Feeling Blessed

Thankful for counselling.  For zoom and having access to UK counsellor and having found one I like who understands me.  That I got comfy in the work room and husband was able to have his computer room and it was a good session today.  

That I'm excited about the house and able to share that.  That I span round putting Nik energy into the rooms, & made it back in time to collect husband.  That there is plenty of credit on the gas and electric for now.

The painter confirmed and is starting next week and the plumber got in touch and will service the boiler next week.

That Jay is good for me and I know this and appreciate him.  That I have a sound boss and am in a good team and recognise that the environment is also good for me - what supports and what hinders my mental health.   That I am well supported.

That we got back to the car before the parking ran out, that there were plenty of spaces when we arrived.  That I got the crystals and have money to be able to treat myself.  

Glad I found somewhere to eat with something I fancied.  The crowd in there when I arrived left before my food was ready, glad I decided to eat in. The guy let me bring in hot chocolate from somewhere else and we had a nice chat when I'd finished.  Glad I offered him a drink too and he gave me free chicken as a thank you & it was nice, as were the sweet potato fries.

Glad I made the effort to go to gaming and it was a good night.  Thankful for the opportunities meetup provides, and that I braved turning up on my own to check them out.  And that husband comes sometimes.  That he likes gaming too.  That I'm comfortable with the drive there and back, and have found a carpark I like. 

Am already feeling more settled and have had a great day.  Thankful to be able to recognise the positives in my life. For the fitbit group and all the people who support me.

That the new house is close enough to walk to and I'm getting plenty of steps in, & managing to get my weight down.

Husband has looked into replacing the barrels and says it's simple and he can do it himself  - he's also ordered the furniture.  Glad he's excited about the house too and for all that he's contributing.  

That I successfully out credit onto both meters.  For having a friend locally who has recommended various tradesmen, & helped me with the prepay meters.  

House

Painter came round & we got there just in time.  Waiting to hear quote.

Thankful friend gave me some contacts, & a colleague knew how to use the meters.

That husband got the shed opened & it's a good one, that was fairly well emptied.

That I wasn't too far when I remembered to go back for the key, & that husband came with me & we measured up for the sofa.

Remembered to phone friend & my mum.

Am really happy with the house, relieved we got it & that everything's ok.

keys

Thankful we got the keys today, that everything went through ok & we're finally done.

That I got parked & someone let me out again into the traffic.

That friend came round & we went to the house together & she is happy to be the first person to see it.

Also relieved the gas card was left out somewhere obvious.  That we're close to the shop for top-ups.  That the light bulbs & curtains & blinds were left.

That logging back in let me access the documentation system & I got the review routed, also that I fixed colleague's mistake.

Friend liked her present.

Husband came for a couple of walks with me today.

Weekend

Glad we decided to check the other furniture shop afterall, managed to get 3 chairs for less than the price of one of the others I preferred.  That we checked the contents when we got back & returned & they found the missing legs.

For having the car & being able to drive, & everything that gives me access to.

For husband doing the cooking & making nice meals.

That I got some pretty new lights, & a discount because it was the display model.

It stopped raining so I could get out to the woods, the guy saw me approach & had my drink ready for me.

Plenty of people signed up to the walk next weekend, & some noobs.

Happy

Thankful for library ecollection and being able to read books in bed on the phone.  

That we got to the market and parking was easy, and I just waited for husband and got to reset the camera time and date. 

That I found some Christmas cards to send, and xan start writing them now.

That he bought me cake he knew I'd like and I got nice grapes too.  That I'm finding it easy to eat fruit - setting up good habits.  That eating out the past couple of days hasn't derailed my weight lost.

Fitbit friend is appreciative of my cross stitch updates, and is stirring happy memories for him.  Am loving the stitching and am pleased other people are enjoying it too.

