Hope

Got into work in time for a chat & tier.  Enjoyed being in & getting the social, & caught up with a few people that was worthwhile.  My emoji returned.

I figured out how to make the methods work, & am pleased with myself.  

Husband brought me unsolicited hot chocolate.  

I made it to Pilates & enjoyed the whole session, glad I went, & for the variety she includes.

That husband fixed the internet so I could come home & work, & take him to the viewing.  That he finished his meeting in time to come to the viewing, & it's a lovely house.  Think that definitely the right area for us.

That boss is flexible enough that I could take the time for the viewing, & that I could disappear for a while the other day for the mortgage appointment.  That husband is well underway with the process of getting the approval.

Got my 10,000 steps.

That the crafting meet is starting this week & it's on Friday rather than Wednesday which is much better.

& I got a supportive reply from the mentoring coordinator.

That the boss came to the team meeting & I remembered what to ask the questions I needed to & everything is ok.  That team mate reviewed the urgent methods for me, & the people at the other site were helpful.

What went well?
I did great at Pilates, figured out how to make the methods work, 

Still happy

Pleased I'm still in a good mood.  That husband came to the forest with me, & we found the cafe.  That it was dry when we at the woods & it didn't start raining til after we were back in the house.

That he reminded me about bunny greens and it was dry when I walked to the corner shop - & that trip got me the steps I needed to make target.  

That we did weights, & are restarting that habit.  I haven't lost too much progress since last time, & it's only a month since our last session which isn't bad compared to other breaks.

That the mentee turned up & is grateful for the sessions even if I'm not meeting his expectations.  Have emailed the coordinator & maybe this is my chance to retire from this too.

That I found a cool crafting bag and once it arrives I can tidy up my wool and projects.

Thankful to the friends I've been chatting with today.

That it was easy to open the savings account, & I was right not to get the money transferred into my current account where I'd worry about it.

What went well?

Proud of my second square, the edges are straight.  That I did the weights with husband rather than making excuses.  I resisted chocolate at bedtime.  & started a savings account.

Calm

Thankful to still be in a good mood.  For the house selling & it being a massive relief.  That husband's starting to look into how to get our stuff out of storage there & over here instead.

That I decided against attending the conference & instead did some shredding, letter writing, & enjoyed the knitting zoom.  That it's a stable group & I'm starting to get to know them now & join in more.

That I got stitch markers when I went to the knitting shop.

Am glad I found & joined the knitting meetup, & that I'm learning crochet & getting the chance to practice with the squares. That this green seems to be going better than the blue & there's plenty of scope for experimentation once this one is finished.

That I got to the post office to post a couple of letters, & have a few more ready to go.  That writing these has given me loads of ideas for writing to the nursing home.

That I brought the shredder & am finally getting through the paperwork.  & I managed to get a few more pieces into the jigsaw.

What I'm proud of:
Writing letters to friends & spending the day doing things I enjoy.  Am proud of my crochet skills & I'm still a total newbie to it.  & that I recorded my favourite hole so I know how to make the flowers.  That I thought to use stitch markers instead of counting from scratch and recording the rows.  And for resisting going back to the wool shop today.

That the house sale & viewing is something I am sharing with loads of friends & gives me something to talk about in counselling - that I don't exclusively dwell on the negative with friends.

House progress

Glad to be so much lighter after the house sale.  That I got to share the news with the team & the boss.

That a feasible house came on the market yesterday & husband agreed to go for a viewing (which I managed to arrange).  He's started the process of getting a mortgage agreement in principle.  & the amount we can borrow is in line with where we were expecting & the houses we're looking at, so that's good.

There are starting to be houses on the market again & there are a few of interest.  That my boss is fine with me taking the time to speak to the lender, & to go & look at houses etc.  That he's happy with me in general & supportive, & I like working for him & being in the team.

That I asked a couple of friends to dowse for me regarding my current first choice & the answers are positive.  Thankful they did that for me, & the results.  For the internet and easily sharing links with people so they can share my excitement at house hunting.  

