy at the storage place and he received the authorisation - phew.  Fingers crossed it all goes OK with our removals.

Progress

Thankful for an easy work day, & that I managed to get what I needed from my boss. & then I just made it to hypercare for the next stage.

That we remembered to put the bin out & have just remembered the second one.

That I finally managed to catch up with a few phone calls, & found out what the doc wanted - & just phoning back from the missed call wouldn't've done that.

That we managed to collect husband's parcel, & went a sensible way when we got caught in traffic - thankful the shopping centre was in the opposite direction

Speaking to the storage place made progress, & the delay gives me time to sort out authorisation & clear my balance.

Feeling better today

House

Thankful husband figured out why the heating wasn't coming on and fixed it.

That he's still working on assembling the book cases for me and figuring how to fit everything in.

That he's put shelves up next to my computer and my crystal trays fit in perfectly.  Glad I brought them from the other house.

That I got some cool things when i was shopping, the curtain tiebacks look great, & I got more brushed cotton bedding.  

That it's warmer today with no ice and I walked round to the house and back.  

That I braved joining the online gaming group and got into a game.  Husband was there to help me set up the headset and I enjoyed the session.

Warm

Thankful I'm doing half days and can take it easy.

That there is plenty to be ticking over with and not so much I feel bad about being off.

That the duvet cover is dry and husband helped so now bed is ready.

That there was a carpool space right outside the building with the hampers so not far to carry.  Also that there is plenty inside that I like. 

That I realised I had no lights on before I met anything on the road.

Husband has figured out how to set the timer and the house is a lot warmer now.  That we can afford heating.

I got the next few Christmas cards written and posted.  

Calming

Counselling was OK.  I got round in time to get settled.  

Collected husband and got him back here in time to set up for his meeting, & there was enough bread left for us each to have toast for lunch.  

Made it to supervalu for hot chocolate while he was loading the car, and tea arrived in time for me to eat before gaming.  He also liked the cake I got to celebrate our first meal in the house, & said I chose well. 

Had a little nap instead of a meeting I didn't want to go to.  Glad I made the right choice there.

Got bread so we can have breakfast and remembered peanut Butter too.  

Thankful to have the car and am able to drive - means I can easily get around and transport our stuff. 

Thankful for gaming, & that tonight was a 2 game night so I got to leave at the half way point.  That the roads were fine too, & the traffic had cleared when it was time for me to leave.

Happy

Thankful for the electric screwdriver, & for getting the cupboards finished.  For the flat pack furniture being easy to assemble & not requiring much strength.

That we currently have the internet at both houses, so I could sit on the sofa & watch a film with lunch.

Very thankful for the overlap with the 2 houses, that we can take our time moving, & getting stuff together. & that we could leave the house empty while it was being painted.

That I've got half days to help me get sorted in the house.  

That I'm fit & flexible enough to sit on the floor and assemble the furniture, & for being able to climb the stepladder and clean out the cupboards.  That my energy levels are good, & the snoring strips are helping me sleep better at night.

Found

Thankful I've savings, & it's easy to transfer money between accounts, that I can use email instead of text.

That the hot water in the house is fine.

I found the light shades I like when we were out shopping today.

The painter is going to drop off some left over paint for us - phew, I marked the wall already.

I found the door pieces, so the walls are protected again.

Found my pin, & missing bank card.

Contacted someone to clear the gutters, another job off the list.  The painter knows a tiler so hopefully get the tile in the kitchen fixed.

That it hasn't got as cold as expected & was quite pleasant today.

For having tomorrow afternoon off, & husband is going to take it off as well so he can finish the beds.

Clean

Thankful the painting got finished yesterday & it looks good.

That the carpet washer was already at the house and instructions were easy to follow.  Carpet came up nice and was starting to dry out when we went back. 

That husband finished it off - it was hard work!  

The traffic had eased when we went back to the shop & managed to be right outside the shop when husband came out with the dehumidifier.

That the shopping centre we went to was quiet & we picked up a few things.

Found the needle I dropped on the bed. 

Chairs were easy to assemble & table is arriving before Christmas.  Delivery window tomorrow has reduced to 4 hours from all day so I can have a lie in.

Excited

Glad husband came to the house with me.  That we got there and back safely. 

That the bins have arrived and are now behind the locked gate.

For him taking a half day and us not needing to for to work. 

For heating and having a safe warm comfortable house.

That the painter has finished and it all looks good.

I remembered to order the rest of the dining chairs at sale price and they'll come in to local store.

Getting on better at work, calmer and still having good ideas.

For Internet and friends and being able to message friend during the day.  That we have a laugh.  For Pilates on zoom and the new Friday chill our session that I mostly make.  And for husband doing weights with me. Looking forward to getting the heavier weights and being able to progress.

Glad husband is excited about house & we've now got one of the rooms mapped out.  That he helped me design the storage unit for my crystals etc.

Supported

Thankful for my Wednesdays off and for having a counsellor I like.  For being able to have a lie in, and that i've found a way to be comfy in the office. 

That counselling has been fun lately, and today giving her a little tour got me my 250 steps so I managed the full 9/9 which is an achievement.

That I got the cash for the painter, that the credit union is a pleasant place to be and has its own decently sized carpark. 

That I got to the post office and got my stamps and got my parcel and first lot of Christmas cards posted.  Remembered to message aunt for her address.

That the Internet is getting transferred quicker than expected so we'll be in next week.  Got the mattresses ordered so they'll be here next week too - hopefully before we're sleeping in the new house.  

The sack barrow husband wanted was in stock at screwfix and we called into the furniture shop next door.  The assistant recognised us and knew why we were there.

That the gaming is fun and the barman made my hot chocolate.  That we were inside in the warm and we played a new game - love experiencing the new games.  Also for the recognition that the gaming and meetup in general is an important part of my wellness plan.

Thankful everything is coming together with the house.  Thankful for my friends and being able to have a laugh.  And for husband, feeling very lucky with the people around me.

Home progress

Thankful phone volume was on so I heard plumber ring.  That there'd been a cancellation so he could fit us in today.  The boiler is fine & he showed me how to work the controls.

I knew exactly where the bill with the ref he needed was, & the to & fro got me a good chunk of my 10k steps.  

The painting is coming along nicely, & husband came round with me to look at it.  Found the notebook with the room measurements in so they're all in the same place.

That my boss is flexible & I was able to take the time to get to the house as needed.  That I made it into work with husband & got to speak to team.  Team meeting was a laugh as usual, & I needed it.  The boss joined in too.  Managed to help a few colleagues, & found the easy- guide that I'd last sent to a different colleague.  Glad I found it & it came in handy.  Also that I finally managed to help husband out.  Nice to be able to do that, usually he's the one helping me.

Nice surprise reward from work today.  Tis a good place to work.  Glad to be back on my feet and have the experience, and that I am seeming to be getting more used to it.  

Thankful for ebooks and the library collection, for being able to read in bed without disturbing husband.  Thankful too for my day off and counselling.  

Library

Team meeting was a good laugh, as was the usual weekly meeting.

Got round to the house in good time for the painter & enjoyed the few things I unscrewed.  Remembered to bring home the screwdriver.  Called back round later & like the colour - matches the wardrobes well. 

Glad to be getting the steps in, & that I made some of Pilates.

Excited about the library, I've always wanted one. Husband has started the process of transferring the internet.  I finally remembered to contact the removals company to ask for a quote.

Others volunteered for the week between Christmas & New Year so I don't need to.

House

Thankful to be awake & able to start early.

For having the energy to do star jumps & a quick workout.

That I had an easy day workwise, 

That I had a fabulous weekend, enjoyable evening shopping with friend.  

Remembered to collect steps & hoover.  Got locks & oil-filled radiators, & a radiator key.  Got a nice kettle too, & remembered to take cups & drinks supplies to house.

Got cobwebs hoovered up & curtains taken down, & we got the heating working - very relieved.

Enjoyed walk & workshop & both friends turned up to latter.  

Still happy

Still in a good mood :)

Had a reasonable day at work & managed to get through a chore of a task successfully.  Boss was happy with me sticking on an out of office and ignoring everyone.

Team meeting was a good laugh, & I can take the full time off at Christmas if I want.