Going round the supermarket with husband and then to look at the house got me my steps for today - another habit I am pleased to resurrect.  And he did weights with me tonight - am really pleased I brought the weights bench and some weights over - we'd had a good bit of use out of them.   Also thankful we have the room to keep the weights bench out.

Social

Easy task for the day, & got it completed. 

Made it to the woods & treated myself to a tray bake.  Enjoyed the swings & had a quick loop.  Glad the drinks van was open & that they do kids hot chocolate which is a nice size for me.

Made it to the pub on time to meet the others & got a nice parking space.  

Others were parked near me so I had company for the walk.

Enjoyed most of the food we had, & it was nice company - I like the team I'm in.  That I had my tray bake for dessert when I got back. 

Day out

Thankful the team building day was fun, & easy to get to.  That there wasn't much traffic.

There was fruit as well as biscuits so I had some healthy choices.

That I tried the non-alcoholic cocktails & enjoyed them & we stayed long enough for the food which was also ok.

The mortgage funds got released so we are inching closer towards the keys.

Got to meet people, & lunch was small tables so it was easy to chat.   The desserts were very nice too.

Progress

Thankful for my day off and for husband staying home.  

That I slept through the night again.  And husband let me have the study for counselling- warm and cosy in there.  Can see progress in our conversations.  Thankful husband is calm and accepting and I'm learning that from him.

For the car and being able to drive.  That the play area was empty so I got to use the assault course, and I got onto the swings.  

Enjoyed an adventure drive and hopefully know what route to take in future.  Was easy pulling across the main road - traffic was quiet. 

Renewed my annual membership card - glad that exists and I can pop in on a lunchtime.

Progress

Thankful I managed to sort out some work issues & got recognised for it.  

The end of the practical work is done which is a big relief.

That the person I reached out to for help was instantly available & I learnt something new about the software.

That I had the sense to take myself off to the woods when I needed to & I have a boss who enables me to do such things.

That husband was ready to collect when I went for him, & I remembered to avoid the tax & insurance check on the way home.

That I have my work mojo back, & 

Turned the game around & won - pleased.  Am enjoying the games & husband time.

Found something reasonable to watch at lunch.

Mojo

Got my work mojo back, am relieved.

Made it to the bank, & got the paperwork signed, glad I didn't park on the main road, or be wanting a space outside the bank. Was worth driving down that street to remember how much I hate doing so.

That I took my library book & had time to call in & get my latest reservation.  For libraries, and access to books.

Getting better at figuring out the game, & was nice to see husband do so well.

That I figured out what I couldn't on Friday, good to know my brain still works, & that I figured out my mistake from earlier.

Boss was pleased with my assessment, & had no edits.

Recovery

Thankful I had the sense to get to the woods and there were still parking spaces.  That it was dry for my walk, and I remembered fuel on the way home.

That husband filled my advent tree for me 🥰 that he is sweet and attentive.

That we set up the new game and enjoyed playing.  Will get hours out of it. 

For the workshop and the access I have, for being able to join in online activities.   For my network and the cool things I get to experience.  

That I resisted extra chocolate and the scales are moving in the right direction. 

That I am recovering, slept better and longer last night, got up later and for less time.  Had a decent lie in too.

Day out

Had a fab day out. The weather was mostly fine and the fayre was near enough to walk so it didn't matter that it was naff. 

That I got my pulled pork and friend got to sit in cafe and warm up.  

Enjoyed the wheel - haven't been in a viewing one before. 

Finally got a clear quartz dowser & it's gorgeous.  Also a dragon blood jasper which was the one I said I wanted  

Happy to get parked at market and there was no queue at cash point.  

We got to the beach too and I loved it.  Felt much better too.  Also thankful to be driven & able to sleep in car.

On the mend

Glad to work from home, and to be well enough to work.  

That I managed to do some stitching and not just toss and turn when I couldn't sleep.  That Jay is a sound sleeper.

For friend bringing him home for me.  

That we got sorted with the mortgage and my protection insurance is in progress.  

