Woods

Thankful that the woods are within my 5km, & that I was up early so it was quiet when I got there.  That I've learnt to just enjoy being there without it being about the steps or exercise.  That friends enjoyed the photos I sent them.  That even though the grass was frosty & I had to defrost the car, the roads weren't slippy.  The woods are so calming to be in, & I love that there's a playarea & outdoor gym there.  Got to go on my favourite machine too.  That it's dried up since last time I was there so my feet stayed dry.

That husband had a bad game so he can understand why I was so frustrated with my previous characters, & also that he'd forgotten the enemies were stunned so actually he didn't die in the game as early as he thought.  That we're getting the hang of the characters & getting better at the game again.

That it's been a nice day & I got out in the garden with my hoola hoop again.  Glad for having the space to exercise, and a garden, & that the landlord / agency are ok with the bunny being here.

That we brought the hoover & I've swept & hoovered today.  That husband has no housework expectations.

For the lovely handmade soap I bought, I love the smell & the feel of it & I'm happy to be able to support local.  

That husband came for a reasonable length walk today, & I got home before I got blisters.  That they opened up another till while we were in the queue so we got straight through.

That he saved me one of the hazelnut kitkats he knows I like, (sorry it's a bit squashed, it was in my pocket).

For friends sending me messages, & being able to keep in touch.

Someone giving away free books is just within my 5km restriction so I might go & have a nosy.

Calm

Thankful the sun shone today, & I got to hang washing out & have a go on the hoola hoop.

That I managed 2 conversations volunteering, was calm for both & am proud of myself.  Thankful both took their time to respond.  & that I transferred my last one in plenty of time.

That I finally created grid for friend, & she likes it.  That I found a suitable grid template to download, & husband had got spare ink.  That we have a printer & paper & ink etc.  That we managed to get what we need.

That husband talked me into buying new boots, & that helps compensate for all the ones I didn't bring.  That I can look forward to getting new clothes when lockdown lifts, and that I spent our Christmas amazon voucher on a new top, & a book.

That I have interesting conversations with people, and there is plenty to read etc.  Thankful that access to the library e-collection has reduced the number of books I buy, and that kindle is also an option, & those are generally cheaper than books.

That I have some pleasingly scented things, and can use them to cheer myself up too.  That I have plenty around me that I can enjoy.  That I have enough and recognise that.  That I have savings now, from my job so there's no pressure for me to get a permanent job, and the longer before we buy a house, the bigger deposit we'll have.  That I can use that logic to help counter the house in England just sitting being a source of anxiety.

Friday

Thankful that my boss is supportive, and he's calming to talk with.  He makes time for us if we need him.  Also that he had the same "wtf?" reaction to something as I did.  That I'm in a good team, & I have finally finished a massive urgent task and can breathe before moving on to the next one.

That we finish early on a Friday & I got to the post office.  I have my mother's day card posted & a couple of things to friends.

That there wasn't much of a queue at the post office & so I chanced getting across town and the health food shop was open, I have some lovely scented soap, & a new crystal bracelet.

I got to catch up with a friend, & she's doing ok.  I got to do my usual thought provoking questions & help her make sense of things, & she reminded me how supportive my boss is, & how lucky I am with that.

I have some lovely feedback, reminding me of why volunteering is so worthwhile.

Thankful I checked inside my bag a second time before I put it away or it could have been months before I found my phone.

Sun

Thankful the sun came out & everyone seemed in better spirits.  One of the team who rarely speaks in team meetings was very chatty today.  That it was still sunny at lunchtime & husband came for a walk with me.

That I put the picture up & I like the difference it makes.

Our wedding dance came up in my FB memories & I enjoyed watching it again.

That I remembered to put the bunny away before I went to bed.

Managed to get a few things done at work, making progress through the chaos.

That I finished in time for Pilates, & it was a good session.

Relaxing

Thankful that the boss texted me, a low key reminder to get in touch if I need anything.  Am thankful for feeling supported & that he's not making a big deal of it.

Glad to be able to chip away at things at work & keep making progress.  That I got brave enough to message the meeting organiser to see where he was & he'd forgotten.

