Long Weekend

Thankful for the day off.  For being able to take it easy and start the day in my own time.

Having the time and ingredients to try the brownie recipe. 

That I expected rain and took a jacket, & that it had stopped by the time I arrived.  That I made it on time.

Suggested lunch which was a good shout because I hadn't expected to be out all afternoon.  Am glad I was though, I enjoyed it. And we were lucky with the weather. 

That friend was really taken with the garden and there are loads of little secluded corners where we stopped to chat.  Enjoyed chatting with her.  And if she goes back she'll give me a shout and we'll meet again.  That I told her about the walk next weekend and so she'll join us.  Also having taken the photo of the massage details I had that to pass on. 

Have brownies to take tomorrow for another friend to try.  Glad of a short walk tomorrow since today was tiring.  And of the extra day off tomorrow to be able to take it easy.

That I reread the gaming info and am now signed up so hopefully good to join tomorrow.

Glad the steak husband got was really good and he is happy.  

Have agreed a date & location with the women in the other meetup group so am ready to launch that event too.  Hopeful of making new friends.

Am thankful for feeling more settled and for knowing what I am grateful to have - boss, reduced hours, husband, the house.

Had a good laugh with friend about the brownies and she has given me a much better suggestion for vegan dessert. 

Friends

Glad I remembered grats while still at the pc, much prefer typing on the keyboard to the phone.

That I saw my alarm go off for my massage so I just got there in time.  Had a lovely experience.  Glad I found her and will remember to keep treating myself.  Also that I got parked in the nearest carpark.

That I got my steps in today, & it was dry while I was out.

Had a lovely meal with friends, husband cooks well.  

Remembered to text a friend, & plans confirmed for tomorrow.  Caught up with a couple of friends I rarely speak to.

Got to the post office & there was no queue!  Remembered to buy stamps as well.  Got back to the car before husband.

Managed to get into the app for the work challenge.  Am reasonably placed.

Husband noticed  I cleaned the floor & thanked me, & he's finished the lighting.  Friend has a ladder I can borrow for when I want to investigate the loft.

Other people have bought tickets for the raffle I'm supporting - glad & relieved.

Am doing better energy wise these days. 

Dental

Thankful I remembered to take my mouth guard, & that I got to see the other dentist who is more receptive so even without the mouth guard he agreed to take scans and order a new mouth guard for me.  That there's the option for a digital scan instead of impressions - way less uncomfortable.  Glad to get it all sorted today and will be back next week for collection & fitting.  Glad I remembered to book the next appointment, and got one for husband too.

That his food arrived in time for him to eat before we left.  And then he ordered some for me as well when we got back.  

I managed to get to the library and sort out my accounts.  My borrowbox is restored, with all the items as they were.  Also remembered to get my boots, & pick up some cheap pens for the volunteer centre collection.

Glad  I noticed intern dial into drop-in and got husband to join, that the tables are sorted now.  & husband is the better source of help 

That the weather was good for my walk with friend.  I did OK today, especially well considering I didn't sleep well and didn't rest yesterday.  

Got milk :)  hot chocolate tomorrow and I have overnight oats ready for tomorrow.

Energy

Thankful for better energy today.  That I lasted the day and managed to stay for all of gaming and got home safely.  

That I went gaming.  It was fun and I'm glad I made the effort. Very thankful I found the group, & that it meets weekly and is close enough for me to attend. Also that it's casual so I can just turn up or not. 

For getting the supplements at the supermarket yesterday, that I remembered to look.

That I found some work to do and got my hours in.  That I reached out for help and it worked out.  Also that I managed to help husband.  Always glad when I can repay that.  For getting his prescription- that the weather was nice for the walk and I didn't need to recover from it.

Enjoying doing the reading and glad I voice clipped  it rather than having to type it up.  Also glad she found it useful.

Husband has ordered a new cosy blanket for the sofa.  That he cooked the chicken for dinner.  For the effort he puts in to making nice food for me and takes my needs into account (like avoiding the green veg).  Also that he makes the hot chocolate and orders interesting stuff when he sees it.

My appointment letter arrived for the consultant.

Resilience

Thankful I know I can use grats to turn my mood around before bed.  That I have plenty of time to sort out the hotel booking and can use chat with customer support tomorrow.

Glad that this is a one off and I rarely have issues like this.  And I feel for people who encounter these frustrations regularly.  That husband has the flights booked and it's all taken care of.

