Getting out

Thankful for being able to get up when I can't sleep & sit in the other room & read or stitch, & then for falling asleep again later.  That it doesn't really matter what time I go to bed or get up.

That I was awake for counselling & it's changed again.  We're still exploring but in a less threatening way.   & that talking about being out in the woods reminded me to go.  That a friend was available to join me & we had a pleasant afternoon.  Also happy to arrive early & find a throne to sit & stitch on, glad I took the stitching, & the big water bottle.  Also glad I chose not to stay for a cuppa & so got home in time to each with husband before his meeting so we could go to gaming.  That I had a little nap & woke in time for the drive & we got there on time.  People are excited about the house for me.

For enjoying the games & the club, & the host has suggested we can play outside of the club too so we can make plans for that.

Glad I started the new cross stitch, thankful friend sent it.  

For husband making me hot chocolate & looking after me, that I am well treated.

Thankful for my 4 day week & Wednesdays off, for counselling, & gaming & the chance to rest & recover.

Stitching

Thankful for my crystals, for the joy and comfort they bring me & the friends I have made through them.  That there is crystal shopping to look forward to on the weekend, & I'm excited about the house & my room!

For phoning a friend just as she was thinking of me.  Glad to have that kind of connection.  That there are people who care about me & I can turn to when I need.  For the friendship I've enjoyed & been shown.

That I had a good day at work, & an enjoyable walk with a team mate.  That we made good progress and are nearly ready to complete this week's work - phew, & I think that realisation has really helped me too.

That I took time for myself this morning & am sure that set me up for a good day.  To friend for sending me the cross stitch kit & having time to indulge.

Being able to escape into the lab from the noisy office & hateful chair, & that when I go back into work there should be chairs free.

For husband taking care of dinner, & bringing me hot chocolate.  That we have ice-cream in the freezer so I can have a few bites when I get in after a hot car ride home.

For entertainment, & hobbies & ways to enjoy myself.  That husband stayed a few extra mins in bed so I could snuggle in.  That I can laugh off friend's annoying comment that I need a hobby, I have plenty.

People

Thankful to get the urgent thing done, & a couple of others progressed.  That when I went back for a final try I caught the IT guy & we managed to close the issue. 

That we made it in to keep team mate company at breakfast.

That I know in advance the office will be busy tomorrow, & maybe I'll just end up in the lab.

For getting home in time for husband's meeting, & having the freedom to log in from work and from home & do my hours whenever.  That the engineer was calmer & more helpful today, & we managed to get done what we need to.  & tomorrow I should be good to do another system & find off the build.

That I'm enjoying the cross stitch kit friend sent me & am looking forward to displaying it once it's finished.

Support

Thankful for having access to doctor and medicine & other healthcare resources.

That husband came to the woods with me & we had an enjoyable walk & chat.  That I saw the cafe was open & we checked it out - made it in time for breakfast which was ok, it was dry the whole time & pleasant sat outside.

That there was plenty of parking, & the road was clear as I wanted to pull out.  Also that I got fuel easily on the way.

That he set up the scanner & scanned the pattern I wanted & emailed it to me & it looks ok.

That I enjoyed the next tarot exercise & getting more familiar with it.  Had an interesting chat with friend, & survived it without being questioned.

That husband preps fruit for me, & stayed for an extra episode.  

Also that we do weights together, & I did better than expected.

Rest & recovery

Glad for naps & the freedom to do as I please. No plans or obligations today.  Remembered to get the washing in once it was dry, & putting the next load in and out.

That I managed to get my credit check done & bank statements downloaded for the mortgage application.  Husband helped me with revolut, & I should be able to get that soon too.  

For the next house listing still being online & so we have access to room sizes & have a link to send friends.  That it's exciting!

That husband also helped me figure out the spreadsheet & it's easier to use now.  That I managed to get done what I wanted workwise & make up the hours from the week - & finish the methods that I couldn't face during the week.