The dining chairs we like are reduced even further, & there's a store 30 mins away with loads in stock so we've decided to get more.

Got my favourite sales assistant at the sofa shop, pleased it was her who got our order & we had a pleasant interaction.  Also got free assembly on the table, & I can either get the bean bag chair delivered with the table or collect it myself from the store.

Made the effort to go to Pilates & managed nearly all of it before dinner arrived.

Checked the weather & it's going to be mild til next weekend.

Friend has sent me the advent colouring, our annual tradition - I'd forgotten about it til he messaged

Feeling Blessed

Thankful for counselling.  For zoom and having access to UK counsellor and having found one I like who understands me.  That I got comfy in the work room and husband was able to have his computer room and it was a good session today.  

That I'm excited about the house and able to share that.  That I span round putting Nik energy into the rooms, & made it back in time to collect husband.  That there is plenty of credit on the gas and electric for now.

The painter confirmed and is starting next week and the plumber got in touch and will service the boiler next week.

That Jay is good for me and I know this and appreciate him.  That I have a sound boss and am in a good team and recognise that the environment is also good for me - what supports and what hinders my mental health.   That I am well supported.

That we got back to the car before the parking ran out, that there were plenty of spaces when we arrived.  That I got the crystals and have money to be able to treat myself.  

Glad I found somewhere to eat with something I fancied.  The crowd in there when I arrived left before my food was ready, glad I decided to eat in. The guy let me bring in hot chocolate from somewhere else and we had a nice chat when I'd finished.  Glad I offered him a drink too and he gave me free chicken as a thank you & it was nice, as were the sweet potato fries.

Glad I made the effort to go to gaming and it was a good night.  Thankful for the opportunities meetup provides, and that I braved turning up on my own to check them out.  And that husband comes sometimes.  That he likes gaming too.  That I'm comfortable with the drive there and back, and have found a carpark I like. 

Am already feeling more settled and have had a great day.  Thankful to be able to recognise the positives in my life. For the fitbit group and all the people who support me.

That the new house is close enough to walk to and I'm getting plenty of steps in, & managing to get my weight down.

Husband has looked into replacing the barrels and says it's simple and he can do it himself  - he's also ordered the furniture.  Glad he's excited about the house too and for all that he's contributing.  

That I successfully out credit onto both meters.  For having a friend locally who has recommended various tradesmen, & helped me with the prepay meters.  

House

Painter came round & we got there just in time.  Waiting to hear quote.

Thankful friend gave me some contacts, & a colleague knew how to use the meters.

That husband got the shed opened & it's a good one, that was fairly well emptied.

That I wasn't too far when I remembered to go back for the key, & that husband came with me & we measured up for the sofa.

Remembered to phone friend & my mum.

Am really happy with the house, relieved we got it & that everything's ok.

keys

Thankful we got the keys today, that everything went through ok & we're finally done.

That I got parked & someone let me out again into the traffic.

That friend came round & we went to the house together & she is happy to be the first person to see it.

Also relieved the gas card was left out somewhere obvious.  That we're close to the shop for top-ups.  That the light bulbs & curtains & blinds were left.

That logging back in let me access the documentation system & I got the review routed, also that I fixed colleague's mistake.

Friend liked her present.

Husband came for a couple of walks with me today.

Weekend

Glad we decided to check the other furniture shop afterall, managed to get 3 chairs for less than the price of one of the others I preferred.  That we checked the contents when we got back & returned & they found the missing legs.

For having the car & being able to drive, & everything that gives me access to.

For husband doing the cooking & making nice meals.

That I got some pretty new lights, & a discount because it was the display model.

It stopped raining so I could get out to the woods, the guy saw me approach & had my drink ready for me.

Plenty of people signed up to the walk next weekend, & some noobs.

Happy

Thankful for library ecollection and being able to read books in bed on the phone.  

That we got to the market and parking was easy, and I just waited for husband and got to reset the camera time and date. 

That I found some Christmas cards to send, and xan start writing them now.

That he bought me cake he knew I'd like and I got nice grapes too.  That I'm finding it easy to eat fruit - setting up good habits.  That eating out the past couple of days hasn't derailed my weight lost.

Fitbit friend is appreciative of my cross stitch updates, and is stirring happy memories for him.  Am loving the stitching and am pleased other people are enjoying it too.

Going round the supermarket with husband and then to look at the house got me my steps for today - another habit I am pleased to resurrect.  And he did weights with me tonight - am really pleased I brought the weights bench and some weights over - we'd had a good bit of use out of them.   Also thankful we have the room to keep the weights bench out.

Social

Easy task for the day, & got it completed. 

Made it to the woods & treated myself to a tray bake.  Enjoyed the swings & had a quick loop.  Glad the drinks van was open & that they do kids hot chocolate which is a nice size for me.

Made it to the pub on time to meet the others & got a nice parking space.  

Others were parked near me so I had company for the walk.

Enjoyed most of the food we had, & it was nice company - I like the team I'm in.  That I had my tray bake for dessert when I got back. 

Day out

Thankful the team building day was fun, & easy to get to.  That there wasn't much traffic.

There was fruit as well as biscuits so I had some healthy choices.

That I tried the non-alcoholic cocktails & enjoyed them & we stayed long enough for the food which was also ok.

The mortgage funds got released so we are inching closer towards the keys.

Got to meet people, & lunch was small tables so it was easy to chat.   The desserts were very nice too.

Progress

Thankful for my day off and for husband staying home.  

That I slept through the night again.  And husband let me have the study for counselling- warm and cosy in there.  Can see progress in our conversations.  Thankful husband is calm and accepting and I'm learning that from him.

For the car and being able to drive.  That the play area was empty so I got to use the assault course, and I got onto the swings.  

Enjoyed an adventure drive and hopefully know what route to take in future.  Was easy pulling across the main road - traffic was quiet. 

Renewed my annual membership card - glad that exists and I can pop in on a lunchtime.

Progress

Thankful I managed to sort out some work issues & got recognised for it.  

The end of the practical work is done which is a big relief.

That the person I reached out to for help was instantly available & I learnt something new about the software.

That I had the sense to take myself off to the woods when I needed to & I have a boss who enables me to do such things.

That husband was ready to collect when I went for him, & I remembered to avoid the tax & insurance check on the way home.

That I have my work mojo back, & 

Turned the game around & won - pleased.  Am enjoying the games & husband time.

Found something reasonable to watch at lunch.

Mojo

Got my work mojo back, am relieved.

Made it to the bank, & got the paperwork signed, glad I didn't park on the main road, or be wanting a space outside the bank. Was worth driving down that street to remember how much I hate doing so.

That I took my library book & had time to call in & get my latest reservation.  For libraries, and access to books.

Getting better at figuring out the game, & was nice to see husband do so well.

That I figured out what I couldn't on Friday, good to know my brain still works, & that I figured out my mistake from earlier.

Boss was pleased with my assessment, & had no edits.

Recovery

Thankful I had the sense to get to the woods and there were still parking spaces.  That it was dry for my walk, and I remembered fuel on the way home.

That husband filled my advent tree for me 🥰 that he is sweet and attentive.

That we set up the new game and enjoyed playing.  Will get hours out of it. 

For the workshop and the access I have, for being able to join in online activities.   For my network and the cool things I get to experience.  

That I resisted extra chocolate and the scales are moving in the right direction. 

That I am recovering, slept better and longer last night, got up later and for less time.  Had a decent lie in too.

Day out

Had a fab day out. The weather was mostly fine and the fayre was near enough to walk so it didn't matter that it was naff. 

That I got my pulled pork and friend got to sit in cafe and warm up.  

Enjoyed the wheel - haven't been in a viewing one before. 

Finally got a clear quartz dowser & it's gorgeous.  Also a dragon blood jasper which was the one I said I wanted  

Happy to get parked at market and there was no queue at cash point.  

We got to the beach too and I loved it.  Felt much better too.  Also thankful to be driven & able to sleep in car.

On the mend

Glad to work from home, and to be well enough to work.  

That I managed to do some stitching and not just toss and turn when I couldn't sleep.  That Jay is a sound sleeper.

For friend bringing him home for me.  

That we got sorted with the mortgage and my protection insurance is in progress.  

