Wednesday 28 June 2023

Friends

Thankful to have friends.   That I arrived safely at friend's Houses and found them ok.   That I had reception enough to contact them for the final detail. 

That we got back to the car before it was noticed our parking expired, & I drove friend to the pub rather than having her follow me.  

That husband is so sweet.  Am constantly reaffirming that I choose him and am happy.  That the house is fab and we're happy.


Monday 26 June 2023

Husband

Very thankful husband is calm and supportive.  That he is patient and caring, sweet and thoughtful, & easy going and easy to talk with.  All the times I've asked for help and he has just obliged.

Glad my dad paid my car bill and that he was the one driving to the garage and pub.

That the car was ready when we pulled in and it was parked in a good spot out the front.

Sharing a dessert was a good choice.

I've booked the ferry back over, payment went through first time with no bother.

Friend we're meeting wed got in touch and we have plans now.  That I'm looking forward to going up to stay with friends - being more comfortable.

Friday 23 June 2023

Holidays

Had a nice chat with my boss.  He was unconcerned about my mistakes and told me to have a good holiday and not worry about anything.  So thankful to have a good boss and be in a good team.  That I am gradually learning to be calm and not worry about work.

Got to collect husband's cakes and collect him in time to be back for pilates.  Enjoyed pilates and teacher said it was good to see me.  

Was cool enough to sit out on the swing at lunch, nd it stayed dry.

Got most of my packing done.  Even if I forget something it doesn't matter.

Snuggles with husband watching TV.  Love the house we have and our life.  The freedom to do as we want and no bother from the neighbours. 

Thursday 22 June 2023

Work

Thankful I thought of workmate and he was able to help and provide another contact.  That my boss is tolerant and calm and doesn't make a big deal of mistakes.  That I've already told him it's going badly and I'm not scared/ anxious about it.

I'm in a team and there are people I can go to for help.  I like being in a team and not being alone / isolated at work.  That I can see how I benefit from this job and environment, that outweighs the frustrations I have.

A chance to practice being calm and resilient.  Glad I stepped away from the work when I did and also that I managed to get everything so far signed off.

Husband heated my leftovers for me while I was at Pilates, and I enjoyed the session.  It was hard work but enjoyable.  Glad I made the effort to go. 

Last day tomorrow for 3 weeks and I can step away and not let today's mistakes bother me during my holiday.

Looked into one of the boxes I was going to take for my brother and most of it can go to the charity shop instead and save me the bother.  I'll also go back through the glasses and crockery after tye uoliday and am betting I'll be able to part with some of i

That I've got a job I like and am happy with the wages and conditions.  Am feeling blessed.

Husband's going to be at work tomorrow and won't be looking for a lift til after pilates.  The Friday afternoon session is my favourite.  He's angled the lounge lights so they won't be in eyes for future sessions.

Wednesday 21 June 2023

Calm

Thankful husband got a break & we collected the table & had a quick trip to the shops.

That I have milk now so I can have hot chocolate.

That I calmed down from my murderous rage.  Managed to get agreement in the end, very glad my boss was there to step in & sort it out.

Made some decisions I'm proud of (workwise), sensible suggestions.  Husband was reassuring about someone I was struggling to deal with, it's not just me.

I'm relieved I'll get everything finished for work before my holidays

Tuesday 20 June 2023

Support

Thankful friend invited me for a walk  yesterday.  That I had a pleasant afternoon in the cafe waiting for husband and I mostly escaped the rain.

That I survived the meeting, & standing meant I could duck out for the loo.  Having my bottle with me meant I could refill it at the water point on my way back into the lab.

For the chocolate bar I treated myself to yesterday that I scoffed down today.  For having those few mins to light a candle and incense and get settled for counselling.

That a contact made the effort to say hello and catchup.  I also escaped unharrassed.  

That I have friends to chat with and I enjoy chatting with them.  That a few contacts I've decided I'm enjoying not being in contact with have gone quiet. 

Husband got a taxi home while I was at counselling and sorted dinner out.  That he is patient and tolerant and doesn't treat me the way I would.

That counselling is useful for exploring my reactions and I'm back to seeing its value.  And now I'm ready to join the D&I group.  I have plenty of time to reach out to that contact and have a conversation.

I was safely inside for the thunder storm and am enjoying the cooler weather.  I found my UK money and have it packed along with my medication and passport.

That my time is mostly my own and I can lie in my nook and read.  Nearly have book finished and I've been enjoying it.

Remembered to cancel payment for the weeks I won't be at counselling.  

Monday 19 June 2023

19th June

 Glad to take a half day, that I got up early enough to fit the hours in.

That there was plenty to do and I managed to get ot all done.
Arrived in nice time.  And got parked OK.

Big gap in traffic for me to pull out onto main road.

