Bounce

I am glad that I bounce, & that even when I lose sight of that it happens anyway.
I am back on good form, & I have missed it, I'm glad it's back.

I had a good laugh today, it seemed more relaxed at work.  One of my mates paid for my lunch, I'd left my purse behind & I am still plodding along with some of the tasks I'm doing.

Husband's home tomorrow, & I get so excited.  We've been swapping sweet like message stickers, I love that we have so many ways to keep in touch now, & I am impressed with how restrained I'm being with not contacting him when I know he's busy.

Friend is still enjoying her new workplace.  Had a positive cv / interview prep session with another friend.  At least I've got her thinking, & did her confidence some good.

I remembered to phone my Grandad!  This is especially important today because it's his birthday.  He was on good form & seemed happy.  He's always so thrilled when I ring.  & I remembered milk for work, & for my hot chocolate over the weekend 😀  did I mention husband's home for the weekend 😻

Friends

Friends are the best!  Thank you to my friends.

I'm on a roll for my 10k steps, turns out fitbit can set an alert for wind down for bed so I'm doing that (ish).  At least I have the option.
The bunnies are well & happy.
I had fun with the bongos.

Remembered to read & reply to the messages from my mum, & have made plans with friends.
Got plans for tomorrow,
Held it together today, making progress on a few things at work.


Friend had a good first day & seems happy.

& I'm done just in time for my 10pm pc cut off ;-)

after thoughts

I was upset last night, thankful of friends to talk to, & that husband missed the worst of it.  I hate husband finding me upset because he hates me being upset.  A big hug & I got to tell him I was ok.

A bonus day off (bank holiday) so all is well.  An extra day to gather my thoughts.
Husband has agreed to come up the coast for walk, I know exactly where to go & am looking forward to it.  It's cooler and still dry, reasonable weather for a walk.

More later...

Been up the coast with husband, lovely drive & chat.  & a short wander & lunch on the way home.  A lovely few hours out with him.  Had the best of the weather while we were at the beach, home before the sea fret hit.

I remembered running in good time to actually ensure I go, & we ate late enough that I shouldn't be tempted to eat beforehand.

Now the afternoon's mine to do as I choose in :-)

more beach

Met one of my friends at the beach, had a lovely walk, hot doughnuts!  & a go on the swings.
Also had another "encourage people to walk" (Pokémon go type app) explained to me, & this one downloads on my phone.  I'm rubbish at it but it could be fun.  Impressed my phone had enough memory for it.

Also played a new game with them, it was out on the table.  Must've explained it adequately because they got the idea & it was fun.  We won, he won the last game so left happy.  Now I remember him losing most of the other games & me deciding that we should play co-op next time.

Husband came to make dinner & the shop was still open when I went for bacon, & the walk got me to 15k steps.  Messaging with a few friends who're keeping me sane.

Slept really well & had a lovely morning with husband.  Thankfully tomorrow is a bank holiday so another lie in & day chilling - yay!!

Sunny happy day

got up early & went to the tip, only car there - me likely :-)
remembered to empty all the bins, & collect all the empty glass bottles.

Got birthday card & Father's day card for my Grandad, he's always especially thrilled with the happy Father's day grandad one.

Hung the washing outside & did some weeding, about an hour.  Limiting myself to about half an hour at a time on the internet, & off to do something I go...  oh yes, write the card for my Grandad.  Have also hoovered the spare lamp shade & put it into the charity bag.  One more item decluttered!  & thankfully the little hoover had charge & I found the brush attachment.

Husband's agreed to come for a coastal walk with me for a couple of miles - yay!!  I love walkies with husband.

& "Due South"'s available on YouTube (legit) so that's what we're watching next :-D

Friday!

• We had a good laugh at lunch
• I got a reasonable amount of work done.
• I have some notes for a discussion with the boss on Tuesday, & a workmate lined up to do some work.
• Chinese & red wine for tea, hopefully I've specified early enough that husband opens proper wine.
• I can mess my desk up again!  Sharpies & A3 paper & brain storming.
• remembered to get hay while the shop was still open
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Water

We had no water, thankfully we had bottled water so could still drink & do our teeth.  I had enough to give to the neighbours too.  & no-one took a dump while the toilet wouldn't flush, & the water's back today.  I take it so forgranted that clean water will come out of the tap, & that the toilet will flush.  Thankful for the water, & for having a house. For having water at work, & toilets that flush there.  & for friends nearby who would let me go round & shower.