That I am calmer now, the medication's working, & husband being sweet & patient with me.  That being grumpy at husband is a sure sign that I'm not ok & I recognise that & can deal with it.

Friends

Thankful workmate is putting through an award for someone who's been really helpful to me.  & for all the help both have given me.

That I made some progress today, & at least I have a plan for next week, & still the option to work (or not) over the weekend to make time back.  That we made it to the leaving chat, & I enjoyed my cake, & got to say bye to intern.

That the fruit was restocked & so I got a pear that I enjoyed.  For there being things on the menu tonight that I enjoyed, & it was a nice experience eating out.  Also that the mortgage appointment went well, & we have a decent idea of how to split between fixed & variable rates.

We found a film for us all to watch, & I managed to pick up my crochet again, & cleared the chair to sit on.

Excited about house, & getting a new sofa etc.

house

Thankful I made progress at work & got the urgent thing as done as I can, & tomorrow it's not my problem.

That we got to the solicitors in good time, & she was friendly & helpful.  That we managed to speak to the guy in the bank too & we're getting a new mortgage application started that I can go on - & we got an appointment for tomorrow.  Thankful too that I got to the car without being ticketed.

That husband did weights with me, & we have the room nearly ready for friend.

That I did yoga, for finding reasonable videos on youtube, & being able to follow them.  For being motivated enough to do some exercise and in good enough shape to be able to move around & lift weights.  That I have access to what I need.  & can drop in & out of Pilates as I like.

That we talk about important decisions, & it's calm & drama free.

That the extra tablet meant missing my usual one yesterday has no ill effect today.

That I have time & flexibility to decide whether to make time up or put in holiday or unpaid leave.

Excited about the house & the solicitor addressed our concerns.

Outings

Thankful for husband working from home & not wanting a lift.  That counselling was light.

For finally getting out & mowing the lawn, & the cuttings all fitting in the compost bin & it staying dry while I mowed.   For being inspired to go to the sensory gardens & really enjoying it, cool new mosaics to see.

Husband remembering his appointment just in time, & going to the local gardens meant I was home to take him.  That we got there on time, & the take away there meant I got to eat in time to make gaming.

Glad I went to gaming, am enjoying the group & the games.  Also that I took a hoodie for when it got cooler, & got back to the car & home ok.

That husband paused his game to talk with me.

For being able to drive, & braving new things so I know where to go now.

House

Thankful was listening when agent told us about the house, & that we got a viewing. Offer is accepted & paperwork is underway.  Glad husband likes it too, more than the one we were looking at before.

That working late yesterday let me have a lie-in today when I needed it.  & that I have the flexibility to do so.  That can leave work whenever & was home in time for a nap.  Did as much as I reasonably could today before getting stuck on everything.

For husband remembering to ask if I wanted anything as he did the online shop.  Thankful we get home delivery here, & will at new house.  That he remembered to ask what I wanted for dinner which was good because it wasn't what he was thinking.

That I got to speak to a contact on her last day, & lunch was interesting with different people.  Have the chance to be friendly with a colleague in another dept so she won't be eating alone.  Also, people have been chattier lately, & someone else is going to lend me books.

That someone I was looking for on linkedin found me & saved me the bother.  The job in the team is now being advertised.

Reinforced a boundary with a friend and am proud of myself.

Got to speak to the boss in person since we were in the office together, & managed to get that progressed too.  Thankful for my boss & my team. That I had a word with someone in passing & got the info I needed that her colleagues hadn't included me on.  That I was seen to do my bit.

Thankful to be feeling better, that the tablets are working.  Small mood wobble at work, & I know I need to work on my resilience to feeling criticised. 

Progress

Remembered to take my tablet, & was still able to get up at a reasonable time.

Boss checked in once he noticed me online this morning.  I'm feeling much better now (tonight) & calmer about the work stuff.  Had a good day at work.  The first wave of things has magically come to completion, & the boss must've done his bit getting the others lined up to do stuff.