Found M&S food ok,  they had a well signposted toilet.  The samosa snack I got was yummy.  

Saw friend was ringing and answered phone so we had a pleasant walk and catch up.

Enjoyed cake with husband.  Glad I resisted hot chocolate earlier, tea lasted longer and I saved the calories for cake.  

Found a lovely pendant, will get it if it's still there next time I go.

Friend sent on the new meetup group, looks like somewhere I can consider hosting the walks when I give this group up. 

Glad I took a coat.

Sunday 18 June 2023

Lazy days

Enjoyed a lazy day on the sofa.  Thankful for entertainment, Internet and books and messaging apps.

That husband sorts out food, & I remembered to prompt him for the nuts we'd actually gone for.

That he goes out and puts the ball back over so I never have to bother.

That he came with me to choose ribbon and I'm a step closer to finishing the present.

Remembered to phone my parents and tell them my travel plans.  

Saturday 17 June 2023

Friends

Thankful I got up and out in time to collect friend.  That we found the cafe easily enough.

It had stopped raining when we got out the car and friend arrived soon after us.  We had a pleasant unhurried time and she decided to come to the next stop with us as well.

Free tour of the gardens which were really nice and we'll def go back, for lunch next time.

Saw the tree and got a photo for friend.

Am finally ready to take the plunge and get ribbon for the cross stitch.

Finally replied to walking guy too and am ready to wash my hands of the group.  

Pulling out of friend's estate was easy, & the traffic chaos was in the opposite direction.

Friday 16 June 2023

Weekend

Thankful to get through the week at work.
That they had wedges at lunch, the one thing I'd said at breakfast that would be a good lunch.

For husband taking time to sit with me and cheer me up.  For knowing how to cheer me up and doing so.

That the urgent thing is safely complete and ready.  Thanked the intern for a great job.

Having friends and plans.  For the ability to get myself over to England to enjoy seeing old friends, & getting the break.

Remembered to ask for Monday afternoon off.  And got to the chemist for the rest of my prescription. 

Thursday 15 June 2023

Hormones

Glad I'm feeling better today.  

That I got up in time to shower and get husband 5o work for when he wanted. 

Got to try out my new mug and went over to the good drinks station with team mate.

That I remembered to bring mug home and we have the engraver so I've got my mug named now.

That I managed to get an undesirable task moved on.  Hopefully the hardest bit is out the way.

That I've realised I'm an item missing from the chemist so hopefully get it sorted tomorrow.  The auditors want to finish early so hopefully have finish work early.

Also have a little time to sort out the ribbon.

Going out with friends on Saturday to look forward to. 

Wednesday 14 June 2023

Rest

Thankful I got to come home.  That I caught my boss alone on the corridor to speak with and he's Cool.

That I got myself outside for a walk and made it to the chemist.

Enjoyed the strawberries. 

Husband brought me one of the travel mugs from work.

Remembered to dry his washing, & get the curry out.

Was off form today cos I missed yesterday's tablet so am optimistic about tomorrow.

That the sofa is comfy and I enjoyed lying on it watching a show, without convincing myself that i' ill.

That I managed some things Nik likes to do today and didn't spiral.

Monday 12 June 2023

Boots

Glad to meet workmates on their way to the canteen and they invited me to join.  Husband took my bag up to the office for me.

Glad I took lunch, and there was fruit available.

Husband came for a couple of walks with me. & noticed my boots were falling apart.  Glad that was at work and not out on a walk somewhere. 

Am reminded of how simple things are with husband.  That he bought me boots to cheer me up and knows what to do, the right thing to say.

Am managing to be less hands on and let other people on with their tasks.


Sunday 11 June 2023

Birthday

Glad I got up and was ready for friends coming.  That the weather was nice and we got parked.  That the one is a good driver.   

For getting parked and making it to dinner on time.  That we shared so it didn't matter that I didn't like mine. 

Had enjoyed looking through the cards friend returned, glad she remembered. 

Home in good time to rest, & i got re-energised for dinner.

Remembered to post father's day card, & it fit in the post box. 

Saturday 10 June 2023

Content

Thankful for having set the alarm and almost being ready on time.  For having friends to go out with, & not having to drive. That it was dry while we were at the gardens and we timed the cafe trip well. That we got rain after so hopefully the plants are happy.

The guttering is fixed and the shed gutters makes a big difference.

For the journey that led me to crystals and reiki, for the self treatments.

For the library and ecollection, nd enjoying the book i'm currently on.

Have another outing arranged for tomorrow and one for next week.  

Enjoying the knitting, glad I got the wool and the ability to learn new things, and time enough to indulge in things I enjoy.

That I have plenty of storage space so can keep loads of hobby items around so I can pick them up and put them down again.

The ability to abandon projects that aren't enjoyable, not feeling obliged to waste time on things I'm not enjoying or getting any benefit from.