I got a reasonable amount of work done, progress on a new document, & tomorrow I can spread my paperwork all over my desk again :-D

Husband & I have started watching a new tv show, I love being snuggled up on the sofa with him.  He's been home a month & it's been great.  He's starting to get tetchy at work though so it's about right that he's elsewhere next week.  Glad he can take the day off & recharge.  & yay for the long weekend.

Lunch was fun, we had a good laugh.  I love that about our lunchtimes, there's a crowd of us - always someone to sit with.

little things

I tidied my desk, & I know I need the visual stimulation of having stuff around me.  Thankfully in a couple of days I'll be able to spread paperwork across the desk & all will be well.  I managed to throw some stuff out, & to get a bit more organised.

I gathered my thoughts today, on paper and on the pc.  Paper is better.

Had some lovely chats with friends, & had a relaxed day at work, thinking space.  Had to tidy it away again afterwards though ;-)

Lunch had fun bits in, & I managed to get a few chips & some blueberries from husband.  Met my fruit quota for today.  Got a few things signed by the boss, things have progressed off my desk which is always good.   Have some vague plans written for things I'm going to do - everything gets complicated if you think about it long enough.  Have plenty of space on my tidy desk for A3 paper for big thinking sessions ;-)

Doubly grateful

I feel like today needs a second post.
Firstly because the shopping centre car park was way busier than I expected and I still managed to get a space.  That space was in the main exit row & I drove in forwards...  & when I came to leave the car in front was gone so I got to drive out forwards in a side row.  Big phew :-)
& because I was so relieved I let a few cars pull out in front of me & then felt generous.

Secondly because as I was jogging along to the beach to meet friends it occurred to me that I must've dropped my cash card.  Walked home to find it still on the pavement not far from the house - another big phew!  That left me running too late to go on foot so I drove, & the carpark was full so I went to next one & I would never have been anywhere near on time if I'd've walked.  I was early enough to text them the change of plans & they both made it ok.

We had a lovely walk along the beach, there were seats outside the café & I got lunch.  & I've just remembered I have left-overs from last night's Chinese.  The day is young & I still have loads of time to enjoy & already have my 10k steps.

My happy place

I love mornings.  Around this time (7am) husband is asleep with an arm round me.  It's light enough to see so i'm reading in bed.  This is my happy place.  It's the week end so i can roll over & sleep if i want.  Or not  - i can read, day dream, think...

I have a book here.  I am getting the hang of being organised at work.  I had a very positive & reassuring conversation with husband's boss.   I remembered to email him some things we discussed in the meeting.

& today i'm off to the beach with friends, & getting my hair cut. & having a lovely relaxing weekend.  & it starts here, being calm and content & safe in my happy place.

Calm, content

Husband looked after me today when I was vulnerable.
Workmate noticed I was fragile & cheered me up.
Had some good conversations with people & now I have plans for tomorrow with some workmates.
Had a lovely evening with husband, dinner & wine.
Am happy & calm, with plenty to be thankful for

Was reminded of a mate's birthday & remembered just in time to get a card posted tonight.

calm & happy

had a lovely time chatting with mate over coffee,

husband saved me some chicken

got myself out of a rage

had a lovely relaxing massage, & great chat - remembered my enthusiasm

was throwing ball back over fence & neighbour saw it & came out with treats for the bunnies

remembered to put things in my work bag that I need for tomorrow

Sunny & busy

Was a sunny day, & I got to wander.  Had a chat with a friend & ran into the boss (which I was hoping to do).  Found my final document & it got progressed today.  A couple of successful meetings, & a few things to think about.  Plenty of progress made, & more underway.  Also got to be really engrossed in my work, twice my fitbit inactivity alert buzzed.  I tend to think i'll deal with it in a minute, & then suddenly it was an hour later.  Dancing meant I got my 10k steps so all is well.  I have the opportunity to wander when I need to, it's ok to get engrossed too ;-)

The talk at lunchtime was interesting, & I got a good seat near the front.  It was well attended & there was plenty of discussion.  I'm glad I suggested it.

Work day

My boss is still on his well done spree.  Told him I love my job.
I had the progress / status document ready to show him before he asked for it.  I was pleased with that.
Tidied my desk through a powercut, felt like a delightful indulgence.
Just managed to get done what needed to get done today, was pleased I remembered a few things.
Also walked past someone I wanted to casually bump into & got to say thank you to them for something they did the other day.

The short cut was closed & it was a lovely day for a longer wander so I enjoyed a walk in the sunshine.  Also was perfectly timed to walk back with someone I rarely get to talk to.  Listened instead talking.

