Thankful to be in a team where other people can cover me, & to be able to take a day off & the work still get done. A colleague offered to drop us off groceries if we needed anything.
My headache is finally gone.
Friends to chat with through the day, & husband being home. Being able to stay home & not go out anywhere.
For having a house, somewhere to live & store our things & stay warm & dry. That I have a big collection of entertainment to see me through, & have discovered audiobooks which I'm enjoying on days when my eyes are too sore to read.
That I can read & enjoy reading. For access to the library, & being able to renew books so there's no pressure getting them back. That they have an interesting range.
That when I picked up one of the books it opened on exactly the right page for what I was looking for.
Thankful for my day off, that I'm on a four day week, & for the flexibility I have.
For the internet & things like youtube, having access to information and tutorials.
That there's space & time for me to do yoga & Pilates,
For finding a counsellor I like, & finding myself identifying checking in triggers / signals.
That it was dry while I carried the paper bag full of paper donations.
That my game arrived in time for use to cancel gaming & have our own session checking out the new game. Also that I was feeling rough & feel better now.
Managed to get an NCT slot in time & not too far away.
Thankful to know a variety of people. To have people to turn to as needed, & for shared hobbies & interests. For the support I have. For the ease of being able to get in touch with people, for phones and internet. For all the tech we take forgranted - like Google maps & directions.
That I went to see a friend today, she phoned when she saw me pass & came out onto the street so I'd see her. That going to hers is always an option, & it's an ok drive. That she bailed on the walk so I didn't have to, & we had a nice chat at hers instead.
For husband cooking & thinking of me when he does the shopping.
That I get a restful day, & husband did weights with me. That I'm stronger than I was & can see that progress. Also see the progress in my mood & mental state.
Thankful for the abundance I enjoy, that I have what I need and access to things I want. For the library and the online library services. That I enjoy reading and am surrounded by books. For the other hobbies I have, & access to the resources I need for those too. For the variety available.
Glad to be able to drive past the market stall, see the stall we wanted wasn't there, & just exit out the carpark.
That I walked down to the cafe and I wasn't that late - got talking to a couple of the others in the queue. It was a pleasant hour or so, & I'm proud of myself for getting tea instead of hot chocolate (esp since I don't like their hot chocolate much). Have been avoiding sugar today, & resisted ice-cream when husband had his.
A few people have signed up for next month's walk, should be good.
That he cooks for me, & when he smoked out the kitchen he opened the window & patio doors & shut the internal ones. Also thankful he chopped up the melon for me, & looks after me. That we're back to trying to be healthy.
That I didn't have the new bracelet on long, & noticed I've reacted to it. A few times when I'm gone to wear it I've decided against it, now I know why.
For having the space to play games, & husband playing with me.
That I've discovered my kindle library on the pc, & it's in colour. I love my kindle, & reference books are so much easier to use on the pc. Glad to have both, & hard copy too. That I have plenty of books, & am enjoying reading.
For husband playing games with me & that I found the gaming group & new games to play.
For having the confidence to pick up a game & run a table.
That husband got me my favourite bread & regularly provides / cooks things I like.
For him doing weights with me, & that I'm getting stronger.
That I stayed online long enough to get my document out for review, & the boss can chase getting it approved.
That I'm getting on better with the new guy now.
Thankful to meet friend for a walk today, to get out & get my steps. Glad too that the woods are open again, & the weather was good. We had a good chat. Nice to be making friends.
That there was nothing planned so I got to nap plenty. Also remembered to phone my mum & she was on good form, & I got to speak with my dad.
Remembered to look at furniture shop with husband, & the near one has a lovely sofa - easy decision. Is also much shorter lead times than the shop we were originally considering.
Husband has chosen a bed, glad to not have to be involved.
That I opened his ignored mail in time to contact someone chasing a bill from our old house, before their deadline. That I still have the necessary email & paperwork to forward on, & they have a messenger contact as well as email.
Husband doing weights with me.
That I've been enjoying cross stitch again, & the mistakes I've made should be easy to incorporate into the design, & work around.
Thankful that the samosa stall was at the market, & that I got parked. Parking and pulling out were both easy and there wasn't much traffic.
That husband came to the shop I wanted and I got more supplies for the volunteer centre, & sharpeners to go with the colouring pencil sets. That I got a project book for my language studies and it's got moveable dividers - which is better than I realised. Plus I managed to get the type of calendar I prefer for next year.