That husband agreed to go to the supermarket when I said I'm busy tomorrow, & the shop I wanted was open when I got there (cos it's Friday) & I checked the times for the rest of the week.  That I got more crochet hooks of different sizes & am excited about my next square, & maybe learning a different style for it.

That I found my set of crochet hooks before we went out so I knew what sizes I had.  That I like the bigger ones, & had a good range now.  & I can build up the knitting needles collection as required.  Plus I resisted buying more wool til I decide on a thickness.

What went well?
I am pleased with my square, I got a reply & she's asking for photos so I can send one with the ruler on to show the dimensions.  Was in a good mood all day, & made a start on a task I was avoiding.  I like the way the variegated wool comes out in the squares. 

House

House is sold!!  I am so relieved and super happy.  Neighbour went in earlier in the week & so I have meter readings.  Glad I found the moving out service too & our insurance agreement is cancelled etc. too (& won't renew).

There's a house on the market today on the estate we were originally interested in, & it's well within our budget.

Dinner was enjoyable & I chose well (with husband's help), & glad dessert was mentioned in time for me to leave half my dinner & get it take-away so I have it for lunch tomorrow & was able to enjoy cheesecake.  

Remembered the lunch meeting & that was pleasant too.  Feeling calmer & less antsy in general now.  

Am loving the crochet & this second piece has much neater edges.  Am proud of myself.

What went well
Really pleased with myself for deciding to turn the wobbly edged crochet into a bookmark for friend's birthday.  Have it flattening now and might embroider her name onto it.
Managed to create the QDa method, & spoke up in a meeting with a suggestion that was well received.
Reached out for help - was courageous.  Have been braver in general risks with opening up to people.

Decisions

Thankful for counselling, that I calmed down & learnt a new technique, & that I remembered how well supported I am & how I like the team & my boss.  & I recognise how good I have it where I am.

That I managed to do enough today to calm my recent overwhelm about work, & it was worth going to the meeting I said I'd attend.  That the team catch-up was a good laugh, & I had another nice chat with mentor buddy.

That husband agreed to Chinese for dinner.

That we can look seriously at houses now, & am looking forward to the things that come with it (like a new sofa!  I am so uncomfortable on this one).  That we managed to get a house here & are comfortable & the rent is reasonable.

That I went back & watched the tutorials again & the crochet is going better.  That I found the bigger hook & it's working out - the right size piece.  That there's a more local crafting club & I'm on the list to contact when it resumes.

That a friend got in touch out of the blue & we had a decent catch-up.  2 friends, & they both have new jobs & things are going well for them.

What went well?

The chat with mentor - buddy, that I've been opening up to them.  Pleased with myself over my answers in the meeting, & the opening to state our wants to the boss.

Pleased with myself over the crochet, that I can see progress.

Refresh

Glad I had the crochet hook with the wool & watched a different tutorial that is more my style and have plenty of wool to practice with.  

That I am excited about learning, & the volunteer coordinator got in touch so new things are coming up.  Also glad I gave up the previous volunteering, & glad I met friend in Cork through it.  Thankful she reached out & we became friends.

That the boss likes what I did with the review, & I logged back on later & fixed an issue.  

That I managed to switch half of tomorrow to get time off today & went to the woods.  That made me feel better & I got back in time for lunch & to take husband to work.

That the meeting was worth attending.  That I had a few sensible inputs & the organiser is thinking along similar lines to us.

Friend is happy with her scarf & it survived the wash.

Work

Thankful I got up & made it into work.  For who was & who wasn't in.  That it was dry at lunch & we got our walk.

That I managed to get another task finished, slowly making progress.

That husband came to the shop with me & made me hot chocolate.

That I remembered my contacts form.

Work mates cheered me up.

That team mate mentioned the meeting & figured out I was invited & asked the boss about it.

Glad I have a job with supportive team & boss, & flexibility.

More weekend

Thankful I was awake and made the effort to join the creativity zoom, & I really enjoyed it - I was energised for a while.  For zoom and online events, & meetup and people willing to give their time and gifts.  For the partner I had for the breakout rooms, & thought provoking conversations.

That we had bacon in the fridge, & there is plenty of food.  

