Social

Thankful I got to the meeting & got one of my issues resolved.  

That I had a fun chat with a colleague, & we did some investigating which was interesting & educational for him.

That I braved the meetup & enjoyed it, made a good connection, & met like minded people.

That I had a lie down & got the boost I needed.

Think I'm on top of everything workwise.

Husband is still keeping an eye on houses so I don't need to.

Still maintaining my calm.

relaxing

Glad I'm doing better these days.  Calmer in general.

Friend appreciates me doing the daily draws again & helped me interpret my cards.

Another friend dowsed for the house for us & it's a good choice.

Resisting chocolate (mostly) & I'm under 10 stone again.

That counselling was interesting & I can see progress.

I got to the woods & enjoyed the quiet, & stopped for fuel & there was nothing coming as I pulled out.  Loads of easy turnings today with no traffic.

Am enjoying the cross stitch & am still right with the pattern.

Crafts

Thankful I got through most of the work I needed to today, & got to the craft lesson.  Have a refined idea of how to move forward & managed a reasonable practice. & managed to get parked.  Amazon have what I need & it'll arrive on Friday. That I met someone from the other craft group who also isn't going back.  Am flattered she remembered my name.

Remembered to turn on the alarm for counselling.  

That my boss is cool, & being late back didn't matter. & the usual meeting was cancelled.

Friend has booked our next workshop.

I got the viewing for the time we wanted on Friday, looking forward to it.  Husband is impressed by the size of it.

Fine

Thankful to go for a walk instead of just sitting in the car, & that I got back to the car before husband did.  Had a drive past the house we're interested in & a little explore of those roads.

That we still had our lunchtime walk, & I got some nice bread.  That I have a suitable little scarf for my head, & am happy wearing that, plus it's enough to keep my head warm.  That my hair will grow back.

Friend received the gift I sent & I got a lovely message from her, much happier with that than no acknowledgement.

Have avoided a potential crisis with a simple suggestion to someone who's taken action.

Glad of the half day & the late start.

That I found cushion covers of the right colour & am ready to start my next project, in time for craft club (lessons) tomorrow.

Perspective

As I'm getting near the end of the notebook I'm using for counselling, the shop had them back in again.  I've spent almost a year (since I bought the first one) looking for the same one, & thankfully we called in (which is unusual for us now) when they were there!

That I was up in time for the workshop after all, enjoyed it & had a good partner who appreciates my presence even when I don't speak.

That I got myself to the woods, that it was reasonably quiet & I remembered to pick up a pine cone for my next art journal entry that I've been stuck on.  For some cool photos to send to friends, & that I do the additional loops with the phone away.

That I got past the tough times for my coursework journal & to the memories of the last time I was in England & getting spoilt by friends.  Am looking forward to my trip over this summer, & was worth the reminder not to work through the shutdown again - it's so dull!

Journal shows how much progress I've made since this time last year when I was in the pits & starting on an extra anti-depressant & spending all my time sleeping or crying.  Now I'm off that & back to starting dose of the other, & know places to go & have things to look forward to (like the workshops).  That the meetup walks are getting attendance & I've found new meetups to attend.

Friends

Thankful for the walk with husband down to the town, both the walk & not having to drive.  For getting my 10,000 steps today.  Having the self-confidence to brave going out in public with my shaved head.

& thankful to him for doing his as well.

For discovering that some gardens I usually like are disappointing at the moment (no flowers & the wooded bit is shut) when I was driving past rather than having made a special trip.

That I was brave & went over to see a friend & we had a really good chat.  Possibly cos I had a big chunk of raw blue lace agate in my pocket & I'm friends with it now.  Her dogs are really cute & friendly & I enjoyed petting them too.  I was good getting to know her better & sharing the conversation.

Also braved putting a post on LinkedIn & some workmates have liked it & a few comments.  Also reassured friend told me I can pull it off & it suits me.  I think a few people said that last time too.