That we need less than I expected to move in - having forgotten about the integrated fridge and freezer.  

Patience

Thankful for being able to work from home / take time off as needed.  That I managed the urgent task the boss wanted taken care of and that I created the next few documents for colleague.

For husband making lunch and tea and me having enough appetite to be able to enjoy it.  That he cuts up melon for us so it's easy to eat fruit.  

That I got another book finished and managed some packing.  Also found a book in the library catalogue that I've been looking at buying, so have placed a reservation.  Thankful the library is free reservations across the entire Ireland collection and they have a great selection of books.  Thankful too for borrowbox and the ecollection.

Ordered a game that was on offer and it's arriving tomorrow.  Used the rest of my voucher so it feels like an extra bargain.  Due to arrive tomorrow ao we'll be able to play it over the weekend.

That I sent a friend some reiki and she said the crystal I chose was spot on. 

Relaxing

Thankful for my day off, that I'm able to get up when I can't sleep and do something else.  That I resisted screens and did stitching instead. 

For counselling and it being online which gives me access to a bigger pool and I have one I like, and I prefer staying home than having to get to in-person sessions.

That I have a calmer approach to work now.  Being less concerned with things that aren't my business, & settling into sharing responsibility 

That it was dry and I enjoyed my loop at the woods.    That the woods are close and convenient and safe.

That I've got friend a place on the workshop as a Christmas present and host is giving me a free place as a thank you for my support.  For my network and friends and that the workshops are online and I can go.  That I can afford both the time and the money to go.

Husband takes care of the shopping and the food.  I got the spring roll I wanted for dinner and found a show that seems OK.

Calm

Thankful for a great day yesterday & being in a good mood.  That it was dry for the walk & we had time to visit the sofa shop.  That friend turned up to the workshop.

That I took myself off to the woods, & it was dry & the drinks van was there & I treated myself.    That I had a pleasant walk & it was empty so I got my backwards walking in.  That I'm in a good mood again.  I made a good observation that the boss was impressed with, & I managed to get some work done.  Finished in time for Pilates & dinner arrived at a good time.  Feeling more positive about the cross stitch now I've regridded it & have made a nice bit of progress on it.

Better

Thankful I did a half day & spoke to my boss.  That he's sound & supportive & we had a nice chat.

That I've been transferring money for the past days so it'll all taken care of in time.

That I sent Reiki to a friend in need, & she contacted me soon after - we had a decent catch up.

That I have plenty of simple joys in my life, from fluffy clothes and slippers to scents and candles...  

For the ability to enjoy & get lost in colouring and stitching, & that I have hobbies I love.

For friends, & shared interests.  That friend still teaches Pilates online & I'm enjoying the Friday session, & husband was happy to let me attend & collect him afterwards.

That I'm feeling better.  That I was energised enough to do some basic housework, & a little exercise.

Support

Thankful for counselling - that we had a good conversation and uncovered some truths.  That friend invited me round and fed me, & I got to the woods.   That we got word about the house and the move is imminent.   

That friend invited me to the woods and drove and it stayed dry while we were there.  That we had a pleasant time in the cafe.  I got my 10k steps, and resisted take away when husband ordered.  Have lost a bit of weight and am happy with that.

That I decided to come off the tablets and still have others to see me through and I had the sense to do both things.  That I'm enjoying my cross stitch project and audiobooks.  Glad I have calming absorbing hobbies and also that I'm for and active.  Had a nice chat with husband on the drive.  Very grateful he is so calm and supportive.  And fir my boss being supportive too and making it easy for me to be off when I'm not OK.

Confidence

Am thankful I have the confidence to speak up. And that I am sure myself and know my stuff.  That answers and ideas come readily when I need them.  That I have shown myself to be competent many times and that is the impression people have of me.

Also that I have the confidence to try new things, and to be able to fail at things.  That I am happy being bad at things - decoupling enjoyment from ability.  