That I remembered the knitting zoom & got my phone charged for a while.  That I managed to pick up the dropped stitch and work it back, & am enjoying the rounds & the sock looks like it'll be big enough.  That the chat was fun, & I knew when it was time to move out the chair.  That if we meet in person I'm likely to make the effort to join them, at least sometimes.  I got a tip to move the knitting to the middle of the needles & haven't dropped any stitches since.

For husband coming for a walk & it being dry and reasonably warm.  & then gaming more, enjoying spending time with him.

That I got an advert for a knitting project which sounds like a useful start next, & that led me onto other opportunities & I have signed up for a few.  That the letter writing advert was renewed & I have ideas for that too.

That there was enough milk left for me to do breakfast / lunch for tomorrow, & I remembered to do so.  That I've already packed my diary so at least I'll remember it this time.

Weekend

Thankful we were awake & home when husband's delivery arrived, & that he suggested the walk at the woods afterwards.  That it was dry & bright & we had a pleasant walk, & he'll go back again.

That we have the freedom to jump in the car and drive places, that restrictions are lifting and there are nice places around to visit.  That the drive out on a weekend shows me which areas we can consider & where I definitely don't want to be driving from.  That checking the map now I can see I chose the best way to get to lunch.

That we had a pleasant afternoon together gaming, & watching Netflix.  We retired at the same time so our new characters start at the same level & we found an easy gold-rich mission as a learning ground.  & I like my new character.

That I started the socks & have been enjoying the challenge of the round knitting.  That I did the tension square, found my ruler, & it was spot on.  That I had the foresight to buy stitch markers when I was in the wool shop, & that I remembered them today.

That I've been managing to pick up my dropped stitches and caught one half way down before it undid completely.  I have the choice of either working it up by hand or unpicking back to the start - & I don't have to make that decision tonight.

Husband brought me hot chocolate without me asking, & knows my favourite take-aways meals now.  That he takes care of meals & whatever needs doing, without complaint.

That I've been in a good mood & am sleeping better.

Weekend

Thankful for an easy day, that someone spotted a mistake that was rectified before it caused an issue.

That the boss knows I want to speak with him, & turned up to today's team meeting.  That even though there's a lot of work, it's manageable and the deadlines are far enough away to not be pressured.

For going shopping with husband & getting my steps in.  That the roads were quiet & it was easy to park, & he remembered greens for the bunny.  That he regularly remembers greens for the bunny, & gets me things that I like too.

That the exercise machine has stopped squeaking. & we have space to leave it out and accessible.  For all the exercise opportunities there are, as well as music and space.

That friend likes the grid I created for her.  That I was inspired to send her Reiki this morning & build her the grid.  That I was in a good mood all day.

For husband agreeing to come to the forest, that he makes the effort to do things I like.  That we have shared hobbies & enough in common to talk about.

That usually I get texts ok to use for logging into the bank etc & problems tonight are a reminder not to take it forgranted.

Space

Thankful for husband, for the effort he puts into making me nice dinners, and for him doing the cooking.  That it's nice having him home with me, and that we have shared interests like tw TV shows and the jigsaw. 

That we have plenty of space for the things we want to do - like the gaming tables and work desks

That working some of yesterday meant I could finish earlier today without feeling guilty. 

That we had a quick laugh at the team meeting and I had a friendly conversation with one of the analysts.  That I had a pleasant chat with tarot contact and she's taking over my volunteering role I'm ready to give up.  Happy to be giving up all my volunteering.  Thankful for friend who got me started down this path and for the people I've met along the way.  Also for being able to step down and knowing when it's time to do so.  

For the available resources and support.  For discovering I like audio books and the access I have to them.  For being able to read and write too and enjoying doing so.

For heating and running water and having a house to live in. That we were able to move and get jobs and can afford treats.  For having been able to pack up our stuff and get it into storage and the house selling gives me freedom from worrying about that.  For having  spent some time here and getting to know the area a bit and having access to people who can tell us which are good places to be and which are to be avoided.  

That I slept well and has plenty of time to relax today.  For the cross stitch kits and the ne.wone being easy to pick up for a few mins and put down again for later.  The same with the exercise bike - is easy to just jump on and off.  And for husband showing me how to make it harder.  