That when mentor buddy was looking into a problem with me, it was me who spotted the mistake, glad to be able to help the requestor in a timely matter, & that the earlier (harder) problem went to him earlier in the day.

Husband bought me bread when he went shopping, & I was able to get a picture for the wall. And we finally remembered a bread bin.

That I got up early and made time for yoga before work.  That I have few meetings so I have time for naps whenever and to wander off and do things.  That I have time to sit and work through things when they need thought, & can do low thinking tasks when I need to give my brain a rest.

That everyone I know is relatively ok, that the days are getting longer and warmer.

That husband brought me hot chocolate without being asked.  He's fabulous.

Zoom

Thankful that I was awake & early & got the bin out before the bin wagon arrived.  That I got the urgent thing done before the power cut & was able to relax a bit after that.  That mentor buddy noticed I was online early.

That the power cut meant I went back to bed with husband for a while, & that I got to appreciate the silence of an alarm stopping when the power was restored.  That I remembered the code for the house alarm.

For having time and space to get a couple of other urgent tasks done so I'm able to feel on top of the work.  That taking a few deep breaths & I was able to get on with day instead of overanalysing fretting & making it worse.

That one of the guys turned up to the zoom social I arranged & we had a decent chat.  That the meetup groups exist & I was fortunate to know about them & join a few.  That I got to meet people before the lockdown so it's not like starting from scratch.  That I'm an organiser so I can put in events that I fancy and see if other people turn up, & even if they don't - I've met my commitment.

That I had an uninterrupted afternoon and managed to make great progress through another task that's been on my mind.  It's all good experience and next time I will know better.  That I'm able to concentrate for longer periods and think things through.  Glad I've got that ability back.

Yoga

I got up early & did a morning yoga flow before work.  I quite enjoyed it, & it helped me feel productive.  

I got enough done for the day to be a success & the deadline I thought I'd missed is actually Friday coming & that task is taken care of.

Today was a good laugh, & my wondering about whether I could get to work & back after a meeting was made for me by an urgent matter & another meeting.  Usually going to work on a Monday afternoon means I don't get back for Pilates, so was pleased to stay home.

I made my Pilates boundary & locked the laptop for later, & when I logged back in afterwards I managed to get done what I needed to in the gap between Pilates & dinner.  Thankful it wasn't much work.

That it was a really pleasant day & I had the windows open to air the house for a bit, & turned the heating off.  Also glad I remembered to turn it back on because the wind has got fierce again.

Good mood

Thankful that the woods are within my 5km, & that I was up bright & early & decided to go to the woods rather than use the exercise machine.  That it's been a pleasant day & I was early enough to get on the swing & my favourite machine & then have a slow wander round.  And that I sent some lovely Reiki to friends who when I told said they'd been in need of it.  Glad to be able to pay it back.  Thankful for the people I have in my life, & being able to reconnect.

That I've started a new Gloomhaven character & am liking this one much better.  That husband also has a new character so we're starting at the bottom level again, & have time to get used to our characters & put the thought into levelling up.  Glad he took the chance on us liking it & bought it for us.

That I cooked the bacon for a change, & husband was appreciative.    

That I found the open bottle of nice juice so I can enjoy it before it goes off.

That I am feeling better, that I've remembered what it's like to bounce around in a good mood & enjoy my life.  For the friends I've been chatting to & sharing ideas with.

Weekend

Thankful I'm feeling much better, time to sing & dance around.  That my weekends are mine to do with as I please, & that I got to speak to my brother & niece.  Thankful that when I messaged him to ask when he free he said straight away, & we had a nice chat.  

That inspired me to phone my parents, glad I called the mobile & had a few minutes with my dad, & that I caught them just after tea.

That I've enjoyed messaging friends today too. & husband was so quick in the supermarket that there wasn't even time for me to get cold as I waited.

For being able to breathe and move around.  For being able to read, and colour, and indulge in things I enjoy.

That I had a response from the work counselling service & will hear from someone soon.  Glad I was brave enough to send the application in, & that even if I'm ok when they phone, at least I can talk through when I'm not.

That I like my long weekends, & still have a day left to enjoy.

Friends

Thankful for being able to make friends, that a few people I know are happy to meet for a virtual lunch, & for the internet and ways to keep in touch.