That we need less than I expected to move in - having forgotten about the integrated fridge and freezer.  

Patience

Thankful for being able to work from home / take time off as needed.  That I managed the urgent task the boss wanted taken care of and that I created the next few documents for colleague.

For husband making lunch and tea and me having enough appetite to be able to enjoy it.  That he cuts up melon for us so it's easy to eat fruit.  

That I got another book finished and managed some packing.  Also found a book in the library catalogue that I've been looking at buying, so have placed a reservation.  Thankful the library is free reservations across the entire Ireland collection and they have a great selection of books.  Thankful too for borrowbox and the ecollection.

Ordered a game that was on offer and it's arriving tomorrow.  Used the rest of my voucher so it feels like an extra bargain.  Due to arrive tomorrow ao we'll be able to play it over the weekend.

That I sent a friend some reiki and she said the crystal I chose was spot on. 

Relaxing

Thankful for my day off, that I'm able to get up when I can't sleep and do something else.  That I resisted screens and did stitching instead. 

For counselling and it being online which gives me access to a bigger pool and I have one I like, and I prefer staying home than having to get to in-person sessions.

That I have a calmer approach to work now.  Being less concerned with things that aren't my business, & settling into sharing responsibility 

That it was dry and I enjoyed my loop at the woods.    That the woods are close and convenient and safe.

That I've got friend a place on the workshop as a Christmas present and host is giving me a free place as a thank you for my support.  For my network and friends and that the workshops are online and I can go.  That I can afford both the time and the money to go.

Husband takes care of the shopping and the food.  I got the spring roll I wanted for dinner and found a show that seems OK.

Calm

Thankful for a great day yesterday & being in a good mood.  That it was dry for the walk & we had time to visit the sofa shop.  That friend turned up to the workshop.

That I took myself off to the woods, & it was dry & the drinks van was there & I treated myself.    That I had a pleasant walk & it was empty so I got my backwards walking in.  That I'm in a good mood again.  I made a good observation that the boss was impressed with, & I managed to get some work done.  Finished in time for Pilates & dinner arrived at a good time.  Feeling more positive about the cross stitch now I've regridded it & have made a nice bit of progress on it.

Better

Thankful I did a half day & spoke to my boss.  That he's sound & supportive & we had a nice chat.

That I've been transferring money for the past days so it'll all taken care of in time.

That I sent Reiki to a friend in need, & she contacted me soon after - we had a decent catch up.

That I have plenty of simple joys in my life, from fluffy clothes and slippers to scents and candles...  

For the ability to enjoy & get lost in colouring and stitching, & that I have hobbies I love.

For friends, & shared interests.  That friend still teaches Pilates online & I'm enjoying the Friday session, & husband was happy to let me attend & collect him afterwards.

That I'm feeling better.  That I was energised enough to do some basic housework, & a little exercise.

Support

Thankful for counselling - that we had a good conversation and uncovered some truths.  That friend invited me round and fed me, & I got to the woods.   That we got word about the house and the move is imminent.   

That friend invited me to the woods and drove and it stayed dry while we were there.  That we had a pleasant time in the cafe.  I got my 10k steps, and resisted take away when husband ordered.  Have lost a bit of weight and am happy with that.

That I decided to come off the tablets and still have others to see me through and I had the sense to do both things.  That I'm enjoying my cross stitch project and audiobooks.  Glad I have calming absorbing hobbies and also that I'm for and active.  Had a nice chat with husband on the drive.  Very grateful he is so calm and supportive.  And fir my boss being supportive too and making it easy for me to be off when I'm not OK.

Confidence

Am thankful I have the confidence to speak up. And that I am sure myself and know my stuff.  That answers and ideas come readily when I need them.  That I have shown myself to be competent many times and that is the impression people have of me.

Also that I have the confidence to try new things, and to be able to fail at things.  That I am happy being bad at things - decoupling enjoyment from ability.  

That friend still does the online pilates so I can attend and I made today's earlier session and enjoyed it.  That I still have reasonable flexibility and movement - that I am physically able. 

For it being dry when I went to collect husband's prescription and the few steps took me over my arbitrary minimum.  That I wasn't needed in work today which helped get me to Pilates.  That I have enough space in the house to roll out a mat and take part in the class.

For being able to see and listen - able to enjoy my hobbies of crafts and audiobooks.   Thankful for having access to audiobook collections.

House

Thankful to be inside, warm and dry and safe.  To have the house and food and clothes and entertainment.   For our jobs and easy commute, & a reliable car.  

That we have the canteen at work and a reasonable selection of lunch.

That I figured out how to fix the engineer's issue and got the system working again

For the friends and contacts I've made, & the experiences I've got access to.  

For being online and able to chat with non-local friends, & to be able to take part in online zoom meetings.

Friends

Thankful for being awake early and it being light enough to read in bed.  For library books and being able to read and having access to plenty of books. 

For the coffee van at the woods and that I enjoyed my drink at the start (& didn't feel the need for a second).  That it was a good social walk and I enjoyed it.  That it was mostly dry (& mostly quiet).  That people are happy to pay the membership and i'm back to seeing the group as a good thing.  I also put a bonus walk on for next week.

That I mentioned the Christmas Market to a friend & she's coming with me - we'll have a nice day out. 

That husband played our new game and it's fun and reasonably easy to figure out.  That we have the table and chairs and enough space for gaming and out hobbies.  We were lucky and have a good house, & the agency have been easy to deal with. 

The oven is really good and I resisted getting unhealthy take away and had fruit and veg for dinner. Husband shared ice-cream with me and gave me the last chocolate. 

That I'm enjoying the cross stitch and have made loads of progress.  Glad to have solitary hobbies and flow activities, & enjoying my alone time.  Glad husband is low maintenance and that we have a good life. 

Friends

Thankful I got to Pilates yesterday & caught up with friend.  That I got to swap messages with her today too.  That I was inspired to create a grid for her that she loves, & talk to another friend about crystals.

That husband got his samosas & I remembered to buy the infuser - the teapots were nice but unnecessary & she had a reasonable separate infuser.  Also got a nice present for a friend who was pleased with it.

That it was sunny & I got to take advantage & go to the woods, & the play area was empty so I got plenty of time on the swings.

That friend didn't have to work afterall, & took me out to the gardens, we had a nice chat & stroll, & someone gave her free parking.

Got my refund from Amazon & have resisted spending it.

That I saw the game we wanted cheap locally & it arrived ok.  That I'm able to take time off work as needed.

Thankful for the people I've met on my journey & the friends I've made.  For having access to the library & ebooks & apps & all the conveniences I have.  That the woods are close by & we have lovely countryside & gardens within easy travel.

Day out

Thankful counselling was good, that husband let me have the PC room so I was warm and comfortable.

That the weather cleared for the drive.  Got into the car park and found a space.  Parking costs are reasonable.

Enjoyed sitting in the cafe, & got the table next to the radiator which was on.  Left alone to read and message friends.

Found a crystal shop and a lovely crystal.  Was restrained and only bought one.  Husband's next appointment is also a Wed afternoon and I'll take him and buy myself some jewellery for Christmas.  

The town looked nice and is easy to get to.  Also feasible to meet a friend there.

Have enough thread for the grass even though I've been doing it wrong.  Phew.

Taking it easy

Thankful no-one came to me with issues.  That the basic trouble shooting I did was enough.

Workmate took care of the urgent task from Friday. 

I finally got into the document system and routed what I needed - that there's nothing urgent.

That things are progressing with the house & we signed the paperwork.   I know my limit for transferring money & have time to get to the bank tomorrow if needed.  That we got there just on time and I remembered to take our marriage cert.

I'm doing OK on the prozac, the side effects I was worried about on the weekend didn't appear.

Bonus day

Thankful I got to the woods, & that I was wearing tights not jeans so they didn't stick to me wet.

That it was quiet & I had plenty of space to enjoy walking backwards & sideways

That it was dry when I popped out to the shop, & I managed to get cake & pop, & change.

For friends coming round gaming, & they seemed to enjoy it - & so did husband.  Glad we were inside instead of going out for a walk in the bad weather.

That it was a bonus day off, I love bank holidays.

Entertained

Thankful I got to the woods in relative dryness and enjoyed my walk around.  That it's nearby & open again & the paths are wide and easy.

