Sun(flowers)

Thankful husband offered to come with me, & we had a pleasant chat as we strolled through the sunflower field.  I got a few photos to send to friends.  That it started the conversation about growing flowers / gardening in our new house (when we get one).  That it was easy to find & the road was empty when we came to pull out.

For the compost bins (& bags) we got from work & we are getting better with our waste streams.  That husband is accepting I won't be getting take away with him so often (esp if he's getting a burger) & that he remembers to ask rather than automatically ordering me something.  That I enjoyed the veggie burger & have some idea for making my own now.  That we got the new oven & it works well.  For the agency being quick to respond, & that we have a nice place to live.

For friends to chat with during the day, courses to do, hobbies to enjoy, books to read, the library & subscription services we have access to.

Thankful too for a friend who's going to keep an eye out at the rock & gem fair for me next weekend.

That I got the weeds cut down in the back, & they all fit into the compost bin.

Work

Thankful for a lie-in, for flexible working.  That our team meetings are a laugh.  

We got the broken system working.  & I have progress in my other tasks - & a plan for next week.  That I spotted a mistake before I executed my protocol so there's time to correct it.  & let the boss know.

Spoke to a colleague & we had a nice conversation about where we want to buy a house.  I also got the sign the cards & put into the collections.

Enjoyed the team get together & got a cake, & have plans to go out tonight with more colleagues.  & husband is coming out for the drinks too.  & we had a good time, I've also evolved into drinking non-alcoholic beer which is better than being out drinking water.

Glad I'm in the team I'm in, & that I have team mates on site so people to have lunch & a laugh with.

Houses

Thankful that a work annoyance has been resolved.

That I managed to get done what I needed to today.

Lunch was a good laugh & we got free ice-cream.  Getting a tub instead of a cone meant I got melted ice-cream as a mid-afternoon milkshake treat.

That I like the house husband prefers, & there's a decent loft space too.  That I figured out what I didn't like about the enclosed stairs - that I've been spoilt by where we currently live & our previous house.  That I'm getting to know what I like & don't, & what are deal breakers for us.  That we managed to get the 2 viewings tonight, & I got home from work early for a nap beforehand.

That the drive there & back was ok, & we arrived in good time.

That I have a job & a laugh with workmates, & husband & a safe place to live & sleep.

Abundance

Thankful that I am part of a team & we lunch together and walk afterwards.  That lately the pace has slowed and I've enjoyed the chat.  Being part of a team helps me feel included and supported- that there are people to turn to and who can help.

For husband and his support and how calm and loving he is.  That we get on well and everything is good.

Thankful for my 4 day week and the flexibility to work extra if I want or to work less as needed.  That my boss is supportive and facilitates us being able to do our jobs.  That today is my lie-in so I have a chance to recover from the exercise and additional steps if the past couple of days.  For the boss being online so we could have a quick conversation last night.  That he appreciates what I do and I can leave unpleasant memories of other workplaces behind.  That I'm learning that lesson too.

That husband loves the treats I picked up while we were shopping, happy to have found something he likes.  

For having a good reliable car and being able to drive and get around.  That husband's putting the work in looking at houses and he has a good eye for what's after.  That he's conscientious and puts the work in, to most things he does.  I trust him.  Glad I can recognise that too - that I am learning to let go of needing to control things and have them done my way.  That I have the opportunity to apply that same lesson at work...  as challenging as I'm finding that- it's a way for me to grow.

For friends making the effort to see me while I was over in the UK and for their care and concern.  For book recommendations and being able to read, the access to knowledge I have and that I enjoy reading and learning.

For the resources and tools I have access to & am discovering.  Later recommendation is really good.  Thankful for availability of books and information.  

That I can make changes now and improve my health and well-being before it reaches crisis.  For the people on my life who act as role models (for good and for bad) so I can see consequences without having to necessarily suffer them myself.

That having started grats again that I can feel the change in me as gratitude takes over, that writing them down here shows me a pattern of consistency and I can easily see how long and how many.

For access to healthcare and medication.  Including counselling.   That the Internet and locjdown had changed the world so remote working and telehealth is established so I have access to a wider pool.of providers.  

Home

Thankful I live in Europe, that I have a job & a roof over our heads.  For husband & friends.  

For getting back safely, & being able to find my way here.  For a snuggle with husband before he helped me unload the car.

That I hung the washing inside, so it wasn't out in the bad weather.  

That I had a good chat with my mum when I rang, she seemed in a good mood & was thankful I'd visited.

For husband doing weights with me, & me remembering to wash the car windows.  That I've done my first hour of work for the morning so can have a lie-in if needed.

That I found the book a friend recommended, for much less than she saw it for.  That I have enough to be able to treat myself.

Safe

Thankful to have been able to stay at friend's, & that she was happy to have me.  I'm planning on being there next year too.