That I enjoyed my trip into the other library while husband was at the doctor's and found some interesting books, & was still back at the car before him.  That I remembered to take my licence and get my address updated.

That I got through to an advisor and checked the address in the insurance.  Glad the post redirections still in place. 

For being able to take time off to run errands and that we went to the nicer supermarket which is close by the parcel office.  

That I have time tomorrow and Thurs to run the rest of my errands.  Am meeting a friend dor lunch on Thursday and another friend at the gardens on Sunday.  Also glad of the long weekend.

That I am feeling calmer now before bed and xan have a late start in the morning so can read my book.  That any day can be a late start for me, thankful work is relaxed and flexible.

Have come to terms with some teddies I've decided to give away and even though I miss a couple that I've already donated, I know that really I don't need them and they're better off with a child somewhere.

Monday

Glad husband wasn't long in the doc's.  That I stayed in the carpark rather than getting to the woods and turning straight round.  That the receptionist gave him my print-out.

I got my book finished in the evening and have time to get to the library before the other loans expire.

That I managed my full day of work, & found another gap that I've filled.  This always makes me feel better - me and my boss see my worth.

Thankful my boss is easy going and supportive.  I'm in a nice team.

That husband is being chatty.  Interesting conversations.  Am enjoying having discussions with someone who's interested in exchanged views rather than just talking at me.  That I have the option to come straight home and not stay for cuppa after the walk if I think it won't be conversational.  

Rest

Thankful it's the weekend and I have no obligations.  Told workmate yesterday I love having no plans.  It's true.  Relieved friend bailed on plans although I'm sorry she's in pain.  

Another friend got back to me to say she's free to meet when i'm over in the UK.

That I went to the market with husband resisted buying more cake.  Talked him into the curry though, & we got to taste them all.  Got the madras which I always intended.  The vegan lentil dish seems suitable for when vegan friend comes to dinner and I found some recipes for vegan brownies which I have plenty of time to try out.

Dropped my boots into the cobbler, & bought myself a new crystal, & only that one crystal.

Finished the rainbow and have a new pile of craft supplies to donate to the volunteer centre.  Managed to tidy up a few things in my room and remembered to do washing & hang it.

Found another show on Netflix that we're finding interesting.  Got 2 episodes out of husband without him falling asleep!

Making good progress on the cross stitch too.  Found a nice frame I'd bought a while back and design will fit in it.  & if they don't like the frame the stitching can easily be transferred to a more suitable one.

Checked out the meat place and husband was happy enough.  We have enough meat to fill the freezer now and he's excited about getting a BBQ.  

Put up the "bless this house" plaque from my mum.  Pleased to have accomplished something today.

Weekend

Relieved to have got through the week and to not have been needed in the audit.  That I got to mostly work from home and made it to the office the couple of times it was required.

That husband got a lift to the pub, am pleased he was invited and came.  That we moved on to get food and there was an option for me, & for the second pub doing hot chocolate.   Had a good laugh and stayed out a reasonable amount of time. 

That workmate added him to the group chat, he's part of the gang.

Am loving the house and we've made loads of progress personalising it.  That I read back through an old notebook where I talk about being overwhlemed by the move and packing / unpacking and am glad that's over.  Now I'm enjoying the space.

Got my tarot cards out and did a reading.  Am glad I have them and for friends with shared interests, the reminder that I can find people here with similar hobbies.  That I have plenty of storage space with room for all my belongings. 

That I nearly have friend's present finished and it's looking good.  Already thinking about my next project.  That I have low energy hobbies so even on off days I can still enjoy them, & that if I get up in the early hours because I can't sleep that I don't need to resort to screens.

Allowances

Thankful workmate collected husband so I got a lie in.  

That when I messaged boss he said he'd let me know about going in so I got to work from home, which meant I got to nap at lunch and finish early.  Glad he allows that flexibility.

Managed to get my document done and show my knowledge on another topic.  That I am back to being clearly on the ball.

Someone reached out about something I flagged and it's getting resolved.

Found the references I needed for the boss and again later when someone queried why they had to do something.  

Was awake again by the time husband wanted a lift home.  

That we have fruit and veg and I can eat healthy options if I choose.  We also have cake and ice-cream so I can have sugary treats.

Workplace

For being able to set time and date on posts so I just did yesterday's.  That I remenebred what was in my mind for grats yesterday.  