Thankful for the support I get from friends when I'm down & struggling, that there are people who are easy to be with and who don't need explanation but can present gentle challenge.

For things I've been able to learn, knowledge and practical skills.  That there are people around who are kind.  That I was brave enough to try tapping last night & can remember bits from a previous practice session which really helped.

That hopefully I have now reset my mood & will be ok for a while.  That I have the ability to take time off, & colleagues to cover my work.

For all the hundreds of things I take forgranted, and the people too.

That there are still posties, delivery drivers, take-aways, that we have Netflix & library books, and ways to get things we want.  That there are still plenty of positives to concentrate on.

Weekends

Thankful that I survived the day at work.  That I work from home so I didn't have to actually speak to anyone & a meeting I'd forgotten about - the organiser sent me a message to say they'd be discussing something that probably wasn't of interest to me so I could drop out if I wanted. 

That me being off wasn't a problem with either the boss or the agency, & someone covered the most urgent of my work.

That I have the EFT to try to remove a toxic voice in my head, and I've had one of those light bulb moments about work.  Temping makes it easier to be less invested in the work than I have been at previous jobs.

I have another long weekend to get myself back on my feet then can tackle work with a fresh head next week.

I remembered to print out the details & pay for the latest bookclub book.  Glad we have that at work, & the last meeting was enjoyable.

Woods

Thankful that I got out to the woods today.  That it was dry & there were plenty of spaces when I arrived. That I can breathe, big deep belly breaths that are good for us.  That I was off work & could nap when I got home.  

That I can get audiobooks from the library, & have them on the phone.  Low attention activity.

That I am brighter today & feeling more like myself again.

That I had the sense to cancel volunteering & that it's easy to do & never a hassle.

That we have healthcare, & jobs, & that it doesn't matter that I don't get sick pay.

That friend is helping us pack stuff in the house.
That another friend is feeling better & gave me a recommendation for a cake place to pass on.

Recovering

Thankful that my boss told me to be off today, & that I got some brain function back. That I've taken tomorrow off too, & he's told me not to worry about anything.

That the woman in the chemists was really helpful & ordered me in some different tablets & I got them today.  That I managed to go to the local shop & come back with husband's lunch & a treat for me.

Thankful to friends I spoke to during the day, who cheered me up.  That friend helped me realise I have suitable containers in the house & I avoided having to drive for some shopping.

Thankful that friend is recovering & seemed on good form today.

That I remembered to get cashback in the shop, & the max is E100 so I know for next time.

That I got some basic make-up in the chemists.

That I feel better now & am up for the mentoring I'm doing tonight.

That husband is sweet & caring & let me sleep.

That he's enjoying the Netflix shop I wanted to watch & it's still funny second time round.

Sleep

Thankful for friends to chat with during the day and they cheer me up.

That I had the sense to ask my boss for a word & he was available not long after.  That he's reassuring to talk with & makes consistently good, quick decisions & made it easy.  That I had the day off to sleep, & felt better after napping all day, & husband took me to the shop for a bit of air & some treats.  That there is a shop within easy walking distance.

That I have tomorrow off too with no pressure.

For library ebooks and audiobooks and being able to sleep all day with something to listen to.

That I changed the bedding yesterday, I love fresh bedding.

Weekends

Thankful that husband helped me move the rabbit run to shelter.  That everything survived the winds.  That I can lie in bed & listen to the wind & know that I can stay home & not be out in it.

Glad that husband fixed the hoover. 

That we have snack bars in the cupboard so I got to eat before volunteering.  That there are plenty of volunteers on & so far it's been an easy shift.  That husband does the cooking & shopping & provides tasty food for me.  That the local take aways deliver & we have a reasonable choice of food.  That I braved the cheesy chips & they're cheese rather than cheese sauce.

That we finally got round to using an app for Gloomhaven & it's so much easier than using all the cards & trackers.  Thankful that husband knows about tech & gets us good spec items.

That I get weekends off work, & work regular hours.  That I can have a more casual approach than in my last job where everything got to me.

Thankful I got registered with a doctor and can get my medication easily, & that we got painkillers in the house.

That there are kind people in the world, and that I have friends who listen to me & support me. That husband takes good care of me.