That friends are coming round tomorrow to game, & husband is happy to play with us.  Thankful I have friends, & we have room to host. 

That I got into the zoom & enjoyed it.

For tomorrow being a bank holiday, & a bonus day off.

That I got the library book finished & the bookworm & have enough thread for the bear.  

For husband doing weights with me, & that I'm getting stronger.  That I brought the bench & some of the weights over, & we have room for them too.

That I'm excited about the house, & that hopefully things will be resolved soon.

Weekend

Thankful I got to the woods for a walk yesterday, & got my step goal.

That there was no samosa guy today so no reason to get up & go out.  That I enjoyed a lazy rainy day rediscovering some tarot.

That husband cut up the melon for me, making it easy to eat fruit.

Have completed the baseline period & now I have access to my data, which makes the app better.

That friend found her bookmark.

Work

Dentist went ok, got there just in time & next appointment is the pair together.

Got home & got the washing hung which avoided me getting stuck in the traffic at the road works.

Managed to get my document approved.

Got a seat for the presentation, & a piece of my favourite cake.  Remembered to sign the card, & husband put money into the collection for us.

Got into work in time to get the good desk.

Monday's a bank holiday, glad to realise today the things we need to get done tomorrow.

Husband did weights with me, I love watching him & that we train together so he keeps me using good form.

Day off

Thankful to get husband to work & home in plenty of time before counselling.

That sitting in the computer room with my feet up is way more comfy than sitting on the bed, glad I switched.  

& that I finally managed to write a piece for the creative writing workshop. 

That there was a dry spell & I got to the woods & enjoyed the swings.

Husband ordered me the things I like in the home delivery, & it came well before dinner.
Glad he cooks & stocks up things I like, & he managed to get my favourite bread.

That I got to collect him & get back in time for the workshop, & we were home before the worst of the weather.

work day

Thankful to have the freedom to take a nap this morning & log on later.  That there was a space in the near carpark & I was online in time for the team meeting.

That I got my free crepe & chose well, & it was better than the lunch options.

That friend seems cheered up after I upset her.

That I realised the kit I ordered was the wrong one & hopefully have cancelled in time.

That I had some wins at work today

Glad tomorrow is my day off.

Taking my time

Thankful in a good mood today, & nothing urgent cropped up over the weekend.

That I got my document progressed so I got my brownie points for the day before I disappeared early.

That I had the sense to go to the sensory gardens while waiting for husband.  The dandelion fountain was on when I first arrived & I was enjoying listening to it.  Also enjoyed the pie I got & it was in a closable container so easy to bring home when husband was ready before I'd finished it.

That it stayed dry for our walk at the woods, & didn't start raining til after we got back.

That I eventually had a good idea & managed to finish my uploads.

That I'd warned my boss my brain was slow before I sent on the document.

relax

Thankful to get out for a walk with husband, & then to the woods.  That it was dry for the walks, & I had the sense to turn the car around in the bad rain.  That the road was only flooded a little - fine to drive through.

That we got the cheesecake & curry leftovers finished, & husband surprised me with an apple pie because he knows I like them.

That it was dry when I picked him up & I got there just as the bus pulled off.  That he had a good weekend away.

That I exchanged some messages with a friend who I rarely catch up with.

Am making nice progress on a present for a friend, am pleased I kept the pattern & had a handy sized piece of aida.

We've got sleeves ordered for the new game, before the cards get too damaged.

social

 Had a fun adventure with a friend, know some new places to take visitors,

That we were on the way back to car before I hurt my knee & it seemed ok when I got home.

That we had a nice walk out today, glad it was dry, & flat.

That I made the effort to get the samosas & they liked them

That they enjoyed the game we played, & it was a good laugh.

Glad to have picked up my tiger cross stitch again

Dinner worked out well

Progress

Thankful I was brave enough to ask for a receipt, & that I still had contact details, & that the receipt came through.

That I managed to get myself to the woods, & it stayed dry for my walk.  Very thankful to have the woods nearby, & that I can get there, have a reasonable walk, & get home within an hour - making it a feasible lunchtime activity.

That I was fit to get husband to work & collect him again, & that I got home in time for our team meeting, & that it was a laugh.  That the boss was there & I managed to do the task I needed to, & for being part of a team & able to take a break & let other people take care of everything.

That I have a friend here & we've plans to go for a walk tomorrow.

That I didn't get the same pain from the capsule today as I did yesterday, & that when my mood was low I was able to do what I needed to, & that eventually I felt better.

Day off

Thankful i have access to things like medicine and counselling.  That I have the Internet and a private room to hold conversations undisturbed. 

That husband looks after me & checks up on me.  That he makes dinner and provides healthy food that I like.

That I made the effort to go to gaming, & it was an enjoyable session.  That I took a coat & as warm enough.  That I won!  Am enjoyed learning the new games and having the company.  Left at the right time to be home before the storms hit.

For things like the meetup and being able to meet people to socialise.  That I'm settling in and making friends and know some regulars at events now.  That I'm got a friend from work now, so we can go walking etc.

 

That I picked up a different cross stitch and am enjoying that - finding it nice and relaxing while I listen to an audiobook too.

Pleased I found some radio stations in the car that's tuned in now. 

That I told my boss about the new meds so I cam start late tomorrow without issue.  Very thankful to have am easy-going supportive boss.  And to be part of a team.

Plans

Thankful to be in a team so someone else can do the work I dislike.  That the boss stepped in.

That I logged on later and figured out someone's issue.  

That I got to tell him about the tablets in case I'm not there the rest of the week.  That I've made the decision to take the prozac and have the rest of the week clear just in case.

That I got to the dentist in time, & survived the session.  

That I have the xanax for when I need it, & am glad I wasn't too stubborn to take it today.

That I made it to the library and got my latest reservation, & cleared most of the pile I had here.  Posted husband's letter, & remembered to get his requests from the supermarket.  That I also remembered the things I wanted.

Car

Thankful I have a reliable car that I can afford to take care of.

That I got to the nct centre on time, & that the car passed.

That the day passed pleasantly enough, even though I was frustrated I had a laugh with a colleague.

Made up my hours from going to the test centre, & managed to figure out to do what I needed workwise.

That no-one needed anything beyond the work day & the boss tends to go to the others first.

That I've realised I do need to take the new tablets the doc has prescribed, & it'll be ok.

walks

Thankful friend met me at the woods. & that the glue on the door is still holding.
That we got out & back before the rain, & the new woods is going to be good for future adventures too.
We have plans for next weekend.

That I found my reg details & am ready for tomorrow.

For braving joining a new group & being awake enough to attend the zoom this week.

That I got new reeds a while ago so I had what I needed to play the clarinet today, also found the remnants of my cork grease so was able to put it together (& take it apart) easily.

Weekend

Thankful the samosa guy was there for husband, & that he's bringing the lamb ones next time.  For a friend pointing out that I could get the lamb ones are a treat for husband while he's away (assuming the stall's there next week).

That I got a library skimmed through & like the look of it enough to get myself a copy, & that I found it online.

For husband chopping up lemon for me, & keeping a decent supply of fruit in the house.

That we have room for the clothes airers so plenty of space to hang washing.

That there's someone I was chatty with on a forum & we've just restarted communicating outside of that.

Doing well with the tracking on the new app so far.

Husband remembered to get me an apple pie as a treat when he ordered his dinner which was nice because I didn't really have enough leftovers to satisfy me.

Weekend

Thankful the day & week are over.  

That I held my temper for the day

That it was dry the whole afternoon
& I managed to get the rubber glued up a little.

That the tyre sensor stayed off today.

I managed to get registered with an app I wanted to try out.

Home things

Pleased / relieved my boss liked my slides, & that husband came back & reviewed them again.  That it went ok in the audit, & I was able to explain another query too.  The boss apologised for having me in on my day off. 

Husband had a spare mask which was better than the old one I had in the car.

That I got to work in time, & the boss found me a private office for the day.  That I got to come home & lie down at lunch & am pleased I stuck with the decision to get a house near work.

That husband's health insurance for the mortgage has come through which was the last of our hurdles overcome.

That the sofa we like is still on sale - looks like its permanent price.