Also figured out how to use the new system, so should be ok for that tomorrow.  Gave the projects a final glance - glad I did because there are still a few corrections that need done.  Remembered to route the document I was supposed to take care of last week.  & worked a bit late to get things progressed in the morning while I have a lie-in.  Found a yoga video I like, & 

Had lunch with the others at 12 which was fun, & they had wedges = my favourite.  Also there wasn't a walk which I was relieved about because I still had my heavy boots on.

Got the urgent thing as done as I can for now, & finished reviewing something else that's fairly high priority.  & finally remembered to put a measuring tape in my bag.

Got to the house at a good time & husband is very interested in it.  Thank you universe & manifestation crystal.  Glad I was paying attention when she first mentioned it (husband missed it).  Feeling hopeful.

Days out

Thankful I went out to meet friend & she made it too.  That I got there in good time, & found a good parking spot.  That it was a nice day for sitting outside, also glad we found the cafe shop rather than meeting at the tea rooms.  

That the drive there reminded me how far I've come, unconcerned about getting lost, or being late really.  Starting to get to know my way around.

That I change the post time & date so if I remember I can keep up a daily habit.

Had a reasonably healthy lunch & resisted dessert, esp since no-one else was having any.

No side effects from the new medication.

That I know plenty of places to go now, & I friend I was thinking of got in touch.

Woods

Thankful the walk went well, nice people & pleasant chats.  The weather was good, & I got there just as the first attendee did.

That I got straight out onto the main road, & managed the trip home.  That I remembered the letters & dropped them off.

For husband having lunch ready, & I remembered the chicken from yesterday.  That I got a parking space in the carpark I wanted, collected my library books & met him at the stall as we were both heading to the car.

For having enough tablets left to cover me til the order comes into the chemist on Monday, & I got plenty of steps because of this morning's walk.

Husband doing weights with me, & helping me be more consistent.  & that typing here has reminder me to add them to the tracker.

Have confirmed meeting friend tomorrow, looking forward to it.  Then can start the new tablets tomorrow.

That I feel better than I did yesterday,  still shaky enough to know the new meds are necessary.

Doctor

Very thankful to have registered with a doctor here.  That I got an appointment today, called in at the woods, & made it on time.  That I took a book & was enjoying reading it.  

The doctor has seen me enough times to know I was really off form today, & made the conversation easy.  He agreed to up the dose of my current medication, & has started me on a new one.  The drive was easy, & I got straight out of the turnings. Thank you parking angel.

That I had a nice chat with my boss, & we have a plan for next week.  Also got to chat with mentor buddy for the first time in ages, he's refreshingly easy to deal with.

Husband ordered dinner for me, & chose well (as usual).  Very thankful for husband, sweet & caring.

Also his friend is visiting next weekend so we're going out for dinner, & husband booked the restaurant.

Rest

Thankful for being able to rest, for the flexibility of work allowing me to take time off when I need to, & having an understanding boss.

That I got to lie & see how I felt, & then go back to bed. For audiobooks and podcasts, activities I can do lying down my eyes shut, & as I felt a bit better I have crafts that're easy to do while lying down.

That we got to the house safely, had a good look around, & found out about another.  That there are still potential properties around.

That husband made lunch, & there was plenty of food available in the house.  That there's milk & he made me hot chocolate.

There's plenty of colours I need for the rainbow & I'm enjoying doing it.  It's coming along nicely.

Gaming

Thankful for my day off.  That I have the freedom to log on if I wish and just do what I can. 

That a friend invited me out, and a nap after counselling had me ok enough to go out.  Glad I took a book to read, and that parking was OK.  Loads more was open than previous times I went and it was a good walk and chat. 

Pleased with myself for grabbing juice instead of hot chocolate, and that we got a table and the weather was good for us.  That I got home safely and perked up after another nap which got us to gaming and back.

Happy I found the gaming group and braved going, & that husband comes with me too.  That we were there early enough to join the main game. 

For husband making life easy, that he's easy going and sorts out the decisions so I don't have to.  That he came back to bed so I got an extra cuddle today.