For my boss being sound and getting to go into work late.  That there are local taxis and husband is happy using them.

For him being a sound sleeper and me being able to get up without disturbing him, for being able to sit in the other room and stitch / read etc.

Joined the rest of the team at lunch which was good - happy to be included. And I liked the corn on the cob.  Leisurely pace now we don't go for the walk, glad they didn't because I wasn't able for it.

Happy to have a desk in the office, and the spare chair to put my feet up.  

Work mate was up for a wander when I wanted to escape.  He knows I'm struggling at the moment and has offered to give husband a lift in the morning.  And husband has accepted.  

That I found the procedures I was after and managed to get done what I wanted finished today.  Approver actually noticed an error in my document so I am going to fix it.

That I pulled round after getting up and taking the xanax.  My stomach settled and I was OK once I got to work.

Friends

Thankful for remembering my mum's card and posting it. 

That dinner was enjoyable and husband loved the food and I actually got to pay.  That they had a vegan chocolate and date brownie which sounds nicer than beetroot chocolate so I can look into that for when vegan comes to dinner.

Got a space in out first choice carpark.

That it was sunny and I got to sit out and enjoy the sunshine. 

Have suggested a date for the pyramid workshop when I'm over, looking forward to catching up with friends. 

Woke up feeling ill and looked into the vitamins.  B12 and C both aid iron absorption and so I know to avoid them.  Glad I went with the cheaper vitamins, half expecting to not be taking them.

  

New habits

Thankful for a lie-in, that husband would have left me there all day if that's what I wanted - even though he wanted a lift to the market (& back).

That I got up & took him to the market, found the cobblers, returned my library book, popped into the art exhibition that was on there, & made it to the crystal shop.  She forgot about the skull I'd asked about so will look into it for me.  Also glad I kept the car keys this time cos I was first back to the car.

That I enjoyed sitting out on the swing, & got my mum's card written ready to post.  & I have stamps so it's just a case of getting to a postbox now.  The weather here is mild & I'm loving the swing seat.

Remembered to get to the chemist & look at the vitamins, glad I looked because there's iron in the one the doc recommended, so I got something else instead.  

That husband got me the cake I like, yummy.  He also got fruit & veg at the market, so I made an effort to eat them.

He's put the new light fitting up in my room, am loving it.

Also remembered to log into work & do the thing I wanted done before Monday, & the server is offline tomorrow.

Did weights, just a little to get me back into it, & had a walk, sunshine, & fruit / veg.  Making the effort to get the basics right. 

Care

Thankful  I got to speak with my boss and explain a little.  Very thankful he's sound and supportive.  And also that I opened up a little to workmate, since he keeps covering for me.   Boss will work around me needing to stay home as needed.

That husband did a prep session with us that led to me rediscovering my previous slide deck so now I'm properly prepared.  That me & workmate know where to split responsibility during questioning.  

The boss liked a suggestion I made and he's said go ahead and do it.  

Remembered to do the thing he asked us to take care of.  

Got out for a couple of walks in the sunshine, & collected my prescription.  Have used the gel and all seems well.  Feeling optimistic.   Also glad to remember grats.  Feeling a bubble of care around me.

Husband took care of dinner and chose a film for us to watch.   Am happy to have the sofa and be comfy enough to watch a film - he chose well (the film & the sofa).   Got 10k steps for what feels like the first time in forever.  Am hoping getting back to exercise ups my energy.  

Plans and backups

Enjoyed a lighter counselling session.  Seeing husband's sweet thoughtful side explaining the deer pictures etc.  That my back felt better after moving around rather than sitting for the session. 

Was finished in time to get husband from the doctor's.   His results are good and doc is pleased with him.  

Made it to the woods for a quick walk.

Managed to get my next item progressed and the half day frees up time later in the week.  

Messaged boss to say I wasn't going in and what about next week.  He says if I don't get in each day he'll just work around it. Big relief.  Thankful my boss is so cool.

Thankful for the freedom to be able to log off as needed and nap.  That I had sufficient naps today, & had the sense to come home for xanax before smear.  Survived the experience & she got it done.  Proud of myself. 

Saw a different doctor and got a different opinion.  A new referral.  Also for the health insurance benefits - have just signed up for an online consultation with the women's health centre - the chance to speak with a specialist. 