That friend still does the online pilates so I can attend and I made today's earlier session and enjoyed it.  That I still have reasonable flexibility and movement - that I am physically able. 

For it being dry when I went to collect husband's prescription and the few steps took me over my arbitrary minimum.  That I wasn't needed in work today which helped get me to Pilates.  That I have enough space in the house to roll out a mat and take part in the class.

For being able to see and listen - able to enjoy my hobbies of crafts and audiobooks.   Thankful for having access to audiobook collections.

House

Thankful to be inside, warm and dry and safe.  To have the house and food and clothes and entertainment.   For our jobs and easy commute, & a reliable car.  

That we have the canteen at work and a reasonable selection of lunch.

That I figured out how to fix the engineer's issue and got the system working again

For the friends and contacts I've made, & the experiences I've got access to.  

For being online and able to chat with non-local friends, & to be able to take part in online zoom meetings.

Friends

Thankful for being awake early and it being light enough to read in bed.  For library books and being able to read and having access to plenty of books. 

For the coffee van at the woods and that I enjoyed my drink at the start (& didn't feel the need for a second).  That it was a good social walk and I enjoyed it.  That it was mostly dry (& mostly quiet).  That people are happy to pay the membership and i'm back to seeing the group as a good thing.  I also put a bonus walk on for next week.

That I mentioned the Christmas Market to a friend & she's coming with me - we'll have a nice day out. 

That husband played our new game and it's fun and reasonably easy to figure out.  That we have the table and chairs and enough space for gaming and out hobbies.  We were lucky and have a good house, & the agency have been easy to deal with. 

The oven is really good and I resisted getting unhealthy take away and had fruit and veg for dinner. Husband shared ice-cream with me and gave me the last chocolate. 

That I'm enjoying the cross stitch and have made loads of progress.  Glad to have solitary hobbies and flow activities, & enjoying my alone time.  Glad husband is low maintenance and that we have a good life. 

Friends

Thankful I got to Pilates yesterday & caught up with friend.  That I got to swap messages with her today too.  That I was inspired to create a grid for her that she loves, & talk to another friend about crystals.

That husband got his samosas & I remembered to buy the infuser - the teapots were nice but unnecessary & she had a reasonable separate infuser.  Also got a nice present for a friend who was pleased with it.

That it was sunny & I got to take advantage & go to the woods, & the play area was empty so I got plenty of time on the swings.

That friend didn't have to work afterall, & took me out to the gardens, we had a nice chat & stroll, & someone gave her free parking.

Got my refund from Amazon & have resisted spending it.

That I saw the game we wanted cheap locally & it arrived ok.  That I'm able to take time off work as needed.

Thankful for the people I've met on my journey & the friends I've made.  For having access to the library & ebooks & apps & all the conveniences I have.  That the woods are close by & we have lovely countryside & gardens within easy travel.

Day out

Thankful counselling was good, that husband let me have the PC room so I was warm and comfortable.

That the weather cleared for the drive.  Got into the car park and found a space.  Parking costs are reasonable.

Enjoyed sitting in the cafe, & got the table next to the radiator which was on.  Left alone to read and message friends.

Found a crystal shop and a lovely crystal.  Was restrained and only bought one.  Husband's next appointment is also a Wed afternoon and I'll take him and buy myself some jewellery for Christmas.  

The town looked nice and is easy to get to.  Also feasible to meet a friend there.

Have enough thread for the grass even though I've been doing it wrong.  Phew.

Taking it easy

Thankful no-one came to me with issues.  That the basic trouble shooting I did was enough.

Workmate took care of the urgent task from Friday. 

I finally got into the document system and routed what I needed - that there's nothing urgent.

That things are progressing with the house & we signed the paperwork.   I know my limit for transferring money & have time to get to the bank tomorrow if needed.  That we got there just on time and I remembered to take our marriage cert.

I'm doing OK on the prozac, the side effects I was worried about on the weekend didn't appear.