The thing I was wondering about dropping out of in Saturday is cancelled, husband being in work means I have a 12 o'clock lunch friend.

Work

Thankful that a colleague came over to the other dept with me, to carry the heavy stuff & to let me in. & that he offered to come back & help.  That we got on OK today, & he sat with me long enough for me to pull myself round a bit.

That I noticed my mistakes and corrected them, & by the end of the day all the paperwork was in order.  And that I had a suitable place to request help and someone provided the link I needed, & managed to get access to a working printer.

Several people stopped to talk to me today & we had friendly exchanges about hair.

It was dry as I was walking around to / from car & lunch.  That the curry at lunch was nice and we stayed chatting instead of the walk I was going to drop out of.

That the other guy whose help I needed was available and I'm mostly sorted.  That I'd done everything correctly = big phew!  & an idea paid off so we have a work around for out urgent thing.

Parking angel

Thankful to be up and ready for the shop when it opened. That there was a space right outside the shop I wanted and it was easy to reverse in.  The van next to me had gone by the time we came to leave so i had a clear view. 

Also managed a quick trip to the health food store while husband went for peanuts - & he found some samosas which he said were gorgeous - & bought more on his way back past.

For being able to park by the market & remembering to pay & display.  First time I've seen a traffic warden here so I know they exist. 

That I remembered curtains when we got in so we went straight back out and it was easy to pull put out at the main road.  Curtains the right size were on offer.

That husband got new washing line and I threw the hateful old one out.  That I enjoyed being out barefoot on the grass while I hung the clothes.

Work

Thankful I got to speak with my boss.  That he's approachable and makes time for us and I feel better after speaking with him.

That the others are easy to get on with in a work sense and in general I like the team I'm in.  For the sister team and that there's usually someone around for lunch.  And I could sit with the wider team.  Thankful restrictions are lifted and we have the big tables and social seating in the canteen.  

That the injections went smoothly and workmate was able to come over and help.  Also he got some inside view of that dept.

For my sweet ever fabulous husband taking care of me.

For aircon in the car.  For having a good, reliable car and being able to afford servicing and repairs.  That I can drive and have a short commute.

Care

Thankful the boss took the time to check-in with me.  That he's appreciative of what I do.  And that he stated again that I can disappear whenever - just let him know.

That the office is cool and I was happy enough in my work sweatshirt.  That we sat inside at lunch where it was pleasant.  For a workmate going early so we didn't have to wait for the others.

That husband cooks for me, & makes the effort to provide tasty, healthy food - with things I like.  Even though it was hot he still cooked.  

The port in the other lab was ready and I flew through the setup - thankful the support guy was ready and instantly did what he needed to.  Someone is in tomorrow to take care of the next part with me and there's the opportunity to get another system finished.

That I did my bit as far as the other stuff goes, & I have passed it back.  Also gives me a concrete example to say to the boss.

Had a few good exchanges with friends tonight.  Plans to meet a friend over the weekend.  Thankful one sent me to bed, & a second suggested it.  That husband got the waterflosser - he does his research.  And that he looks after me.

Gaming

Glad the shopping arrived early and husband came with me.  That he enjoyed it - we all had fun.  Also glad he came so there were enough of us to play the game.  That we managed to get a booth with a table and there was enough room for us to fit the game on

Glad I figured out the way home & I reckon next week I won't be needing directions.

Managed to get some rest today.  Glad I hadn't arranged to meet anyone.  Also Glad of the lie in and the lazy day. 

Updated the tracker so I didn't need to email the boss - hopefully can provide updates as needed.

That husband feeds me, and remembered to ask if there was anything I wanted for the shopping order.

Ice-cream

Glad I went to lunch with intern - the others were ridiculously late.  At least we got a table and they arrived just before we left.

Also thankful for the free ice-cream, & that I have a desk where I could leave it.

For getting the complicated instrument in progress and the help guy was available when needed - both of them.  And workmate raised the facilities ticket for me.

The next set are on their way, & the others are happy to use the tracker.  Looks like that's the push other guy needed to use it.