For my warm cosy bed and having flexible work times so I can have a lie in tomorrow if I want and/ or an early finish.

relaxing

Thankful the shop I went to had water bottles so I've sorted the bunny out with a new one, & have a spare.  That I found the knitting needles I was after for my new project & know another place to go for wool.

Husband remembered to get bunny treats, & got us treats as well.

That I made it to the meeting & took care of a couple of other things while I was logged in.

That the toilet is inside & warm.  For sewerage & running water, safe clean drinking water, & a flushing toilet, & the shower.  For central heating & the cooker & dishwasher & modern gadgets for making life easier. 

For my day off, & being able to relax.  That the exercise machine has stopped squeaking.

That counselling wasn't upsetting today.

Space

Glad I took a half day, & that I have the freedom to decide that last minute.

That I got done what I needed to today & husband wanted collected early so I had time to relax.

That I've looked into the pension & it seems reasonable.  That it's flexible enough to me to change my mind later.  Glad to have the guidance. UK stuff looks straight forward enough too.  

For being off tomorrow & more chance to rest.  That I found time for a crystal healing & feel better now.

For the exercise machine & audio books & the chance to rest. & exercise, that I have room for the hoola hoop.

For husband looking after me, & his sweet consideration.

For the internet & access to answers, & being able to research things.

Happy

Thankful I was awake early and got to work for my meeting. That there's a fix for the computer issue so I could work from home this afternoon.  That I got done what I needed to & the deadlines are pushed out.

That we have the printer and print quality doesn't matter so I can print off what I need.  That there are plenty of patterns available & wool and I can indulge these hobbies.  That I can easily get what I need.

That I feel much better today, & have my mojo back.  That there's room in my exercise space for me to hoola hoop.  

That I was onsite for the free chocolate bars, & I shared it with husband.  & lunch was nice, & I had a sensible portion.

That I have my half day tomorrow, & the work is under control for now.  That the boss told us not to worry about how much there is, & I am generally much calmer than I used to be.

For friend recommending the Hay House audio & I'm enjoying listening, & the meditations.  That I was inspired to get on Bob & he stopped squeaking & I got my 10k steps.  & remembered to get my tablets & the dispersables are quite nice. 

Fresh air

Thankful for the weather being fine, & having the car & the freedom to travel.  That the forest trails were easy to find & there's a large car park & I got to do some exploring on the way.  That I got my steps for the day, & there was plenty of seating.

For husband sorting out food so I don't have to make decisions.

That I remembered to phone my parents & they're both ok.  That they had a nice day.

That we're making progress on the jigsaw & husband is getting into it.

For being able to sit quietly & get on with hobbies.  That I can see & read & use my hands...

Weekends are mine

Thankful for the weekend & time off.  That I can spend the morning in bed with no consequences.

For the phone & wifi and still being able to keep in touch with friend, & the kindle for reading etc.

For meetup and social groups & finally getting up to knit.  For the shops being open & stocked and being able to supply myself with hobby resources.  That I survived the carpark & my new go to had plenty of space. & I found some lovely wool in the wool shop.  For all the people who share their patterns online for free, or minimal cost.  Thankful too for the communities and people willing to share their knowledge eg YouTube clips.

Also glad I resisted the rainbow collection of wool in the shop til I'm more experienced & likely to finish a project.  And that I got some nice wool that'll be a challenge.

For the care husband shows me, & the hot chocolate etc.  That he rolls over and puts his arm round me when nudged, & the light from the phone doesn't disturb him.

That I'm enjoying the new cross stitch & it's easy enough to do while watching tv.  That friend has been in touch & we're swapping messages again.  That I remembered to email old colleague who got in touch, & arranged a session with person who's taking over my listing volunteer role.

Friday!

In a much better mood.  Enjoyed chat with boss & got through some work.  Also made a smart decision.  Supermarket trip got me to over 5000 steps, & enjoyed chatting with a friend.

Remembered to phone for my prescription, & got through & remembered to pay.

Latest treat arrived & am looking forward to getting it done.  Well timed for a friend who's suffering / struggling.

Zoom link has been reset so I can get into the meetup chat tomorrow.