That I got to meet friend again, glad I took my book & enjoyed reading on the beach.  That it was cool in the cafe & museum & she got to see the painting.  For the reminder to look after myself better.  That she's passed the dragon head onto me.

For directions from friend & being able to find his house OK.  That I have a good reliable car and arrived safely.  That friend got home safely too.

That we managed to get somewhere for dinner and there were options I liked.  For my dinner being OK.  The family are friendly & welcoming & I enjoyed their company, & the dogs have taken to me too.

That we found something to watch on TV and survived the heat.

Friends

Glad I met friend today - we had a good day & a lot of chat.  Thankfuk weather was cool and cloudy - pleasanter than expected.  Home in time to meet Mel at Cambois beach (her first time there). 

That I let her know about coming over & it coincided nicely with her visit across.  

Just packing up to leave - knackered now.  Glad of time and not having to rush.  And being able to stay with other friends.  That I got plenty of beach time in and only a small part of me burnt this time.

I've had a fab time here.  Glad friend was available to let me stay.  Thankful I was able to come over & meet friends, & for the friends who met me.

Thankful for my job and my boss.  For friends supporting me.  That I have a calm drama free life and plenty of blessings.  For setting out when I did and seeing friend turn so I was there to meet her, & for her support.   

Drive

Glad for a lie in.  That I figured out how to work the grill and made friends lunch for tomorrow.

That I got to the beach and enjoyed reading my book.  And was heading back before the rain started. 

For being stopped in traffic and able to phone friend & car stereo connecting- thankfully for modern tech.  That it was easy to turn around & I did so before the one way system.

We got a table at the restaurant & there was something I liked on the menu.  It was a good choice

Kept friend in view on drive back- especially important cos the road was closed once I thought of knew where I was going.  

Also that she has similar thoughts to me about someone.  Friend is excited about his new house.  Another friend has confirmed for Monday so hopefully will work out.  Glad I had the patience to try again.

Remembering how fabulous husband is.  Can't wait to be back with him.

Lessons

Thankful for a day off to rest.  That friend confirmed for Fri (showing she didn't take offence the other day).

That friend gave me a key so I can come & go as I please, & that I brought the car so I can get around.  For being able to stay with a different friend next week and being able to see different people.  Also to draw a line under the people here.

For the opportunity to enforce a self care boundary.  For seeing the growth in myself where previously I would have been more obliging.   Also for the realisations I've had about what annoys me and how it's not fair to put my expectations on others.  For seeing the wisdom of my boss's approach - accommodation because there's no benefit to getting worked up.  Other people are whi they are.  And we only think we know them, that we predict their likely behaviour based on previous experience. 

For the reminder that we are all one.  For being able to clarify some of my ideas.  Seems like a spiritual experience I has is similar to some near death experiences and am glad I didn't have to be near death for my experience.  For the people I have met along the way & the lessons I have learnt 

For the friends who've made effort to see me.   And for being spoilt.  I made friends here, mostly in latter years and I can do so in Ireland.  A positive reminder.  Time to focus and manifest, & let go of the outcome.  To be who I want to attract.

Friends

Glad there's no drain in the gutter where I dropped my keys.

That I drove to the beach rather than us walking down. 

Drive

Thankful to have a reliable car and to arrive safely.   That I am fit to drive.

Friend likes all the treats I brought.  That shopping was easy and filled the required time.  That friend was in her shop & we had a nice chat.  And I got friend nice soap.  Also got the crystals I was after.

That the journey was uneventful and straight forward.  I got parked and got to use the loo.   Chancing my arm at the cafe paid off.

There was a space for me outside friend's house and she's given me the spare key.   The bed is comfy.

She loved the shawls too.

Support

Thankful to be able to pull straight out of the garage with no traffic.  For the opportunities to wave people out on the way down.

That I was able to get the advisory work done, & paid for.

To remember the concept of pronoia.  Expecting better health will help - & I have been less fatigued today.  Think most of my steps have been woolwork. Found enough wool to keep me entertained today, & managed to get it all untangled.

That parking angel is magic and I think a health angel is next and the idea will help friend too.  Excited about my trip.  

That my mum seems better able to deal with my dad now, & sees the wisdom in what I've been saying. 

Chose well at dinner & will manage the rest for lunch - also arranged some basic shopping for Fran.  Glad to be able to stay with her.

Support

Thankful someone arranged the meal, & that we met beforehand.  Also for there being instructions for parking, & I met them easily.  It was a quiet pub so we chatted.

It was enjoyable.  A couple of nice touches - like not having me sat on the end, so I felt included.  Hugs at the end.  

& that another night out is organised. That I like the team and my boss. For having the reduced hours & being fairly free to come and go as I please.

For husband being so laid back and accepting.  That I have no obligations, & my time is my own.

That the packing is mostly done - I have as much as I need and can pick up whatever I need when o get there.  Excited about the trip.  The overnight ferry is the right choice so I can take my time getting there and I got to join in last night.

That friend's gift has arrived at my parent's.