Work

Thankful to have my next document nearly ready, & that today's instrument went smoothly - that it looks like I can fly through them if I need to.  

The project builds are back on track & we might get the released ones finished tomorrow, am hopeful about the project again.

That we caught a break in the rain to get from the carpark to work, & back over after lunch.  & was dry again to get back to the car.

That the team meeting was a good laugh - I like the team I'm in. That there were desks for us when we got to work.

There were nice lunch choices today, & the others were happy to wait for husband to go over.  Remembered to ask team mate about tomorrow & pass on the answer.

For being able to read, & enjoy learning.  For the internet & access to information.

That the bank guy got my email & his reply came through.

Rest & recovery

Got to make up an hour at work, & teammate was getting on with what we agreed.  Cleared my training backlog.

Managed all my errands, and free parking since someone gave me theirs as they were leaving.  Waved a couple of cars out & felt good about being that kind of person.

Had a nap when I came back, & felt refreshed afterwards.

Enjoyed catching up with someone from my past, & heard back from new friend.

Treated myself to a massage, & in the few mins I was early got to check out parking for Friday, also found parking nearer the massage room for future times I drive down.  Driving was the right choice for today, thankfully the rain was when I was inside.  Was worth trying a new experience, & knowing not to bother with a head massage again,  

Got myself some new tops like I've been looking for 

Good form

Got husband to the doc's in nice time & was easy to pull up & drop him off & continue to the woods.  That it was dry while I was there & I got back for husband at a good time.  Plenty of people waved me out when I needed it.

Didn't have to take bloods to the hospital so got to work in time for the team meeting which was good.  Obviously in much better form today, & had a better idea for what instrument to take - showing I'm on top of the game today.  Also found & corrected a mistake that's been in my first 5 protocols & none of the approvers spotted.

Got the instrument done today, just the paperwork to take care of now.  Explained it to team mate & we found a mistake - he checked the rest so he was happy reviewing after that.  Good to have him to turn to since he's in most days.  Also that other team mate helped him so we got it all done between us.

Got to lunch (& back) in the dry, & finally managed to meet colleague from the other dept.  Rained all through lunch so we got to sit & chat instead of a walk, & we got free cupcakes.

Found wedding certificate, & filled in the paperwork - ready to drop off tomorrow.  Didn't need as much time off this morning as expected so I have just a little to do tomorrow & plenty of time to do a few chores.  Very relieved to find wedding cert & the rest of my formal paperwork.  

Had a nice chat with another team mate & we're going to make some corrections on the builds - he's so easy to deal with & a reminder that I am good at what I do, & it's all well thought out etc.

Space

Thankful to be home in the bad weather, with nowhere to go.

That it was dry for our lunchtime walk & husband joined me for it.

That he's put the bin out already.

That even though I was upset this morning, it was a good illustration to show the boss.  Glad he came to the team meeting, & asked me last so I could just say no & ask him to hang on for a bit.  Sounds like he's finally getting the message.  Also that I was composed by the time I got to speak to him.  That he makes time for us when we need him, & that he's easy to talk with.  Also that I have brought this up in low level ways plenty of times before so it's not coming out of the blue.

Remembering a cosy top to comfort myself, & having a stash of chocolate.

Husband taking the day off meant I got to stay home & hide from everyone while I was upset, & that I had an easy day.  

For a week of working with mentor buddy & hopefully getting done what we need to so by the time the other guy's back I won't need to work with him much.

That someone recommended some games so I've been exploring them, & passed the evening.  Am feeling more stable now.  That I have the money to be able to treat myself, & also that I don't shop to cheer myself up - I turn to the pc or reading or hobbies.

That even after I sat & cried for too much of today, that I still have plenty to be thankful for.

Thankful for the space I have, both physical, & mental.  For friends to chat with and help give me perspective.

Social

The weather held for the walk and everyone turned up.  Waiting for a friend I knew was coming meant we were still there for the newbie I'd forgotten about.

The others were happy to pay their membership fees and I heard back from the other organisers. As 

Thankful too that friend's partner is into crystals and so joined us and we had a great time talking about the crystals and life - better than us just talking about work.  And we have plans for future walks too.

I enjoyed the crystal fair (last time I didn't) & got myself a few lovely pieces, within a sensible budget. 

I remembered the recommendation I said i'd write and got the draft sent - she is thrilled with it and reminds me of some of my good qualities.

Reached out to someone else I'm getting friendly with who was receptive and now we're connected on messenger.  Also got a reply from another contact so we can step the gaming up.  Things are looking up socially.

abundance

Thankful for the areas in my life I have abundance. Money, clothes, hobbies, books, healthcare, education, knowledge, access, nature, time, food, 

Thankful for access to the library collection and the subscription services we have.

That I braved adding membership dues to the meetup group and have contacted a couple of the old organisers.

That contact was thrilled with my offer and her response has given me a happy glow.  That connecting on LinkedIn led me to read my recommendations which has also given me a happy glow.  

That I survived the day without the xanax and know not to skip one again.

For husband making lunch and providing hot chocolate.  For the apple pie treat he got me with his order.

For calling into lidl and getting nice bread and some new stationery as a treat.

That the water I knocked over didn't get on the electricals, & cleaning up encouraged me to tidy up a little.  That friend sent me a timely message sating the volunteer centre are looking for wool soni get to declutter most of what I brought from my parent's.  

That I have realised where I need to reach out, & that there are people available to me.  For the tarot practice reading which is totally appropriate to me.  For the groups I'm in and the support I get.  For the creative writing course I've signed up to, that it's in my day off and free. That I've come to the realisation I need to speak with my boss...

That I am in a good mood today and have enjoyed my day without feeling any pressure to take care of anything workwise - it will wait.

Recovery

Thankful to be able to have a lie-in, & that everything that needed done today got done.

That husband could stay home in the morning so I could be left to my bad mood.  Got to work with mentor buddy again which is enjoyable & straightforward.  Team meeting was a laugh.

Was in a better mood when we headed to work, & I got my scanning done & my document progressed.  Have the next one ready to go after I speak to the boss.  Can see that we're through the worst of the project & am looking forward to next week & working with mentor buddy again and seeing just how much we can get through.

That husband came for a walk with me at lunch, & we did a loop past the new house.  There is some grass out the front, I couldn't remember.

That I have the freedom for either a lie-in, late start, or be off tomorrow depending on what I need.  That I am doing better & that'll be obvious to the doctor.  Glad for the continuity of care here, & always seeing the same doctor.

That it's quiet & I like my bed.  For meditation apps and being able to sleep.