Friend phoned and I've told her about my UK trip.  Also another friend is going to see about taking time off to spend with me.

Remembered all my antibiotics today.  For easy access to healthcare and medicine.   Including the menopause clinic, GP, dentist.

Friday 9 June 2023

Health

Thankful I had the day off, that I got a dentist appointment & then a cancellation so I got it out the way today.  Is simple & he will do it himself locally.

Enjoyed myself at the woods, no-one in the play area so I was in the nest swing for the first time in ages.

Got to clear my head a little, thankful for my health & physical ability.  An old guy inspired me.

Finally won a game of welcome to, really proud of myself esp since the other players were ranked well above me.

That I have my plans for the weekend sorted, & none of it involves me driving.

Thursday 8 June 2023

scenery

Glad for another easy drive to the training, that I remembered the route.  That pulling out in the evening was easy as well.

That I got the nice bread again at lunch.  

Remembered to ask the question by boss wanted.

Logged onto the pc just in time for the online session which I'd forgotten about.

Have already booked tomorrow off, so any work I do is a bonus, & I get brownie points for this week.

For the weather being nice & taking a wander in the grounds, venue is lovely.  

Got home in nice time for dinner, & husband watched tv with me.

Wednesday 7 June 2023

Day out

Thankful I got up and got myself out the house at a reasonable time.

The drive was easy & I arrived at a nice time.  

Glad I excused myself & spend an hour sat outside doing other things during the conference call, that the weather was nice & I was sat under a tree.  Got done what I needed to for the work onsite to keep on track

Also that I got a wander around the grounds which were really nice, & found a secluded bench to have a quick lie down on & that perked me up enough to get through dinner & the drive home.

Made some good points in the meeting & of the others told me he's glad I was there.

That I left at a good time rather than stay til the end of dinner.

Remembered to water my plants.


Tuesday 6 June 2023

Work

The work I put in last week earned me the honour of the boss regarding me as "most familiar with the software" and 2 days at off site training and a day off to compensate.  This is good because it gets me out of the last minute panic that'll no doubt be occurring the rest of the week. 

Organised my time off and have the ferry booked and stays with friends organised.

Am excited about the holiday, relieved because I've so unmotivated it's reassuring to know i can get myself organised. 

Got the car service booked for the day I want.

Counselling was useful.  Am glad I stopped the previous one and found this one.

The patches will last til my review and I have enough medication to see my through my UK trip.

My gum isn't sore which is also a relief.

Monday 5 June 2023

bank holiday

Thankful for the bank holiday, for being able to stay in bed.

That I managed to get up, & it was cool enough that I got the hedge finished.  The neighbours car wasn't on the drive so I had easy access.  The compost bin gets emptied this week too.

Found the pruning shears & took care of some of the branches from a nearby tree, they also fitted into the compost bin.

Used the spinach, & the remaining potatoes, enjoyed cooking.

Only had half the rocky road, & resisted going back for more later.  Husband might finally be getting the message I'm avoiding sugar.




Sunday 4 June 2023

Woods

Thankful I made it on time, & the others were deep in chat.  That I managed to get them to slow down for me, & it was shaded and cool in the woods.

That the van was there and I got water and ice-cream.  Also eaten fairly well today apart from a a slab of cake.

Husband played the new game with me, it's OK.  Enjoyed sleeving the cards.

Am getting used to the cherries in the berries mix and they're OK.

Remembered to modify the booking for next weekend.  

The workshop was fun, someone else turned up and someone else is interested.  Looking forward to the pyramid one next month.

Can set a reminder on the phone for the patches so I'm not relying on the calendar.   Will get me through to the follow-up appointment. 

Glad tomorrow is bank holiday so I get an extra rest day.

Friday 2 June 2023

Project

After deciding at counselling that I need a project at work, today I found one.  Pleased I discovered the procedure before it was handed to us.  That I've found another flaw in the system and will have it all ready to share next week.  

That my computer account is back and everything looks to be as it should.

Lunch was fun, I like the other half of the team.  Glad they're there.  Also that I got a good desk, & the freedom to work onsite or remotely.

That I'd set an alarm for pilates and so remembered. Host saw me arrive and it was the usual chill session.  She's going to move it later so I can attend more often.  We had a nice chat after the class and she has a couple of friends who'll join the workshop.

Have made the cake and have time to make more tomorrow if it doesn't work out.


 

Thursday 1 June 2023

Happy

Glad to have the morning off and extra nap time.

That my badge still works and I got into site.  

That I made it in time to join the others for lunch and it was fun, the meal was OK too and we got our free ice-cream. 

Got skipping and a walk in.  

Husband made the curry for me and it's yummy.  I like the texture.

I've got plenty of energy the past few days.  In a good place in general.