Remembered to rearrange husband's monitor for the week after the audit.

Remembered to post my letters, is easier doing it on the way to the doctor's.   Also that I got there on time.  And coming to the shop for cake.  Enjoyed the cake.

Remembered gaming as I was doing weights - and caught them just as they were starting a game.  Was one we played at the Wed session in person.  Glad I caught them and got to enjoy low effort social 

For husband having the dinner ready when I got home.

Also remembered to ask for my blood results and noticed they say male on.  Google says my testosterone is borderline for female (and very low for male which is the range they gave on the results).  Got the prescription so i have time to decide whether to take it or not. New doctor doesn't think it will be affecting my energy levels.  Can book a second opinion with vhi doc too.

   

Bedtime

Glad the phone reminded me about the zoom, I enjoyed it & am glad I went.

That I managed to get my document progressed as far as I could today, & it's in the processing pile elsewhere now.  Remembered something that would have caused it to be rejected so while I'm narked at having to do it at all, at least it's done.

Remembered about husband's prescription & he collected mine that was ready as well.

Thankful for a lie in tomorrow & the morning off.  Also that I offered to work the half day but can bail if I want.  Have the option to go in or stay home depending on how I'm feeling.

Got to snuggle on the sofa with husband, & hear about his concert last night.  That my murderous rage abated before he got home.

Support

Thankful for Pilates instructor friend.  That she specially put gentle exercises in for me & had time for a quick chat after class.  She's going to take some time off while I'm over so we can have a beach day.  That husband was out so I made it to the whole class.  Enjoyed it & my back feels better afterwards.

Had a reasonably healthy dinner, glad I put sweet potatoes on the shopping list.

Husband has done a lovely job of making the house ours, shelves, units, lights.  Admire his ability to sort out storage solutions for us.  & how calm & laid back he is.

Finally got out of the maze in the game book I've been enjoying this weekend.

Got my second boot unit finished & populated.  Glad that all my boots fit in!  

Also for getting the bed cleared in case friend stays over.  Glad husband has got to go out.

For friend to chat with during the day, & her support. 

An online friend went to the effort of providing a detailed explanation of something for me.  Grateful for the communities I'm part of.

Relaxing

Thankful for having the laptop at home and freedom to log in and work as I choose.  Being productive helped calm me down this morning when I needed it.  Glad I know how to do that.

For husband cleaning up and doing the cooking.  Dinner was yummy and he gave me his share of the crispy skin.  Glad he's easy to please, just wants appreciation and that's easy because he's fab.  Emptied the dishwasher and reloaded it.

Proud of myself for giving myself veg with dinner, & had some fruit.  Reasonably healthy.  

Glad of the online community the nurse introduced me to. 

Husband attached the bookshelves to the wall for me which allowed me to clear some space on the library shelves for more notebooks.  Managed to declutter some of the stuff on the table.  

Also printing out the game book stats sheets led me to playing one tonight and I'm enjoying it.  More than playing a computer game I think.  Using the dice tower and the glittery dice.  Husband gets me cool presents - he has a good sense of what I like.  

Another thing I enjoyed today was writing a letter to a friend!  Hopefully he'll appreciate it.  Also have a card that'll suit my mum if I don't get one before her birthday. 

Thankful for the life I have.  Having the house and being able to put shelves everywhere is great and husband is loving the tinkering he's doing.  The lights are so much better and we're loving the sofa and the bed.  

Very thankful to have tomorrow off since I've stayed up way past my bedtime tonight, which i' also thankful for being so engaged it the adventure that I didn't want to stop.

For top up naps.   Friend sent me an article about the health benefits of naps.  So thankful to be working from home with the freedom I have.

Gaming

Thankful for a lazy morning & staying in bed.  For having clean clothes and easy dressing decisions.  

For a cosy inviting bed and house.  

Being safe and warm.

That the tyre pressure warning has cleared.  

House is easy to find and we arrived on time. Made progress with the taxes and friend is happy to be paid with a meal.  Glad we have time for me to find more receipts and be more organised. And that we have the big gaming table now and space to host.

Game was fun and I was alert enough to play and for the drive.  

Perking up

Thankful for the sunny day & being able to sit out in the garden.  That I have my swing chair & a garden.  For being able to walk round to the chemist - being fit & healthy & it being close by.  That I got to speak with the pharmacist & even though she didn't say what I hoped, it's ok.  That I collected husband's medication for him.