Thankful that I'm in a position where I can shave my head, & that my hair will grow back, & for the convenience of being able to shower afterwards to wash all the hair off.  For having a house & electricity.

For being reminded about the clock change & having time to drop out of a meetup tomorrow, & the organiser thanked me for the reminder & changing my rsvp.

Work

Thankful to have a good supportive boss & team.  That we get to have a laugh in our team meetings.

That I found the pattern I was looking for & took it for the wait.

That we got to the docs on time, & turning at the T-junction was easy.

That husband ordered tea, & we were home before it 

That I've realised how much better I am than this time last year, & am thankful for that.  Life is good.

Sleep

Thankful husband did my hair, & did his as well so we've got joint photos.

That I got my task closed today so meeting my deadline.

That I got out of something else I didn't want to do.

When I picked up my stitching it was correct & I got a little bit more done.

No-one else has signed up to the challenge, so it's just me.

Remembered to phone the estate agent & get the eircode, & cancel the viewing.

That I got to Pilates, 

Now it's bedtime, happy for sleep

Gardens

Thankful for my lie in, for enjoying my book.

For asking for & keeping my day off, honouring my needs, knowing what I need & braving asking for them.

That it was a lovely day & I chose to walk down to the town centre rather than drive & got my steps.  

That I got to the post office & posted my parcels.

Had a pleasant chat with the lollypop man & was on the right path, & I got to the volunteer centre.  The blankets look lovely & there's plenty of time for me to do more.  & I got another ball of wool.

That I found the community garden & it was open so I ventured in, & had a lovely wander & a rest.  That there's a seat swing & it was empty.  & I saw my phone ring & got to take the call from the estate agent.

That I've finally joined the library, & was able to take books straight out.  Looks like a good selection there.

Work

Thankful for another quiet day & that I got the review complete so it was ready to show the boss.  That I got a decent chat with him to show him where I'm at & what I've been thinking.  & he likes what I've done, & mostly agreed with it, just a few amendments. & I've remembered most of my actions from the meeting & taken care of them.

That something else that came in me & team mate had discussed so we've passed the options on to the boss.

That working late gave me the excuse I needed to skip tonight's class.

For my day off tomorrow, & that my boss knows & tries to remember, intentionally suggests the days I work for meetings.

For the supermarket & car & house & electricity, & safe drinking water etc.

House

Thankful I got up early & the day was quiet.  That I got to the end of the document & found a couple of references I needed.  That I had a good chat with workmate & have decided against going to the wedding alone.

That I got out for a walk with husband, & we got his letters posted.  That he takes care of meals, & feeds me, for cooking chicken at lunch & making the effort to do things I like.

For having a nice house in a nice area & having plenty of space & heat, water, electricity etc.  For everything I take forgranted, sewerage & running water.

For having the car & freedom.  Leaving the toxic job & people behind.

Healing

Thankful I remembered my tablets, & they gave me the right ones.

That I enjoyed the workshop, even though initially I didn't think I would.

That everyone else turned up & I got to message a few friends afterwards, & we already have plans for the next one.

That I have plenty in toolkit & am blessed

For calm, & living in safety.

Walk

Thankful I managed to leave on time, & remembered to fill the screenwash.  That we arrived in good time & the others weren't too late.

That we kept a slower pace & it was a quieter (less chatty) walk but the others still enjoyed it.  

Proud of myself for boundary, saying no.

That I have the tiger worked out so I found out where I am in the pattern & managed to get on with it today.  Finished the audiobook, enjoyed it, & have found more I'm interested in.

Husband came to the supermarket with me to get something for tea, & he'd've gone without me.
Rearranged friend's grid, & prefer it like that.

Other friend & her friend confirmed & paid for the workshop, looking forward to it.

Relaxing hobbies

Thankful for the bonus day off, for a lie in & for a relaxing day.

For husband cooking, & for the house & heating.

That I answered the door to the census woman (rather than just closing it again).

That I didn't get sucked into friend's drama.

Got my mother's day card organised.

Have done enough of the grid to start stitching again, & managed to notice the guidelines in the wrong place before I counted from them.