Thankful for the ease of apps and websites and information - all the different ways to learn.
That I woke up in time for gaming and we got there on time. Also that it was fun and were told it plays well as 2 player so I've ordered us a copy.
Thankful for the Internet and home delivery, that things are easy so acquire these days compared to having to go shopping.
That I reached out to someone I know and we're having a good chat. That I've messaged quite a few people today and am feeling socially complete.
Meeting another friend for a walk tomorrow. And the woods is open again- hurray! I knew I wasn't really going to drive to Dublin so this is a good option.
The towels dried so there's space to hand the bedding and husband helped me with the duvet covers.
That I'm free to go to bed, & have the flexibility to nap. That I found guy's house OK and we spent a good afternoon there, & we left before we got hungry or I got too tired. Journal app means I can start taking photos of the games I've been playing and recording it. Looking forward to that - cataloguing the games I pay and whether I like them.
Remembered to message my brother.
Thankful that I stayed home, there was no point going into work, & glad husband didn't need to either.
Husband did weights with me, & he made dinner & chopped up melon for me.
That I remembered to get an address for tomorrow, & am looking forward to it,
That I've gone back to my cross stitch & am enjoying lying on the bed stitching while I listen to an audiobook. Glad to have access to them & to be enjoying them.
Thankful I am so well supported. That husband was there to go to lunch with so I didn't have to wait til I was murderous, that we got a table.
That my delivery fit through the letterbox.
That I got my protocol signed off today, one step closer to the end of this project.
That when the boss told me to do x I replied that I was doing y & he agreed that was the priority. Thankful I find it easy to speak up, & that I can defend / justify the decisions I make. That the boss is easy to work with.
That husband helped me access my reading & I enjoyed it, it's perked me up. It's provided some clarity around something that's been bothering me. I can actually see that I can relax & let this go a little, & maybe after a little, a little bit more...
For being able to offer to get to the chemist for husband & that I made it just before closing.
Excited about the house, relieved to still be able to get excited. That we're looking at sofas & starting to discuss what's happening in each of the rooms.
That we had a laugh at the daily team meeting, & I like my team mates.
That I'm starting to feel physically awful, like I do, & I know it's bedtime. Thankful that I can sleep in tomorrow if I need to.
Thankful I have husband. That he is calm and generous and reliable. That he is calming and cuddly
Also glad I didn't disturb him when I was restless and that he can sleep through me having lights on etc.
For journals and blogging and being able to dump my thoughts out, clear my head and get back to sleep.
That I have access to healthcare, the doc and the dentist. That I can afford my treatment and medicine.
For being able to drive and the additional access that gives me, and the speed and convenience of car travel.
That my boss is sound and grants me the flexibility I need to be able to do my job.
Thankful there were free desks in the office for us, and that I got to give up & come home.
For the flexibility to come home & nap, & work from home. Meetings were cancelled & I got the most urgent thing finished. That the boss covers the global catchup for me.
Boss passed the work I requested onto the other guy & there was nothing I needed to do, seems like everything's in hand.
That I can afford to take the day off if needed, husband looks after me.
Tomorrow is a new day.
For plenty of entertainment like audiobooks and tv shows, for quiet hobbies like the cross stitch.
Thankful to have no plans today & be able to spend the day in bed.
That I got plenty of sleep - must've needed it.
Husband made lunch, & I have things in the freezer I can put in the oven so I don't need to have take away every time he does.
That I am free to take tomorrow off if I need to, if I need more sleep.
That I got the reading done & sent.
Glad we called into Lidl on the way past, & they had activity & colouring books & felts on offer so I got a stash of the volunteer centre. That husband is generous like that & never questions what goes into the shopping.
That the weather cleared up & it was a lovely afternoon for the walk. & I remembered the way - it's a really easy drive. Glad too that friend was driving. They really enjoyed the walk & we had a good chat, not all about work. That we will continue to make plans & hang out.
That I found another meetup group to join, am slowly making friends.
Thankful for the internet & all the resources available. For access to library books including online & audiobooks. For being able to see and to listen.
That the neighbouring house details are still available for me to show people, & being able to get excited about the house & have people to share that excitement with.
Thankful to be invited out as part of the group. That the others got there before me so I could be early & not alone, & that it was fun. I like the team I'm part of at work.