Work success

Today even though I seem to be slow getting ready & leaving the house we still got to work on time.  I picked up a workmate as he was walking from the bus stop. I enjoy doing that, it makes for pleasant conversation, interrupts our usual work talk.  I'm glad I drive & have the car, so thankful my parents gave me driving lessons & took me out for practice back when I was 17.  Thankful the car is reliable & I can afford to keep it in good order.  Then again, the bus & walk would be feasible, am glad alternatives exist in case I ever need them. Also glad I'm not sore or suffering from the walk yesterday.

I'm calling today a win.  I was waiting for paperwork from someone & a big bundle arrived the other day & the rest was signed off today, without me having to ask.  Phew :-)
I'm planning on walking in to my meeting with the boss tomorrow full of sunshine.  A big smile & a "we did it".  The documents I wanted issued for the end of this week are in hand, a couple are issued, a couple just need his signature & then to be issued.  He was positive at the last meeting, this is me reminding him that things are in hand.

It's a sunny, cheerful day.  A couple of friends who rarely take the time are doing so and I am pleased for them. I had a lovely chat with someone I really like yet rarely talk to.  & my training sessions went well, more interactive than Friday's yet harder work because of it, & I'm learning all the time, refining the process.

Sunshine & exercise

I can feel my crown chakra's open, I feel connected.  I messaged a friend this morning about 10am about meeting for lunch & off I walked to her town.  There's a path at the end of the road, I have finally explored it's full length.  Brave me, trotting off on an adventure ;-)  it means on a summer evening I know we can walk to the pub.  & whilst I was there I posted a parcel to a friend & bought more nose studs.  Job done :-)

Thankful for the sit & the chat while we ate, & then I was refreshed for coming.  She offered me a lift, & I could've got the bus.  I'll walk, a beautiful sunny (not hot) dry day.  I kept off the main roads, & saw plenty of flowers (& cabbage whites) along the way, enjoying nature, & being outside.  Calm. Happy.  Husband waiting for me at home, gaming undisturbed.

I awoke early & read in bed, I also put the washing on, rolled over & went back to sleep.  The washing's hung and my chores for the day are complete.  My chores are minimal, they tick over.  The rest of the day is mine to enjoy :-D

Thoughts & energy

• Remembered to get instructions for the drive & was familiar was the route, recognised where I was & made it in good time.
• Enjoyed the day, was good to catch up with the others.  Also pleased I could feel the energy & I can feel myself radiating love.  I do that in the morning as I lie in bed with husband's arm around me thinking how lucky & thankful I am.
• love that I can read, that I have time to indulge lying in bed reading, that I have friends who recommend good books, that husband has put me up extra shelves so the book live on the shelves within reach, & I have a charging point & a lamp within reach.
• During my attunement I could feel the white light (energy) fill me, & the teacher said he could see the ball of energy in me.  I feel it with me still, I am at peace & feeling invulnerable. It's a good feeling.

• Got myself out got a walk for my 10k steps.  Am pleased for the fresh air, & continued 10k streak.  Have made peace with not running, better to spend the time with husband chilling & having food.  I prefer walking to running. 
• Have accepted I'm done with the strength & conditioning for now while it's the alternative format, & am released to return to the bootcamp which is actually more convenient timewise, & preferable exercise-wise.

• Am thinking of the success I've had at work, remembering my accomplishments, & that my boss was pleased with me the other day.  I have done well, I know that, & I feel like I have proved myself.  I am much more on top of things than I realise.  I have created order & structure for myself.  I have good reason to be proud.  
• I have also turned my attitude around.
• I've been reminded (via my blog) that my neck / wrists / shoulder are much better in this new job.  I've forgotten how they used to hurt, how I used to be so tense it pained me, how I could barely turn my head.  I love my new job, I am thriving, & it's obvious physically, and emotionally.
• I am still enjoying the self-care.  The strategies I put in place when I was stressed are still available.  The gratitude blog (the friend I write for when I'm uninspired), the colouring, & walks, & reading, & eating fruit.
• Sometimes there are so many positives I'm over-whelmed!  I can feel the glow radiating from me as I struggle to contain that positivity & gratitude.
• I've been enjoying the end of the book I'm reading.  Confidence comes from knowing you're doing your best, rather than from achievement.  There are things that I enjoy that I will never excel at, & there is freedom in not needing to.  I like that I can pick up one of my musical instruments & make a noise & that it's fun.  It's for me to enjoy, mine.

training

• My training session went well
• there were just enough chairs for the attendees
• I have a sensible number of people for the remaining sessions
• a couple of the managers were responsive to the invite & are sending their teams
• I know how to tweak it for next time
• people took the word fill
• I have a sensible tracker to record who's been trained
• I am well impressed with myself for being so organised
• I'm implementing a new tracker for my actions, and so I can record my progress
• It's working well so far
• data input is slow, I am lucky to have some breathing room to get it done
• A couple of my report documents are progressing nicely 
• Someone else is getting through their backlog of stuff I'm waiting for
• I remembered to get fuel for the car
• There's emergency hay so I can feed the bunnies
• there's time to get more in the morning
• Friend has a new job
• Left work on time
• makes for a happy husband
• Got my 10k steps

Simple stuff

I was productive at work, the training session I'm giving is now arranged.