Remembered to order a bank statement (for the right account this time) for the solicitor.

Healing

Feeling better today, even managed to log on for some of the afternoon. Got slides sent to boss,  & husband helped me.  Glad of his quiet support and that he has time for me when I want his help.

That I managed to drop him off & collect him today.

That he got me lemsips before he went our yesterday, & we have honey from shopping last week.

For elibrary collection and being able to read in bed through the night when I can't sleep.  That I was free to sleep during the day.  Also got an interesting book straight out straight out & am enjoying it today.

That revisiting my colouring book collection has resulted in me reimplementing tech off before bed.

Remembered to do grats.

Finished the Navajo on Duolingo.

Remembered to email to say I won't be writing tomorrow.  Glad I cancelled counsellor this week - am expected in work tomorrow.

Relax

Thankful to be able to lie on the sofa & watch tv.

For husband doing the cooking & me being able to take it easy.

That we have plenty of ice-cream, & there are people who will drop off supplies if we need them.

For having friends to chat with during the day.

That I was able to move my pictures from in front of the radiator, & I have a lovely cosy blanket to lie under on the sofa, & pillows & cushions.  Glad we have a sofa & a tv.

Walk

Thankful I was awake for the walk, & made it on time.  That there's a lady I can rely on to be early & we had a nice chat waiting for the others.  That the weather was dry & it was a pleasant walk.   That I'm going to come back another time with a friend & we can try the longer loop.

Friend is feeling better, & is up for a walk if I am.  Sounds good for a plan tomorrow.

Husband's friend dropped him home saved me having to go out & collect him.

That a contact has given me details of a removals company they said were really good.

Finally brave enough to watch Netflix in German & found an interesting show.

Work

Thankful office was quiet.  That I got some troubleshooting done and some responses to my request for help.

That the boss agreed we weren't going to a 6pm meeting and he'd come to a rescheduled one.

For favourite office mate being in & having a hood laugh.  That we got to burst the air pockets. 

For a good chat with another colleague & the project is nearly done. 

The prescription said 28 days but they gave me boxes of 30 - I wondered if that would happen & now I know.  That I got to practice patience as I waited in the chemist. 

That I chose to go into the supermarket with husband so wasn't sat waiting in the cold & dark.

Day off

Glad my task was finished so I didn't need to do anything today.

That I get my day off & had a lie in.

That I asked workmates about the car & got glue today.  That I didn't take the letter so was safely in the car during a downpour rather than walking to the post office.

For counselling & access to healthcare.  That I managed to get straight through to the doctor's & have an appointment tomorrow.

House is still progressing & we're a little bit closer.

Work

Thankful to get a good desk, & that my work is as progressed as it can be.  That office mate is better.  

That I noticed more mistakes & got them corrected.  & remembered to get progress updates for a few other things.

That our delays aren't a problem & we've worked around them.

Thankful I have a job & good wage, & for the flexibility I have.  That I heard back from my boss in time to get home from Pilates & managed the whole session & even a little chat with friend at the end.

That husband had tea for the end of Pilates.

That I got through the day

Work

Thankful the office was quiet.  For being part of a lunch crowd and enjoying the social tables.

That I spotted some sloppy work in time to get it fixed.

Made some sensible suggestions to the boss that were well received.  Being obviously aware of what's going on in the project and making considered remarks. 

That the boss is back and available again.   He signed off what I needed from him.  That he managed to switch off during his break and enjoyed it.  That we're likely to have a proper chat tomorrow. 

The computer apps eventually got fixed and I got to cross something off the list.

That I didn't snack much and am getting the weight back down a little.

That I'm enjoying my language learning and my books.  Glad I can read and have the confidence to try new things 

Spoilt

Thankful the weather was good for the walk, & it worked out.  That it was a good friendly crowd.

That I've found someone who's interested in playing board games, & maybe helping with the cleaning.

That I'm enjoying the Japanese & have a good chance of the diamond league top spot.

That I remembered to renew my library books & am really enjoying the book I picked up today.

That I feel better now.

For friends to chat with, & husband to look after me.

Entertained

Thankful the samosa stall was there and I got parked easily.  

That we were a bit later than usual so the library was open when I got there - I had their hours wrong.  

That I remembered husband's prescription and they did it while I waited, & there was a seat free.  

That I remembered to respond to the meetup comments.  And friend replied to say she's coming. A couple of newbie returners are signed up too.  

Remembered to pinch & punch friend, sparking off our monthly chat.

Spent some time on the German grammar rules & think I understand better now.  That there's a new calendar is tracking us much easier - am impressed by my commitment. 

Support

Thankful for feeling better today, esp that headache is gone.  

For being on form when I needed to be, & being in a team means I can lean on other people & share the work.

Team meeting was a good laugh & I didn't have to speak much.  Another meeting it was obvious my voice was going, & I get brownie points for trying. 

For friend bringing me homemade soup.

For husband cooking for me, & knowing what I like.  For his continual patience & care.

Support

Thankful to be in a team where other people can cover me, & to be able to take a day off & the work still get done.  A colleague offered to drop us off groceries if we needed anything.

My headache is finally gone.

Friends to chat with through the day, & husband being home.  Being able to stay home & not go out anywhere.

For having a house, somewhere to live & store our things & stay warm & dry.  That I have a big collection of entertainment to see me through, & have discovered audiobooks which I'm enjoying on days when my eyes are too sore to read.

That I can read & enjoy reading.  For access to the library, & being able to renew books so there's no pressure getting them back.  That they have an interesting range.

That when I picked up one of the books it opened on exactly the right page for what I was looking for.

Space

Thankful for my day off, that I'm on a four day week, & for the flexibility I have.

For the internet & things like youtube, having access to information and tutorials.  

That there's space & time for me to do yoga & Pilates, 

For finding a counsellor I like, & finding myself identifying checking in triggers / signals.

That it was dry while I carried the paper bag full of paper donations.

That my game arrived in time for use to cancel gaming & have our own session checking out the new game.  Also that I was feeling rough & feel better now.

Managed to get an NCT slot in time & not too far away.

Friends

Thankful to know a variety of people.  To have people to turn to as needed, & for shared hobbies & interests.  For the support I have.  For the ease of being able to get in touch with people, for phones and internet.  For all the tech we take forgranted - like Google maps & directions.

That I went to see a friend today, she phoned when she saw me pass & came out onto the street so I'd see her.  That going to hers is always an option, & it's an ok drive.  That she bailed on the walk so I didn't have to, & we had a nice chat at hers instead.

For husband cooking & thinking of me when he does the shopping.

That I get a restful day, & husband did weights with me.  That I'm stronger than I was & can see that progress.  Also see the progress in my mood & mental state.

Thankful for the abundance I enjoy, that I have what I need and access to things I want.  For the library and the online library services.  That I enjoy reading and am surrounded by books.  For the other hobbies I have, & access to the resources I need for those too.  For the variety available.

Social

Glad to be able to drive past the market stall, see the stall we wanted wasn't there, & just exit out the carpark.

That I walked down to the cafe and I wasn't that late - got talking to a couple of the others in the queue.  It was a pleasant hour or so, & I'm proud of myself for getting tea instead of hot chocolate (esp since I don't like their hot chocolate much).  Have been avoiding sugar today, & resisted ice-cream when husband had his.

A few people have signed up for next month's walk, should be good.

That he cooks for me, & when he smoked out the kitchen he opened the window & patio doors & shut the internal ones.  Also thankful he chopped up the melon for me, & looks after me.  That we're back to trying to be healthy.

That I didn't have the new bracelet on long, & noticed I've reacted to it.  A few times when I'm gone to wear it I've decided against it, now I know why.

For having the space to play games, & husband playing with me.  

That I've discovered my kindle library on the pc, & it's in colour.  I love my kindle, & reference books are so much easier to use on the pc.  Glad to have both, & hard copy too.  That I have plenty of books, & am enjoying reading.

Relax

For husband playing games with me & that I found the gaming group & new games to play.

For having the confidence to pick up a game & run a table.

That husband got me my favourite bread & regularly provides / cooks things I like.

For him doing weights with me, & that I'm getting stronger.

That I stayed online long enough to get my document out for review, & the boss can chase getting it approved.