Naps

Thankful that I got back to England & back across here in the summer, that there was a window in the lockdowns & I was able to take advantage of it.  That things lifted enough for me to enjoy seeing my friends & getting out to cafes.  

That I have the hope of one day getting back over & seeing friends.

That I don't get headaches very often.

That husband is happy for me to lie with my head on his leg watching tv & doesn't ask why, or what's up.  & generally he just puts his arm round me cos he knows I like it.

That I remembered I had left over Chinese so I had some as a snack & the rest while husband had fish & chips, & his fish n chips arrived really quickly.  

That I got the bunny away before it got dark & rainy.

Thankful too that SilverCloud here is open access & doesn't require a referral or an advisor,

Calm

Thankful I took the day off & that the storm missed us.  That the woods is close enough to get to & empty enough for a wander round it to be enjoyable.

For husband making me hot chocolate when I came home.

For friend for posting me some of my music books & me being able to play my clarinet.  That I can still get a decent sound out of it, & my fingers seem to know what they're doing without my conscious brain getting involved.

For the internet & being able to look things up, that enough people play the game we do that we can find answers.  That there are really cool things available, mostly if you know what you want there's a way to get it.

Gloomhaven

I've had another pleasant evening playing Gloomhaven with husband, & reading the items that'll come later in the game.  Glad I have tomorrow off so I can put the pieces away in the organiser that arrived the other day.

Happy I have tomorrow off, & that I have implemented good boundaries so far for when I'm not at work.

That the bad weather seems to've passed us by so I'm hopeful for getting to the woods tomorrow.

That I send a photo of my hand to Pilates friend so there were no exercises with our palms on the floor, it's sore enough as it is.  For having zoom & having the weekly sessions to attend.

Happy to have a new mentee & she seems eager to converse.

Gloomhaven

Thankful that I have a job, & whilst I'm currently busy, it's manageable.  That the meetings I organised today went smoothly & we got decisions made and actions agreed.  A couple of other things are ticking over in the background.

That when husband forgot to look for a cooked chicken in the supermarket, we were near KFC & went there instead.  He remembered to get me bubble bath so now if I can clean the bath I can play around with the bubbles.  He also remembered the milk for me.

That we had a fun game of Gloomhaven, & I got the check & then died & he was able to finish the scenario on his own so we won.  That we got new maps & one of them furthers his mission.  That we have games we can play together & enjoy, & plenty of room for our hobbies.  That there's room on the jigsaw table for me to set up crystal grids, & that I've enjoyed creating the recent couple I've made.

That it looks like the really bad weather will miss us.  That even if it does get cold we can mostly stay inside and have the heating on.  For central heating and secure windows and doors.  

That I have access to library books on the phone & I enjoy reading.  That there are so many things I enjoy learning about.

Fun

Thankful that I got up at a reasonable time & got into work early.  That the roads were clear & the bad weather hasn't hit yet.  That I got done what I needed to in work today, & that we've been told to stay home for the rest of the week because of the impending doom of snow.

That I got plenty of steps wandering around, & made my 10,000 for the first time in an absolute age.  That I put thicker socks on & have survived without blisters or skinning my feet.  That my new boots can be worn without doing the buckles up, instantly more appealing.

That workmate came to lunch with me & we were having a fun chat with the lab girls behind.  I'm getting to know a few people now.

That friend got his jab as a bonus treat 😁

That as I was thinking husband could order me cheesy garlic bread I remembered we had some in the fridge & it's best before today so I got it cooked.  Glad I only bought one packet cos it wasn't that nice.

Glad we got Gloomhaven, we've had hours of fun out of it, & are really getting into it now, gelling with the characters play styles etc.  Looking forward to the next play through & taking a different path.

Glad I have a lovely warm, cosy bed waiting for me.

Calm

A friend reminded me of a time I enforced a boundary & I was really proud of myself for doing so.  & rather than be guilted into something I said I wouldn't do, I was cross that I was shown that disrespect.

That husband fixed my computer issue for me, & that I had an easy afternoon of simple tasks.  

That it was easy getting someone to check my tasks, & that I pre-emptively suggested something I bet the boss would have got round to asking for.

That we had a good chat in the meeting today, & it was sociable day.