For knowing my limits & not doing weights today, so I can save my energy for tomorrow.

Better

Managed most of the afternoon at work yesterday, glad my boss is sound.  That I got the calculations fixed, proud of myself.  That I know my limits & am good with my boundaries at work.

I found the invitation!  Pleased that I have the idea & that I'm confident I can execute it & have plenty of time to do so.  & that I didn't have much tidying up to do to find it.

For no traffic & I got to the walk on time, & enjoyed it, & managed it all. Glad I have my energy back, & that I had the sense to take it easy the rest of the day to recover.  For a couple of realisations I've had over the past couple of days.

Baby steps

Thankful for having the energy to log on and work this morning, & for easy tasks & no demands on my time.

That I have the freedom to let the boss know I'm disappearing & log off, & no other tasks appeared during the day.

That I managed the driving, & was home when both my parcels arrived.  The selenite arrived safely & is gorgeous, & that I got to spend the afternoon lying down.

That I've updated a payment, in a low pressure situation & all is well.

Managed to finish off & package a couple of parcels for friends.  Feel better having taken that step & also with the decision of who they're going to.  Pleased with myself for the baby steps I've taken today, & for knowing my limits.

& even more rest

Thankful to be able to take the day off & recover.  For knowing myself well enough to know I needed it & being brave enough to make the decision.  That my boss is sound.

For husband taking care of the meals so I don't need to think about it.

That he helped me change the bedding so we have fresh bedding for tonight - yay!  Also that I got my dry washing put away & remembered to hang the bedding when the washer finished.

That the spin cycle worked fine the second time round, relieved the washer is ok, & that we have room to hang washing inside.

That I perked up this afternoon & got up.  For friend recommending Hay house audio & for me finding some things of interest to listen to.  That I'm finally through the shredding pile & am getting the paperwork clutter under control.

That I got a cross stitch project finished & have friend's address.  Now to post it...

Thankful this is a short week, so I can get through tomorrow & then get more rest.

More rest

Glad I was awake & made it to the zoom meetup, that I enjoyed  it.  Had a partner who listened.

That the workshop helped me appreciate how far I'm come & how well I'm doing.  Thankful for being brave, opening up to people, & the risks I've taken paying off.

That friend called in with my crystals & I love them, & we had a nice chat, & she loves my crystal collection.

For being able to spend the day lying in bed / on the sofa, & husband cooking for me.

That I got the mission completed on the computer game I play.

That another friend appreciated me sending on a blog link, I can be kind & thoughtful.  

hobbies

Thankful for reading in bed, that it's light and warm.  

That the day was pleasant enough to open the windows.

That I brought over the main hoover so I don't have to use the handheld on bigger cleaning sprees.

That I remembered to hang the washing & I found husband's toothbrush.
That my new tops arrived, & they fit.

Remembered the zoom & had a pleasant chat with a few of them.

That I charged my phone before hand, & also the tablet & my kindle.

For friends to chat with during the day, & that I remembered to set the alarm for tomorrow's zoom.  That I'm excited about getting new crystals.

Rest

Thankful to have a job where I can take a break when I need to.  For an understanding & supportive boss, & being part of a team.  That I felt better after a nap & finished my work.

That I got to pass on a document I'm bored of editing.

That we had a laugh in the team meeting.

For husband cooking, that we have a cooker & fridge etc.  electricity & kitchen appliances.

For next week being a short week.

That husband went to the supermarket near the shop I wanted to go to, they still had the wool I was after. & the knitting needles, & as a bonus they had raw crystals.

That I've nearly finished untangling my wool mess.

Rest

Thankful we saw team mate dial into meeting & went back in for a chat.

That I had an easy day, & got into the apps I needed.

Managed Pilates & remembered to send friend the link.

Got out for a 20 min walk with husband at lunch.

Husband brought me hot chocolate without being asked

For having a roof over our heads, & heating & clean running water, & electricity, & food, & friends & family are well.  For being educated and literate, having jobs and money.