That I'm getting on better with the new guy now.

Gaming

Thankful have the money for counselling & I found one I like.

That I have a 4 day week, & my boss is sound about time off.

That I made it to the creative writing & got something written.

For having a nice new notebook to use

For husband chopping up the butternut squash for me.  & coming to gaming,

That we got there & back safely.

Learning

Glad to be getting on better with a colleague.  

That I spent a pleasant day in the lab & spoke up in their team meeting.

That husband has better insurance in progress.

For him doing weights with me.

That the boss is letting me take Thursday afternoon off to take husband for his check-up & we had a nice chat about the house.  I'm excited about the house!

We managed to get an instant chat agent to sort out the inappropriate bill so hopefully that's over.

That I got a place on the creative writing course & the details came through today.

That there are interesting springboard courses & some start in Jan so I have time to look for an interesting one & apply.

Relaxing

Thankful to meet friend for a walk today, to get out & get my steps.  Glad too that the woods are open again, & the weather was good.  We had a good chat.  Nice to be making friends.

That there was nothing planned so I got to nap plenty.  Also remembered to phone my mum & she was on good form, & I got to speak with my dad.

Remembered to look at furniture shop with husband, & the near one has a lovely sofa - easy decision.  Is also much shorter lead times than the shop we were originally considering.

Husband has chosen a bed, glad to not have to be involved.

That I opened his ignored mail in time to contact someone chasing a bill from our old house, before their deadline.  That I still have the necessary email & paperwork to forward on, & they have a messenger contact as well as email.

Husband doing weights with me.

That I've been enjoying cross stitch again, & the mistakes I've made should be easy to incorporate into the design, & work around.

Social

Thankful that the samosa stall was at the market, & that I got parked.  Parking and pulling out were both easy and there wasn't much traffic.

That husband came to the shop I wanted and I got more supplies for the volunteer centre, & sharpeners to go with the colouring pencil sets.  That I got a project book for my language studies and it's got moveable dividers - which is better than I realised.  Plus I managed to get the type of calendar I prefer for next year.  

Thankful for the ease of apps and websites and information - all the different ways to learn.

That I woke up in time for gaming and we got there on time.  Also that it was fun and were told it plays well as 2 player so I've ordered us a copy.  

Thankful for the Internet and home delivery, that things are easy so acquire these days compared to having to go shopping.

That I reached out to someone I know and we're having a good chat.  That I've messaged quite a few people today and am feeling socially complete.

Meeting another friend for a walk tomorrow.  And the woods is open again- hurray!  I knew I wasn't really going to drive to Dublin so this is a good option. 

The towels dried so there's space to hand the bedding and husband helped me with the duvet covers.

That I'm free to go to bed, & have the flexibility to nap.  That I found guy's house OK and we spent a good afternoon there, & we left before we got hungry or I got too tired.  Journal app means I can start taking photos of the games I've been  playing and recording it.  Looking forward to that - cataloguing the games I pay and whether I like them.

Calm

Remembered to message my brother.

Thankful that I stayed home, there was no point going into work, & glad husband didn't need to either.

Husband did weights with me, & he made dinner & chopped up melon for me.

That I remembered to get an address for tomorrow, & am looking forward to it,

That I've gone back to my cross stitch & am enjoying lying on the bed stitching while I listen to an audiobook.  Glad to have access to them & to be enjoying them.

Support

Thankful I am so well supported.  That husband was there to go to lunch with so I didn't have to wait til I was murderous, that we got a table.

That my delivery fit through the letterbox.

That I got my protocol signed off today, one step closer to the end of this project.

That when the boss told me to do x I replied that I was doing y & he agreed that was the priority.  Thankful I find it easy to speak up, & that I can defend / justify the decisions I make.  That the boss is easy to work with.

That husband helped me access my reading & I enjoyed it, it's perked me up.  It's provided some clarity around something that's been bothering me.  I can actually see that I can relax & let this go a little, & maybe after a little, a little bit more...

For being able to offer to get to the chemist for husband & that I made it just before closing.

Excited about the house, relieved to still be able to get excited.  That we're looking at sofas & starting to discuss what's happening in each of the rooms.

That we had a laugh at the daily team meeting, & I like my team mates.

That I'm starting to feel physically awful, like I do, & I know it's bedtime.  Thankful that I can sleep in tomorrow if I need to.  

Healthcare

Thankful I have husband.  That he is calm and generous and reliable.  That he is calming and cuddly

Also glad I didn't disturb him when I was restless and that he can sleep through me having lights on etc.

For journals and blogging and being able to dump my thoughts out, clear my head and get back to sleep.

That I have access to healthcare, the doc and the dentist.  That I can afford my treatment and medicine.

For being able to drive and the additional access that gives me, and the speed and convenience of car travel.

That my boss is sound and grants me the flexibility I need to be able to do my job.

more sleep

Thankful there were free desks in the office for us, and that I got to give up & come home.  

For the flexibility to come home & nap, & work from home.  Meetings were cancelled & I got the most urgent thing finished.  That the boss covers the global catchup for me.

Boss passed the work I requested onto the other guy & there was nothing I needed to do, seems like everything's in hand.

That I can afford to take the day off if needed, husband looks after me.

Tomorrow is a new day.

For plenty of entertainment like audiobooks and tv shows, for quiet hobbies like the cross stitch.

Sleep

Thankful to have no plans today & be able to spend the day in bed.

That I got plenty of sleep - must've needed it.

Husband made lunch, & I have things in the freezer I can put in the oven so I don't need to have take away every time he does.

That I am free to take tomorrow off if I need to, if I need more sleep.

That I got the reading done & sent.

Sun

Glad we called into Lidl on the way past, & they had activity & colouring books & felts on offer so I got a stash of the volunteer centre.  That husband is generous like that & never questions what goes into the shopping.

That the weather cleared up & it was a lovely afternoon for the walk.  & I remembered the way - it's a really easy drive.  Glad too that friend was driving.  They really enjoyed the walk & we had a good chat, not all about work.  That we will continue to make plans & hang out.

That I found another meetup group to join, am slowly making friends.

Thankful for the internet & all the resources available.  For access to library books including online & audiobooks.  For being able to see and to listen.

That the neighbouring house details are still available for me to show people, & being able to get excited about the house & have people to share that excitement with.

reflections

Thankful to be invited out as part of the group.  That the others got there before me so I could be early & not alone, & that it was fun.  I like the team I'm part of at work.

That parking was easy, & I am getting braver in the car.  

That when I spoke to the boss I was on good form & my suggestions were well received.  I obviously know my stuff & am well on top of what I need to be for the project (eg where the shortage of power leads kicks in).  Also that I can show the usefulness of the tracker - & that I'm up to date with everything.  That we got to the end of the rebuilds, & I know what I'm doing to carry on with the others now.

It was dry at lunchtime when we got out for our walk & I managed to get husband to go a slightly different way.

Messaging friends, thankful to have friends to chat with.  For husband not needing to be in work so we stayed home.  For having that flexibility, & the nap at lunch.

Work

Thankful to have my next document nearly ready, & that today's instrument went smoothly - that it looks like I can fly through them if I need to.  

The project builds are back on track & we might get the released ones finished tomorrow, am hopeful about the project again.

That we caught a break in the rain to get from the carpark to work, & back over after lunch.  & was dry again to get back to the car.

That the team meeting was a good laugh - I like the team I'm in. That there were desks for us when we got to work.

There were nice lunch choices today, & the others were happy to wait for husband to go over.  Remembered to ask team mate about tomorrow & pass on the answer.

For being able to read, & enjoy learning.  For the internet & access to information.

That the bank guy got my email & his reply came through.

Rest & recovery

Got to make up an hour at work, & teammate was getting on with what we agreed.  Cleared my training backlog.

Managed all my errands, and free parking since someone gave me theirs as they were leaving.  Waved a couple of cars out & felt good about being that kind of person.

Had a nap when I came back, & felt refreshed afterwards.

Enjoyed catching up with someone from my past, & heard back from new friend.