That I was feeling better this morning, & managed to get myself to the team meeting.  That it was a good laugh & I got to enjoy it without having to say anything.

For the xanax & getting pulled around enough to get to work & last the afternoon.  That I know how to take care of myself.  For the lovely visualisation I had this morning, & feeling I've turned a corner.

That I managed to make a few sensible points to boss today, & kept on top of a few things as a bonus.  

That I have the long weekend to recover & see whether taking the tablet in the morning helps me sleep better

Progress

Thankful husband was in and out quickly and we didn't have to deliver bloods.  That I turned round and saw him coming and got back to the car as he did.  That I have the tyre inflator and got the tyres pumped back up.

That I made it to the team meeting and it was a really good laugh.   Thankful for the team.  so for being able to take a nap before going to the doctor's.  

In retrospect am glad the smear was cancelled.  Glad I didn't take a xanax for it.  That I have the results showing I'm in perimenopause and have that proof for the doctor.  That the low testosterone helps explain my fatigue.  Also that I've booked the 2 appointments together for when work mate is back.  And it gives me more time to see how the starin is affecting me.

Nurse complimented me on the hoodie dress.  A few people have.  Am pleased I bought it, which really I just did to support friend's shop and now it's a firm favourite.

Short week next week so I've volunteered to work a half day when there's no cover.  Glad to be able to offer to support the boss since he's always so obliging with us.

Made some progress with a work task I was stalled on. And worked a bit extra to make up for short days next week.

Found the table I thought I'd lost / worried I'd taken by mistake.  Also found the one that fell on the floor.  Am calm now and managed with xanax tonight.

Glad of my day off tomorrow.   Have had a relaxing evening of reading and playing computer games.  Glad I enjoy reading and have access right so many books.  

easy going

My delivery arrived & all is well with it, looking forward to getting the cabinet finished.

Husband managed to get a quote for the guttering & what we want is feasible, & around the price he was thinking.

I got out for today's skipping, the weather dried up.

Remember to wash & hang my laundry.

Husband emptied the bins

Messaged my boss about taking the morning off & he was as sound as ever.  Also found myself something easy to get on with & keep me out of trouble for the day.

The cross stitch looks ok now I've started the edging.

Found the chapter I was looking for in the audiobook I'm listening to - feeling ok about tomorrow.

Adulting

Glad the second meetup was cancelled & I could have a rest when I got home.

That the weather was nice for the walk & I had good chats with friends - & it was warm.

For husband doing the cooking, & making sure I get fed. 

That the weather stayed fine for me putting the swing seat together & husband gave me a hand where I needed it.  That I'm enjoying sitting out on it.  The rubbish shed was empty so the damp cardboard's in there so it's not in the way.

Started on the flowers on the cross stitch & it looks much better now it has colour in.  Glad I found a suitable kit and it arrived.  Pleased with my progres.

Finally looked into the insurance app.  Resetting my log in was surprisingly easy and painless. & husband had already update the address.  Proud of myself that I submitted the psychotherapy receipt (& that I requested it in the first place).  I still have some of the receipts from the doctor so I'll submit those next.  I still have time.

Got to a concept in the latest book that I encountered previously and this one explains it well.  Had a look on Amazon & wasn't tempted to get anything (not even a free kindle book that looks good) & the library has one of the books that I found on Amazon.  & it recommended another book that I've also put a reservation in for.  The library here is really good.

Shopping

Husband lets me have a lie-on & sat waiting for me to get up to go shopping.  Patiently waited by the car when I was late getting back.  Got me a treat from the market.  That we were back in the car before the rain.

The van driving past reminded husband to check the shop and it was in the same estate as where we should have gone for the lights and now we have lovely new light fittings.

Has sorted out the doorbell and got me a display so I can see who's there.  Helped me with the new unit when I asked and fixed it in place for me.

The crystal shop had perfect sized skull I imagined in the meditation.  She's taken my number and will let me know if she can get what I'm after.  Also managed to get the doughnut I wanted as a present and some lovely bracelets.

The swing I wanted wasn't in Stock and there's quite a delay so assistant suggested a different one that was in stock.  

Am very thankful for my boss and the job I have.  Also for health and fitness.  That I can sit on the floor and assemble flat packed furniture and stand up again easily.  For my beanbag chair and bay window - sitting in the sun watching out the window.