Someone is taking over one of my voluntary roles so I can step down - hurray!

Found a mistake & it didn't carry over to anywhere else which is good, also that I spotted it rather than someone else finding it.

Happy it's the weekend & I can relax.  That I managed to clear the space husband wants, & set up the next table.

That I got to speak to workmate & we've set a date for gaming.

recovering

Glad I managed a few mins on the exercise machine, at least I feel like I've made an effort.  That we have it, & we have the room to be able to use it without sacrifice.  That I can use the kitchen for Pilates rather than keep moving the weights bench.  Thankful we have that too & some weights.

That work is busy so there's at least plenty to do.

That friend recommended an audio app and I'm enjoying the content.  That I discovered audiobooks and am enjoying them whilst knitting / stitching / on the exercise machine.

That we're making progress on the jigsaw, & that we have the dedicated table so there's no pressure to get it finished & we can just leave it out.

That tomorrow's Friday, hoping for an easy day & then the weekend.  & that I have a chat arranged with a friend.

Solitude

Thankful for time to rest before counselling, & for the rest of the day to recover.  

That I have Google Keep as a memory store for my crystals so I can rediscover where I got them.

For the arts & crafts supplies I have so I could draw and make a mess today, & that I'm managing the journal so far.

That I am starting to find my voice & expand my comfort zone.  

Husband got me treats.

That I can still walk in my red boots

Work

Thankful the boss made it to our team meeting & knows we want to talk with him, that he turned up to the other meetings today so I had nothing to do in them.

That even though I managed to not get anything done today, that's fine.  I got some emails sent & a few things ticked off.

That the philosophy lesson was better than the welcome & we quite enjoyed it.  The other students seem fine.  & it's easier to use husband's tablet than my phone.

That a combination of standing and kneeling saved my back.

Solicitor phoned & completion date is being brought forward - house is nearly sold!  Exciting.

Chat

Thankful to have some easy work to do today, & some of my on-going tasks carried a little further forward.  That I remembered to turn up to hypercare & got my questions answered.

Fun chat with team mates about music etc.

A short walk at lunch & a few times on the elliptical got me to over 5k.  That we remembered treats for the bunny.

For friends messaging me, and having a laugh.  That my latest top arrived, & I got a sweet message back from my coach.

That I remembered to cancel an appointment on Wed to give myself more time to prepare.

That I have plenty of hobbies to keep me entertained & access to plenty of streaming,

Safe travels

Thankful for being able to turn off the alarm and have the time to myself instead of attending the meetup.

& that I got myself to the beach, & that it's actually really straightforward.

That it stayed dry while I was there, & that I had a great vantage point to listen to the waves, & my recordings turned out well.

That I got home safely, & the scariest bend there was a learner pulling in, slowly, so I had a safe opportunity to pull out & know not to go that way again.  & it took longer than the main roads.

That I had soup to enjoy when I got home, & husband made dinner.  The effort he puts into providing nice & healthy meals for me.

That friends are interested in a unicorn workshop & host is happy to go ahead with one.  Something to look forward to & get excited about.

That I had a great time out, & a lovely cosy house to return to.  That my time is my own.

Fun

Thankful for the books on my phone so I can lie in bed and read without light.   That being cosy under husband's arm kept me in bed and I had another snooze.

That I had plenty of time to enjoy hobbies and chatting with friends today and no obligations.

That I've remembered to set a reminder for tomorrow's meetup.  And I got a refund for the workshop I'm not attending.

That I enjoyed today's workshop & friends made it.  Was good to have the brief chat we had.  That I still have access to events like this cos of zoom and that I met the necessary people before I left the UK.

For having access to plenty of comforts and entertainment and relaxing and calming activities.  That we had potatoes and I had paint so the potato printing worked out and that helped me be ready to do the next sketch activity.  That I was excited to reconnect with my dragons and that helped inspire my art.  For the ease of being able to share with others, Internet, messenger apps, phone camera.  

That we live in abundance and now and here and are blessed with so much and that we know to count our blessings.  

For the experience of recording voice clips and the insights that gave me.  For counselling and all i'm working through and having people to talk about it with, and that I can afford the counselling and the journals and books and other hobbies.  