Treated myself to a massage, & in the few mins I was early got to check out parking for Friday, also found parking nearer the massage room for future times I drive down.  Driving was the right choice for today, thankfully the rain was when I was inside.  Was worth trying a new experience, & knowing not to bother with a head massage again,  

Got myself some new tops like I've been looking for 

Good form

Got husband to the doc's in nice time & was easy to pull up & drop him off & continue to the woods.  That it was dry while I was there & I got back for husband at a good time.  Plenty of people waved me out when I needed it.

Didn't have to take bloods to the hospital so got to work in time for the team meeting which was good.  Obviously in much better form today, & had a better idea for what instrument to take - showing I'm on top of the game today.  Also found & corrected a mistake that's been in my first 5 protocols & none of the approvers spotted.

Got the instrument done today, just the paperwork to take care of now.  Explained it to team mate & we found a mistake - he checked the rest so he was happy reviewing after that.  Good to have him to turn to since he's in most days.  Also that other team mate helped him so we got it all done between us.

Got to lunch (& back) in the dry, & finally managed to meet colleague from the other dept.  Rained all through lunch so we got to sit & chat instead of a walk, & we got free cupcakes.

Found wedding certificate, & filled in the paperwork - ready to drop off tomorrow.  Didn't need as much time off this morning as expected so I have just a little to do tomorrow & plenty of time to do a few chores.  Very relieved to find wedding cert & the rest of my formal paperwork.  

Had a nice chat with another team mate & we're going to make some corrections on the builds - he's so easy to deal with & a reminder that I am good at what I do, & it's all well thought out etc.

Space

Thankful to be home in the bad weather, with nowhere to go.

That it was dry for our lunchtime walk & husband joined me for it.

That he's put the bin out already.

That even though I was upset this morning, it was a good illustration to show the boss.  Glad he came to the team meeting, & asked me last so I could just say no & ask him to hang on for a bit.  Sounds like he's finally getting the message.  Also that I was composed by the time I got to speak to him.  That he makes time for us when we need him, & that he's easy to talk with.  Also that I have brought this up in low level ways plenty of times before so it's not coming out of the blue.

Remembering a cosy top to comfort myself, & having a stash of chocolate.

Husband taking the day off meant I got to stay home & hide from everyone while I was upset, & that I had an easy day.  

For a week of working with mentor buddy & hopefully getting done what we need to so by the time the other guy's back I won't need to work with him much.

That someone recommended some games so I've been exploring them, & passed the evening.  Am feeling more stable now.  That I have the money to be able to treat myself, & also that I don't shop to cheer myself up - I turn to the pc or reading or hobbies.

That even after I sat & cried for too much of today, that I still have plenty to be thankful for.

Thankful for the space I have, both physical, & mental.  For friends to chat with and help give me perspective.

Social

The weather held for the walk and everyone turned up.  Waiting for a friend I knew was coming meant we were still there for the newbie I'd forgotten about.

The others were happy to pay their membership fees and I heard back from the other organisers. As 

Thankful too that friend's partner is into crystals and so joined us and we had a great time talking about the crystals and life - better than us just talking about work.  And we have plans for future walks too.

I enjoyed the crystal fair (last time I didn't) & got myself a few lovely pieces, within a sensible budget. 

I remembered the recommendation I said i'd write and got the draft sent - she is thrilled with it and reminds me of some of my good qualities.

Reached out to someone else I'm getting friendly with who was receptive and now we're connected on messenger.  Also got a reply from another contact so we can step the gaming up.  Things are looking up socially.

abundance

Thankful for the areas in my life I have abundance. Money, clothes, hobbies, books, healthcare, education, knowledge, access, nature, time, food, 

Thankful for access to the library collection and the subscription services we have.

That I braved adding membership dues to the meetup group and have contacted a couple of the old organisers.

That contact was thrilled with my offer and her response has given me a happy glow.  That connecting on LinkedIn led me to read my recommendations which has also given me a happy glow.  

That I survived the day without the xanax and know not to skip one again.

For husband making lunch and providing hot chocolate.  For the apple pie treat he got me with his order.

For calling into lidl and getting nice bread and some new stationery as a treat.

That the water I knocked over didn't get on the electricals, & cleaning up encouraged me to tidy up a little.  That friend sent me a timely message sating the volunteer centre are looking for wool soni get to declutter most of what I brought from my parent's.  

That I have realised where I need to reach out, & that there are people available to me.  For the tarot practice reading which is totally appropriate to me.  For the groups I'm in and the support I get.  For the creative writing course I've signed up to, that it's in my day off and free. That I've come to the realisation I need to speak with my boss...

That I am in a good mood today and have enjoyed my day without feeling any pressure to take care of anything workwise - it will wait.

Recovery

Thankful to be able to have a lie-in, & that everything that needed done today got done.

That husband could stay home in the morning so I could be left to my bad mood.  Got to work with mentor buddy again which is enjoyable & straightforward.  Team meeting was a laugh.

Was in a better mood when we headed to work, & I got my scanning done & my document progressed.  Have the next one ready to go after I speak to the boss.  Can see that we're through the worst of the project & am looking forward to next week & working with mentor buddy again and seeing just how much we can get through.

That husband came for a walk with me at lunch, & we did a loop past the new house.  There is some grass out the front, I couldn't remember.

That I have the freedom for either a lie-in, late start, or be off tomorrow depending on what I need.  That I am doing better & that'll be obvious to the doctor.  Glad for the continuity of care here, & always seeing the same doctor.

That it's quiet & I like my bed.  For meditation apps and being able to sleep.

Getting out

Thankful for being able to get up when I can't sleep & sit in the other room & read or stitch, & then for falling asleep again later.  That it doesn't really matter what time I go to bed or get up.

That I was awake for counselling & it's changed again.  We're still exploring but in a less threatening way.   & that talking about being out in the woods reminded me to go.  That a friend was available to join me & we had a pleasant afternoon.  Also happy to arrive early & find a throne to sit & stitch on, glad I took the stitching, & the big water bottle.  Also glad I chose not to stay for a cuppa & so got home in time to each with husband before his meeting so we could go to gaming.  That I had a little nap & woke in time for the drive & we got there on time.  People are excited about the house for me.

For enjoying the games & the club, & the host has suggested we can play outside of the club too so we can make plans for that.

Glad I started the new cross stitch, thankful friend sent it.  

For husband making me hot chocolate & looking after me, that I am well treated.

Thankful for my 4 day week & Wednesdays off, for counselling, & gaming & the chance to rest & recover.

Stitching

Thankful for my crystals, for the joy and comfort they bring me & the friends I have made through them.  That there is crystal shopping to look forward to on the weekend, & I'm excited about the house & my room!

For phoning a friend just as she was thinking of me.  Glad to have that kind of connection.  That there are people who care about me & I can turn to when I need.  For the friendship I've enjoyed & been shown.

That I had a good day at work, & an enjoyable walk with a team mate.  That we made good progress and are nearly ready to complete this week's work - phew, & I think that realisation has really helped me too.

That I took time for myself this morning & am sure that set me up for a good day.  To friend for sending me the cross stitch kit & having time to indulge.

Being able to escape into the lab from the noisy office & hateful chair, & that when I go back into work there should be chairs free.

For husband taking care of dinner, & bringing me hot chocolate.  That we have ice-cream in the freezer so I can have a few bites when I get in after a hot car ride home.

For entertainment, & hobbies & ways to enjoy myself.  That husband stayed a few extra mins in bed so I could snuggle in.  That I can laugh off friend's annoying comment that I need a hobby, I have plenty.

People

Thankful to get the urgent thing done, & a couple of others progressed.  That when I went back for a final try I caught the IT guy & we managed to close the issue. 

That we made it in to keep team mate company at breakfast.

That I know in advance the office will be busy tomorrow, & maybe I'll just end up in the lab.

For getting home in time for husband's meeting, & having the freedom to log in from work and from home & do my hours whenever.  That the engineer was calmer & more helpful today, & we managed to get done what we need to.  & tomorrow I should be good to do another system & find off the build.

That I'm enjoying the cross stitch kit friend sent me & am looking forward to displaying it once it's finished.

Support

Thankful for having access to doctor and medicine & other healthcare resources.

That husband came to the woods with me & we had an enjoyable walk & chat.  That I saw the cafe was open & we checked it out - made it in time for breakfast which was ok, it was dry the whole time & pleasant sat outside.