Wellbeing

Thankful for the lie-in, for reading in bed.  For husband and being warm and cosy.  

That he put the jigsaw away and got a new one out & has been doing it with me.  That we have the space to have a dedicated jigsaw table, for having a house & being able to afford heating, & having access to clean safe water and electricity.  That we live in a nice reasonably safe area.  That I saw the flood on the opposite side of the road & was able to come back a different way.

That I'd done my prep for the meeting & had time to log in & check what I needed to do.  The meeting went well enough & I'll be able to do the next step.  

That I was looking at my phone when workmate measured so I was able to log straight in & help him.  Glad for my Wednesdays off & there being no expectation for me to work, but I can if I want to.

For friends to chat with, that I am well supported in terms of work and social, & especially with husband.

Happy to be in a positive supportive relationship.

That husband got his review & is happy with it, & with his bonus.  Glad we are in a workplace that appreciates us.

Speak

Thankful the meeting went well, & the boss turned up for it.  That I got my questions asked & answered.

That he came to the team meeting & I got my piece said, & got some checking assigned to the others.

That I got to speak at the other team meeting too.  

That I got parked for craft club, & she had my favourite of her snacks.  That I figured out where I was in the shawl pattern by myself, without needing help, & got my memory refreshed on the square.  That I found the centre of the ball of wool & now I know how to work the ends together.

Timing

Glad we had a laugh at team meeting & weekly catch-up. & that I felt better after both.

That the boss came to the other meeting & answered the questions.

That I logged on again this evening just after someone was asking for help & it was an easy fix that I took care of.

That the project locked & the document went straight through rendition - phew.

That I got out to the gardens at lunch & my favourite water feature was on when I arrived.

That I have my questions ready for tomorrow & the prep is under control, & that the meeting is tomorrow & not wed.

social

Thankful for getting out to the woods, for the sun.

That I enjoyed the chats I was in, & we found a bench for our cuppas.

& that there were still people at the knitting zoom when I logged in.

That husband watched me do weights, 

That there was nothing at the fair to tempt me & I didn't just spend for the sake of it.
Checked in on someone I'm friendly with & they are happy for the offer of a lift for the next walk.

That I've managed to start untangling the sock wool.

Relax

Thankful for an easy day.

That the boss came to the team meeting so I got my questions answered.

That I made it to Pilates and enjoyed the gentle stretching.

That I remembered what the stitch I like is called & started on a new square - & had the right number in my chain.

For husband making me hot chocolate & that I feel better now.  

For the freedom to lie in bed and read.

Wednesdays

Thankful for my day off, for enjoying a lie-in & it being light enough to read in bed.

That I decided to try a new position for the counselling & sat on the bed instead & I think I was most comfortable that way - she said I was more relaxed.

That I had time enough to walk to the massage & arrived at a good time, & remembered where it was & how to get there.  Thankful to get an appointment.

That braved the longer massage worked out, & I enjoyed it.

For getting to the shop after & the centre being open to drop my donations in.

For the grid I created for a friend, for all my crystals & my interest in them, & the resources and support available to me.  That I have loads in my toolkit and they are easy to access.

For another friend & her card range making it easy for me to send things to friends.

Hobbies

An advert on Facebook for the fair on Sunday that I'd forgotten about.  Thankful for the reminder.

For having a laugh with a friend today, & another friend told me she values my insight & support.

That I made it to craft club & she had berry tea bags for me, & that I figured out the pattern myself & can read the pattern chart rather than having to follow written instructions.  That I'm enjoyed the crochet, glad I've started it & for YouTube & access to clubs to learn.

That I got parked outside the centre tonight, & it didn't matter that I was running late.  

That I managed to put a presentation together & explained the processing concepts.  That they let me go first, & asked for it to be emailed round for the people that missed the briefing.

That I have a massage booked for tomorrow, & remembered to put the cash into my purse.  That I can afford treats like that.

Husband's levels are back to normal.  Phew.  & he came for a walk with me.