That husband played Gloomhaven with me tonight & we won our scenario, & now I have the treat of deciding that cards to enhance.

That friend felt better after she started work.

That husband reminded me to buy cereal when we went shopping, & that I remembered soap.  That I got up & did what I needed to & got back to bed for a nap & a cuddle.

That I have a calm & drama free life.  That I have sufficient & generally no pressure, that things are under control.

Walk

Husband came for a walk & the sun was out & it was dry.  We got to see the house he really likes, & a few more along that road.  That we are still able to get out and wander around, & that there are a few circular routes rather than just up the road and back down again.

The bunny towels that I left on the line are dry & I took them down.

I like the weekends, I've had a lovely relaxing time & am ready to face another week.

That I got further with the online gaming concept, & remembered how much I enjoyed the game.  That it was fun chatting to friend & trying to figure out how it works.

I told husband the shower was draining really slowly again & he instantly & got the drain unblocker & poured it down.

Friends

Thankful to be able to catch up with friends, & especially to a friend who's helping with the packing.  That we have interesting & varied conversations.  That modern technology (phones & internet) means we can chat for ages in comfort.

That another friend who pops up in chat when I'm thinking about shutting down the pc was on voice comms when I came to it tonight, & husband helped me set up the headset.  We had a fun group chat.

That husband has been chatty with me today, recovered from his cold.  That he ordered from the curry house because that's what I fancied even though he didn't really.

That I have been in a good mood today, & feel more like myself again.  

For having the room to be able to leave games and jigsaws out while we're enjoying them, & having the work areas & play areas separate.  That we have a comfortable house, safe and warm and dry.

Excited

Thankful husband came for a walk at lunch, & that it was dry & sunny.  I got the chance to wear my new boots, & we got home before I got blisters. I need thicker socks with them in future.  

I made a lovely grid for a friend who's suffering.  Am glad to be in tune with my crystals again, & inspired.  I've also been making progress with the jigsaw.

That I managed to get today's work done, & brought up what I needed to in the fortnightly meeting.  Team meeting was a good laugh.

That husband's found some more houses to look at, there are some really nice ones nearby. 

That my mood has continued to improve this week & I am back on form now.  Glad I took this weekend off from volunteering & have plenty of time to enjoy myself.

Boots

Happy to be excited about my new boots arriving.  That they did arrive, & that they fit.  That husband opened the box for me & is going to tap in the pins (manufacturing flaw, boots were cheap).

That the deadline for the ridiculous amount of work I've been set has been extended, & it's easy enough, just slow.

That the sun was shining & I got the windows open to air the house.

That husband got me good bread when he went shopping, & found me some little yoghurts too.

That we have the exercise machine, & I've discovered that audiobooks / webinars / youtube clips can get me through 15 mins at a time. & I look forward to it cos I'm enjoying the audio books,

Freedom

Enjoyed chatting with a friend this morning, & being reminded that I have the luxury of wallowing for a little while, then some music books arrived & I got excited about my new boots that're arriving today.  Even having an off day I managed to get a few things done, & team mate quickly checked my work too so I got to close it out.

The boss remembered to do a thing for me without me needing to remind him, & because it was just a small task he queried it & is going to chase the rest of it for me.

People seemed in a better mood than the previous few days.  

The sun came out & I got the windows open for a little while to air the house.

It's evening & I am free to enjoy my time with no obligations.

Well

Thankful husband's result is negative, & that he's feeling better.  

That the boss is in tomorrow & is going to assign numbers for me.

That audit is ready to close & we only have a couple of minors.

That I eventually managed to get a sensible idea together for something I need.

That I was on top of a work issue.

That I've got my grats done early & am going on the treadmill.

That we found a new curry house, & we both like it

calm

Thankful for having easy days, & no pressure or deadlines. That husband got through to the doctors, & that I got to take him for his test.

That we found it easily & arrived on time, & that it over quickly and relatively painlessly. 

That husband cooks for me, & we have plenty of food, & access to food.  

That we have jobs, and the house, & are in a good position, & home delivery is available.  That having jobs means we have access to people that will drop supplies off to us if we need it.

That I got to speak to my mum & dad, & they're both well.

That we can still order stuff off Amazon, & the parcels arrived while we were home today.