That there was plenty of parking, & the road was clear as I wanted to pull out.  Also that I got fuel easily on the way.

That he set up the scanner & scanned the pattern I wanted & emailed it to me & it looks ok.

That I enjoyed the next tarot exercise & getting more familiar with it.  Had an interesting chat with friend, & survived it without being questioned.

That husband preps fruit for me, & stayed for an extra episode.  

Also that we do weights together, & I did better than expected.

Rest & recovery

Glad for naps & the freedom to do as I please. No plans or obligations today.  Remembered to get the washing in once it was dry, & putting the next load in and out.

That I managed to get my credit check done & bank statements downloaded for the mortgage application.  Husband helped me with revolut, & I should be able to get that soon too.  

For the next house listing still being online & so we have access to room sizes & have a link to send friends.  That it's exciting!

That husband also helped me figure out the spreadsheet & it's easier to use now.  That I managed to get done what I wanted workwise & make up the hours from the week - & finish the methods that I couldn't face during the week.

That I am calmer now, the medication's working, & husband being sweet & patient with me.  That being grumpy at husband is a sure sign that I'm not ok & I recognise that & can deal with it.

Friends

Thankful workmate is putting through an award for someone who's been really helpful to me.  & for all the help both have given me.

That I made some progress today, & at least I have a plan for next week, & still the option to work (or not) over the weekend to make time back.  That we made it to the leaving chat, & I enjoyed my cake, & got to say bye to intern.

That the fruit was restocked & so I got a pear that I enjoyed.  For there being things on the menu tonight that I enjoyed, & it was a nice experience eating out.  Also that the mortgage appointment went well, & we have a decent idea of how to split between fixed & variable rates.

We found a film for us all to watch, & I managed to pick up my crochet again, & cleared the chair to sit on.

Excited about house, & getting a new sofa etc.

house

Thankful I made progress at work & got the urgent thing as done as I can, & tomorrow it's not my problem.

That we got to the solicitors in good time, & she was friendly & helpful.  That we managed to speak to the guy in the bank too & we're getting a new mortgage application started that I can go on - & we got an appointment for tomorrow.  Thankful too that I got to the car without being ticketed.

That husband did weights with me, & we have the room nearly ready for friend.

That I did yoga, for finding reasonable videos on youtube, & being able to follow them.  For being motivated enough to do some exercise and in good enough shape to be able to move around & lift weights.  That I have access to what I need.  & can drop in & out of Pilates as I like.

That we talk about important decisions, & it's calm & drama free.

That the extra tablet meant missing my usual one yesterday has no ill effect today.

That I have time & flexibility to decide whether to make time up or put in holiday or unpaid leave.

Excited about the house & the solicitor addressed our concerns.

Outings

Thankful for husband working from home & not wanting a lift.  That counselling was light.

For finally getting out & mowing the lawn, & the cuttings all fitting in the compost bin & it staying dry while I mowed.   For being inspired to go to the sensory gardens & really enjoying it, cool new mosaics to see.

Husband remembering his appointment just in time, & going to the local gardens meant I was home to take him.  That we got there on time, & the take away there meant I got to eat in time to make gaming.

Glad I went to gaming, am enjoying the group & the games.  Also that I took a hoodie for when it got cooler, & got back to the car & home ok.

That husband paused his game to talk with me.

For being able to drive, & braving new things so I know where to go now.

House

Thankful was listening when agent told us about the house, & that we got a viewing. Offer is accepted & paperwork is underway.  Glad husband likes it too, more than the one we were looking at before.

That working late yesterday let me have a lie-in today when I needed it.  & that I have the flexibility to do so.  That can leave work whenever & was home in time for a nap.  Did as much as I reasonably could today before getting stuck on everything.

For husband remembering to ask if I wanted anything as he did the online shop.  Thankful we get home delivery here, & will at new house.  That he remembered to ask what I wanted for dinner which was good because it wasn't what he was thinking.

That I got to speak to a contact on her last day, & lunch was interesting with different people.  Have the chance to be friendly with a colleague in another dept so she won't be eating alone.  Also, people have been chattier lately, & someone else is going to lend me books.

That someone I was looking for on linkedin found me & saved me the bother.  The job in the team is now being advertised.

Reinforced a boundary with a friend and am proud of myself.

Got to speak to the boss in person since we were in the office together, & managed to get that progressed too.  Thankful for my boss & my team. That I had a word with someone in passing & got the info I needed that her colleagues hadn't included me on.  That I was seen to do my bit.

Thankful to be feeling better, that the tablets are working.  Small mood wobble at work, & I know I need to work on my resilience to feeling criticised. 

Progress

Remembered to take my tablet, & was still able to get up at a reasonable time.

Boss checked in once he noticed me online this morning.  I'm feeling much better now (tonight) & calmer about the work stuff.  Had a good day at work.  The first wave of things has magically come to completion, & the boss must've done his bit getting the others lined up to do stuff.

Also figured out how to use the new system, so should be ok for that tomorrow.  Gave the projects a final glance - glad I did because there are still a few corrections that need done.  Remembered to route the document I was supposed to take care of last week.  & worked a bit late to get things progressed in the morning while I have a lie-in.  Found a yoga video I like, & 

Had lunch with the others at 12 which was fun, & they had wedges = my favourite.  Also there wasn't a walk which I was relieved about because I still had my heavy boots on.

Got the urgent thing as done as I can for now, & finished reviewing something else that's fairly high priority.  & finally remembered to put a measuring tape in my bag.

Got to the house at a good time & husband is very interested in it.  Thank you universe & manifestation crystal.  Glad I was paying attention when she first mentioned it (husband missed it).  Feeling hopeful.

Days out

Thankful I went out to meet friend & she made it too.  That I got there in good time, & found a good parking spot.  That it was a nice day for sitting outside, also glad we found the cafe shop rather than meeting at the tea rooms.  

That the drive there reminded me how far I've come, unconcerned about getting lost, or being late really.  Starting to get to know my way around.

That I change the post time & date so if I remember I can keep up a daily habit.

Had a reasonably healthy lunch & resisted dessert, esp since no-one else was having any.

No side effects from the new medication.

That I know plenty of places to go now, & I friend I was thinking of got in touch.

Woods

Thankful the walk went well, nice people & pleasant chats.  The weather was good, & I got there just as the first attendee did.

That I got straight out onto the main road, & managed the trip home.  That I remembered the letters & dropped them off.

For husband having lunch ready, & I remembered the chicken from yesterday.  That I got a parking space in the carpark I wanted, collected my library books & met him at the stall as we were both heading to the car.

For having enough tablets left to cover me til the order comes into the chemist on Monday, & I got plenty of steps because of this morning's walk.

Husband doing weights with me, & helping me be more consistent.  & that typing here has reminder me to add them to the tracker.

Have confirmed meeting friend tomorrow, looking forward to it.  Then can start the new tablets tomorrow.

That I feel better than I did yesterday,  still shaky enough to know the new meds are necessary.

Doctor

Very thankful to have registered with a doctor here.  That I got an appointment today, called in at the woods, & made it on time.  That I took a book & was enjoying reading it.  

The doctor has seen me enough times to know I was really off form today, & made the conversation easy.  He agreed to up the dose of my current medication, & has started me on a new one.  The drive was easy, & I got straight out of the turnings. Thank you parking angel.

That I had a nice chat with my boss, & we have a plan for next week.  Also got to chat with mentor buddy for the first time in ages, he's refreshingly easy to deal with.

Husband ordered dinner for me, & chose well (as usual).  Very thankful for husband, sweet & caring.

Also his friend is visiting next weekend so we're going out for dinner, & husband booked the restaurant.

Rest

Thankful for being able to rest, for the flexibility of work allowing me to take time off when I need to, & having an understanding boss.

That I got to lie & see how I felt, & then go back to bed. For audiobooks and podcasts, activities I can do lying down my eyes shut, & as I felt a bit better I have crafts that're easy to do while lying down.

That we got to the house safely, had a good look around, & found out about another.  That there are still potential properties around.

That husband made lunch, & there was plenty of food available in the house.  That there's milk & he made me hot chocolate.

There's plenty of colours I need for the rainbow & I'm enjoying doing it.  It's coming along nicely.