Have decided how to track & display actions.

I was late for circuits & one of the others stopped & gave me a lift.

Remembered to email a friend to say she'll be awesome tomorrow.

Am fit & healthy.

Friends

• I'm thankful for my friends & workmates, another one was asking if I'm ok because I'm being quiet.
• & we had bacon today, & a good chat
• I had a good day just cracking on with writing documents, 
• one of my others had gone for corrections, & I found another mistake in it, thankfully I intercepted it before it was corrected.
• other people are ticking along doing the things that I need them to do
• they seem to be doing so willingly
• I arrived early for pilates, the car park was really busy & I managed to get a space
• friend also got a space
• we had plenty of time to talk before the class
• the class was fairly empty 
• we went for dinner afterwards, the food was really nice, & the portion size was spot on
• all is well
• husband fixed the toilet, it flushes again

on a roll...

• Got to the tip with the plant cuttings so the car was empty overnight.
• Got talking to someone new at running,
• maintaining the quicker pace
• managed all the running
• got away with not being out all week
• managed to get parked
• came home pumped enough to do some weights
• positives from my boss
• he seems pleased with my work
• my document I needed issued today was indeed issued today
• got a blocker removed from a couple of other documents
• got my 10k steps at work from all the trips to the document department
• got a couple of items closed out
• enjoyed lunch
• got a quick chat with workmate
• cake!  One of the others brought in cake
• took husband shopping after work
• enjoyed my tea
• husband put my lunch in the microwave for me
• it was done by the time I joined him

More calm

The sun is shining, I've hung washing out.  I've pulled the weeds from alongside the house & am motivated to attack the bush out the front.  I've already eaten some fruit today, & because running is earlier I can walk there & back - plenty of steps tonight :-)

Had a lovely relaxing day.  I can be calm for tomorrow, I'm safe, & can be unconcerned.  Husband saved me crisps, it's nice that he remembered.  Friends have pulled me through again. I'm going back out into the garden to enjoy the sunshine & feel productive.  I have a big bag that the bush cuttings can go in, until we're ready for yet another trip to the tip.  Thankfully that's close by.

Calm

I have spent the afternoon basking in husband's infinitely calm wisdom.  Scientific studies show that the presence of a loved one has a calming effect, physical effects such as lower heart rate if you're anxious.  Husband also talks sense, he finds the holes in my crazy.  Hmmm, I see what you're saying and I think it's unlikely because....  it makes no sense for that to be the case...

& husband took me walkies, a longer route, a different way.  I'm getting my 10k steps today.  I didn't walk the 40 minutes to meet friends since I was on the phone to another friend.  It didn't occur to me to walk and talk.  In retrospect the car noises would've made it awkward anyway.  I set aside the time to speak to her, and we had a good conversation.

Now I might tidy up, I've been thinking about and I don't need to be productive - it's my day off.  I'm going to get the washing hung though, husband managed to put washing on!

Sunny

• I've had a chance to calm down and think, & get plenty of input / reassurance from other people
• I have a meeting arranged to discuss things that need said, & a plan of how to sat them
• had a lovely walk & lunch at the beach yesterday with a mate
• plenty of exercise & fresh air
• then into town for drinks for friends which was fun
• glad I went, plenty of lemonade
• got our favourite table in our favourite bar
• stayed sensible
• got home safe on the bus
• it's a lovely day again, & I'm walking down to the harbour to meet friends, 
• I can come back via the beach.
• I'm in a good mood
• plenty of reminiscing yesterday about how husband is the most fantastic person ever

Reflection

• I am healthy & well.
• I remembered he'd mentioned side planks for circuits & I remembered in time to print & laminate & take the signs to the session & he put them out
• I like side planks, & I was better than I expected.  I think it's the side bends paying off
• it's been sunny & I've been able to walk between the buildings at work collecting documents & getting them signed.
• People are helpful & supportive
• we had a good laugh at lunch, & there was bacon so I got my bacon & cheese toastie
• I found out it was my mum's birthday in time to phone her
• her dog is better & is ok to be in the kennels so they can still have their holiday