That I love my life and am surrounded by good people and well supported.  For having the angel cards and dragon cards so I can call on them and be reminded of today's session.  

That my dad emailed and I saw it in time to ring him.  

Support

Thankful for an easy work day, & for chatting with team mates.  That I made up my hours from earlier in the week, & the mistake I made has no impact.

For having friends to support me & people who understand me.

Check-ins from old acquaintances. 

That we sat on the sofa together for the intro, impressed husband lasted til the end.  That the annoying one isn't in our class.

That I went out to the bunny before it started to snow.

That I'm feeling better, & looking forward to the conversations with husband I expect the course to generate.  That I had a mini reset listening to cotton eyed Joe & a bounce around the kitchen & I'm starting to remember to intercept that descent.

Survival

Very thankful I realised I wasn't wearing my glasses & found them before they got damaged.  Also that I'd dropped them on the ground rather than in the post box.

That I had a blanket in the car so could take off my wet coat & still wrap up a little.  That I got to the post box & posted my signed paperwork.

For husband bringing me a smoothie as a treat, & for all the effort he puts into meals and treats for me.  Including things like choosing the jigsaws. & for signing up for the course with me.

That I got a reply from my coach & she's happy for me to quit, so I'm quitting.

That I was home in time to speak to someone having issues.  That I stayed reasonably calm & got through my work, & had fun chatting with a workmate.

That I made it to Pilates & am enjoying my new "space".  For the teacher keeping the class online & that I got to make a recommendation for an exercise to include.

Friends & admin

Thankful I reached out to friend & have the paperwork signed now.  That he came round & we had a good catch up.

That it was fine when I went to the woods, & I got parked ok, had a decent loop & it was quiet.

For youtube tutorials & that I've figured the crochet, & had all the supplies I need, for the shops around us & for internet shopping.

For my day off, being able to afford the counselling & the 4 day week, & being able to relax and enjoy my time.

That I've emailed a few people today, the admin is in hand.

For speaking to friends, & the internet for keeping in touch.

Work

That we have heating & cosy clothes, & are warm enough.

For an easy work day & solving a few simple issues.

That scarf arrived with friend.

& another friend received her parcel ok & is pleased with it.

That husband came shopping & remembered food bags

That we have plenty of spare ink & I got the printer working again.

Team meeting was a laugh.

I made it to Pilates & enjoyed it, & there is plenty of room in the kitchen for me to do it.

Holidays

Thankful to remember Pilates, that it was a good session & I managed well.  That there's plenty of room for me in the kitchen & it's a better place to do it.  Thankful to teacher for keeping it going.

To husband for organising food, & looking after me, for checking if I want hot chocolate & then making it for me.

To friends I've been chatting with today, & for the reminder to be compassionate.

That I got the bunny in before the weather turned bad.  That the Christmas decorations fit into the box, & I got the tree away ok.

That husband's made progress on the jigsaw with me so there's hope we'll get it finished this time.

For holidays, and holiday pay, & enjoying a relaxing start to the day.

For all the entertainment we have, & the access to people & resources via the internet.

Better

Thankful to wake up feeling better.

That the rain was bad, glad I cancelled the walk, & got the jigsaw finished & husband put it away & got the next one out.

That I resisted ice-cream tonight & husband didn't make me hot chocolate.  He bought me flowers when he went shopping, & knows my favourites.  That he remembered the stuff I asked for & even found the more obscure dried fruit that he'd never got before.

That the scarf is looking good, & was worth pulling out & restarting.

That I did my shift, & friend popped on too so we weren't overwhelmed & I had the sense to stop when I needed to.

That I can go to bed when I'm tired, without obligations.

Resting

Food deliveries, & other deliveries.

Being able to take it easy.

Freedom from obligations, being able to spend my time how I wish.

That we have voices and the freedom to use them, platforms like facebook, linkedin, & blogs.

That husband looks after me, & knows when to leave me alone.  For a calm, drama-free life.

For food in the cupboard, & a warm safe house, & running water & electricity.

That we have plenty of space and time for hobbies, and rest.