That parking was easy, & I am getting braver in the car.
That when I spoke to the boss I was on good form & my suggestions were well received. I obviously know my stuff & am well on top of what I need to be for the project (eg where the shortage of power leads kicks in). Also that I can show the usefulness of the tracker - & that I'm up to date with everything. That we got to the end of the rebuilds, & I know what I'm doing to carry on with the others now.
It was dry at lunchtime when we got out for our walk & I managed to get husband to go a slightly different way.
Messaging friends, thankful to have friends to chat with. For husband not needing to be in work so we stayed home. For having that flexibility, & the nap at lunch.
Thankful to have my next document nearly ready, & that today's instrument went smoothly - that it looks like I can fly through them if I need to.
The project builds are back on track & we might get the released ones finished tomorrow, am hopeful about the project again.
That we caught a break in the rain to get from the carpark to work, & back over after lunch. & was dry again to get back to the car.
That the team meeting was a good laugh - I like the team I'm in. That there were desks for us when we got to work.
There were nice lunch choices today, & the others were happy to wait for husband to go over. Remembered to ask team mate about tomorrow & pass on the answer.
For being able to read, & enjoy learning. For the internet & access to information.
That the bank guy got my email & his reply came through.
Thankful to be home in the bad weather, with nowhere to go.
That it was dry for our lunchtime walk & husband joined me for it.
That he's put the bin out already.
That even though I was upset this morning, it was a good illustration to show the boss. Glad he came to the team meeting, & asked me last so I could just say no & ask him to hang on for a bit. Sounds like he's finally getting the message. Also that I was composed by the time I got to speak to him. That he makes time for us when we need him, & that he's easy to talk with. Also that I have brought this up in low level ways plenty of times before so it's not coming out of the blue.
Remembering a cosy top to comfort myself, & having a stash of chocolate.
Husband taking the day off meant I got to stay home & hide from everyone while I was upset, & that I had an easy day.
For a week of working with mentor buddy & hopefully getting done what we need to so by the time the other guy's back I won't need to work with him much.
That someone recommended some games so I've been exploring them, & passed the evening. Am feeling more stable now. That I have the money to be able to treat myself, & also that I don't shop to cheer myself up - I turn to the pc or reading or hobbies.
That even after I sat & cried for too much of today, that I still have plenty to be thankful for.
Thankful for the space I have, both physical, & mental. For friends to chat with and help give me perspective.
The weather held for the walk and everyone turned up. Waiting for a friend I knew was coming meant we were still there for the newbie I'd forgotten about.
The others were happy to pay their membership fees and I heard back from the other organisers. As
Thankful too that friend's partner is into crystals and so joined us and we had a great time talking about the crystals and life - better than us just talking about work. And we have plans for future walks too.
I enjoyed the crystal fair (last time I didn't) & got myself a few lovely pieces, within a sensible budget.
I remembered the recommendation I said i'd write and got the draft sent - she is thrilled with it and reminds me of some of my good qualities.
Reached out to someone else I'm getting friendly with who was receptive and now we're connected on messenger. Also got a reply from another contact so we can step the gaming up. Things are looking up socially.
Thankful for the areas in my life I have abundance. Money, clothes, hobbies, books, healthcare, education, knowledge, access, nature, time, food,
Thankful for access to the library collection and the subscription services we have.
That I braved adding membership dues to the meetup group and have contacted a couple of the old organisers.
That contact was thrilled with my offer and her response has given me a happy glow. That connecting on LinkedIn led me to read my recommendations which has also given me a happy glow.
That I survived the day without the xanax and know not to skip one again.
For husband making lunch and providing hot chocolate. For the apple pie treat he got me with his order.
For calling into lidl and getting nice bread and some new stationery as a treat.
That the water I knocked over didn't get on the electricals, & cleaning up encouraged me to tidy up a little. That friend sent me a timely message sating the volunteer centre are looking for wool soni get to declutter most of what I brought from my parent's.
That I have realised where I need to reach out, & that there are people available to me. For the tarot practice reading which is totally appropriate to me. For the groups I'm in and the support I get. For the creative writing course I've signed up to, that it's in my day off and free. That I've come to the realisation I need to speak with my boss...
That I am in a good mood today and have enjoyed my day without feeling any pressure to take care of anything workwise - it will wait.