Thankful husband had tea started when I came home and there was time enough to lie down before it was ready.  That it 6pm when I looked at my watch - the time he said it'd be ready and we got it before it was too burnt to eat.

Health

Thankful that we have access to healthcare, & insurance, & can afford treatment.

That the roads were quiet (even for rush hour when I was driving back), & the car park was empty.

That I got to the library & found some good books.

That I managed my celtic cross

That I perked up a bit once I got to work, & survived the dentist.

That we had a quick catch-up in the office instead of the scheduled meeting & so I got to leave early.

That I am fit & healthy. & can walk & climb stairs etc.  That I can usually manage every day activities, & can take a break to recover when I can't.

Chatty

Thankful the walk went well, 

The dogs got on well

The people were chatty

The repair husband did on my cup has held

That I made it home to rest.

Husband cooks well for me, & found me a packet of chocolate brazils.

Timings

Thankful we got my document approved today.  That it was done early enough in the day, & the boss cancelled our meeting so I got to finish early - which I needed.

That there's a bus to the airport & husband agreed to catch it, & I got him to the bus stop in time, even after we turned back the first time to collect something he'd forgotten.  That he gets in at a more reasonable time tomorrow than he first told me & I'm thinking I'll be fine to collect him.

That the tesco delivery came just as we were thinking about leaving (which was a relief cos I'd forgotten about it)

That I felt better after resting up for the evening, & we had easy oven bake items in the freezer.  Also enjoyed the hot chocolate, glad we have instant so I didn't need to clear the velvetiser.

That I enjoyed the tarot reading I took, & it was an interesting write up & I had plenty to say.  Happy to not struggle with reaching the word count for a change.  Also that there's someone I'm chatting with on the tarot course, & that's encouraged me to do the course & I'm finding that interesting & thought provoking.

That the house bidding is still within our budget.

Work

Glad I managed to calm down before work, & got one of my problems sorted.  

Also progressed something else & managed not to be annoyed about it.   The instrument is as far as it can be for now and my paperwork is that bit closer

Glad I have supportive friend & reassurance that it's not just me.

For husband ordering dinner & having enough left over for lunch tomorrow.  That he feeds me at sensible times, and for free ice-cream at work but also that I resisted getting one and had the chocolate flake by itself.

Remembered to ask workmates about the airport & the drive doesn't seem too bad.  

That I reached out to someone again & this time they were more receptive so hopefully we'll make plans.

Social

Thankful the nearby gaming popped up on my feed and that I braved signing up and going.  That the carpark and the venue are easy to find and I arrived bang on.  It's a good venue & we got left alone outside - next week I can be a bit earlier and get a drink.  Maybe husband will come too.  Otherwise it's friendly enough & close enough for me to go on my own.  Better than the previous ones in the UK. 

That the car is reliable and good for journeys and comfortable.

For husband feeding me & I have leftovers for lunch tomorrow.  That the chicken pakora was really nice & battered chicken as I expected.

That i'm enjoying the sims again.

Books arrived from friend and i'm enjoying reading them.  Husband pais my customs charge & that book has arrived now too.

Home life

Got what I needed done with the document & it was fairly straightforward.  

Managed to send sensible minutes from the meeting, & uncommunicative guy turned up with his update.  

Got most of a chore of a task done, ready to  complete tomorrow.

Got my 10,000 steps.  Being in work really helps with that, & I enjoy the company of the workmates who were in.  Favourite workmate is still intending on joining us for lunch when he switches dept.

That I've installed the sims again and am enjoying playing it.  That it remembered my password and husband helped with the install.   Also gave him the chance to tell me about his strategy  - he's getting chatty these days.  And he was talking to me at a sensible time (early evening).

That i got accepted into the gaming group in time for tomorrow's session, & I know which carpark to use, one that's easy to get to and free.   And I know to hold firm and turn right out of the carpark when I come to leave.  Is in a reasonably close town and I can manage the travel on a Wed.  Am excited about it.